the way my blood ran cold every time you threatened me
the way that the blade felt as i dug it into my flesh to form the letters of your name
the way the candle wax burned as it hit my skin
the way that the acidic feeling in my throat would linger when you made me film myself purging
the way i would try to speak clearly between sobs in those videos you forced me to make, the ones where i apologized to you
the way you talked me out of taking my life in front of you, not out of love, but out of your desire to keep me as a pet
the way you told me that killing myself was selfish, that you needed me to stay
the way i begged you to make the pain stop as i dragged a razor down my face, over and over, while you told me to smile
the way you manipulated me
the way you abused me
the way that i continue to recall those memories against my will,
all of it is torture.
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I’m so sorry for your pain.
thank you for your condolences.
That is so awful and I really hope you stay away from that psychopath. I have a friend who is going thru something similar and she is finally getting out as of yesterday.
Please tell her to contact law enforcement. They are helping me greatly.