i m 22 years old and i m the biggest loser in the world. I have failed in each and every field of life, studies, sports, socialising, relationships, etc. i love a girl very much. but she has no feelings for me and she keeps on saying, “i dont love u, but i want u just as a friend”. these words tears my heart apart. i even stopped contacting her. but she contacts me once in a week and repeats the same lines. i just cant take it any more. but i cant even b rude to her.
i suck in sports. whenever i play i get screwed up and everybody ends up laughing at me and making fun of me.
i have always failed in academics. in my graduation i got just 40% marks. i have failed 6 times in chartered accountancy foundation exam.
i m underweight and very weak. i cant fight even to save my own life.
i think that god sent me into this world as a punching bag for others. i dont belong to this world. i just want to end this life. but i dont do this only because of my parents. they will suffer if i m dead. but each passing day is tougher and tougher for me. may b, there will b a day when i will not care about anybody and end this wreched life.
SOMETIMES, SUICIDE IS THE ONLY OPTION…
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Only you can control situations, no one else can do it for you. I know its hard but go inside see whats wrong, try to visualise what could be changed and how and do it either visualising you different or by actually trying to change it for real, step by step. It wont be immediate but it’ll work. Trust me it works!
You just haven’t found what’s right for you. There are so many different fields of study, you should chose what interest you. If i did accounting I’d fail too since i don’t find it interesting at all. Same goes with sports, some ppl seem to be good at team sports while others prefer non team sports like biking. You don’t have to be the best as long as you enjoy it. no one should be a “punching bag” for others, u deserve better and you know it.
Maybe Accounting just isn’t for you? Why not try something else?