Been preoccuppied with sp chat and FBSP rather than the original. My old home. I have endured much in my past i jsut want out. I need a gun. Fast. My moms boyfriend wants to take me to mexico so we could shoot guns and shoot drug dealers cuz i want the army to “shoot people”. I want to off myself is the real reason. I am triggered by special phrases that fuck me over most of the time. Whats going on? almost always triggers the voices especially when im insane from 12-4 am… I started crying right now cuz of the voices coming back giving me an anxiety attack…. i hate and love it. i am so masochistic. I have ocd, i have depression, im suicidal, lazy, a dick, smartas, insane, 2 o more personalities, and a troubled mind. I dont deserve life. I enjoye pornography of children, and i hate myself for it. I am a piece of shit. I desire death pleaase let t be the answer.
Everyone i know is from SP or just psn. I seek love but dont grasp it. I flirt on the internet then…. it doesnt matter i need to die…
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I need to go too.
<3 -_-