I promised I wouldn’t do ‘crazy shit’ to my psychiatrist, but I just can’t hold it anymore. I don’t live my life for me, I live it for them.
But fact is; they don’t care if I’m here, there or gone. My councilor at school is totally lost with me, he doenst know what to do with me, the kids at school ( yeah, they’re kids. freaking childish barbiedolls. I’m turning 19 in less then a month and my class is full with 16 y/o barbies :l ) don’t see me. I will give my parents, my family, my friends rest. My parents will have so much money and so much free time. so much burden of of their shoulders. My friends finally won’t have to listen to my sorry-ass.
Fuuuuu. I’m done. I started cutting again. yesterday, I think it was… yup. and it feels good. I started smoking again, and it feels good. I gain massive weight since two weeks…
FML.
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Soulless-dawnkeeper,
“I’m done. I started cutting again. yesterday, I think it was… yup. and it feels good. I started smoking again, and it feels good. I gain massive weight since two weeks…”
oh gee now things will get better!