I Can’t Take This Shit Life Anymore

Agreed fully. For now despite the misery of my life, I’m sticking to my plan…cause there’s also no easy way out.

I’ll only really consider suicide when things get truly bad for me and that can certainly happen. For now I’m coasting along and things are ok…so I’ll keep trying my luck at making my life better.

But one good thing about this site, apart from getting support and sharing ideas with like-minded people is also the constant reminder to have a plan and a kit ready to go…in case the worst really does happen.

Like if I was to lose all my family, job, etc…then that’s it for me. I’d be out. I’m just hanging on for them mostly and I’m not really far from that…my parents are elderly-they can diie anytime, I suspect in the next 5-10 yrs if not sooner…I’ve totally cut off one of my siblings don’t get along too well with the other.

Ofc even though we’re not close they would suffer from my loss, but it’s not like they can save me (and I wouldn’t expect anyone to)…so I’d have to just look after myself and wrap up my own affairs. I wish I could’ve said it’s been a good run but it hasn’t.

My parents should’ve known better than to have kids…but then don’t all parents do the same? They pass on their suffering to their kids…because they’re selfish.