I know genreally pill overdoses fail and such but mine is well backed up my extensive research so its not a option. I know there is the chance i will end up in hostipal in agnosing pain as my liver will be completly destroyed after 200 pills of these kind but thats a risk im willing to take. Hanging was my go to for a long time but I just cant bare for my parents to hear “your daughters hung herself” its just too brutal exleast this way they will get to be by my bedside in hostipal. It pains me to be typing this so casually knowing the pain my family will endure its selfish of me but i need them to know this is noones falut but my own I am a pathethic excuse for a human being dont try to tell me otherwise because you dont know me just belive me when i say that. I wont explain the circumstances that lead me to this but just know its not a simple breakup nor teenage problem. It is a mental disorder that ive suffered 8 with for years  ive tried 6 antidepressants been to therapy for 2 years , simply the pain outweighs my coping mechanisms. I wish you all luck on your journey in life or death and hope you can find hapiness. Bless you all.
suicide is a permanent solution. to a temporary problem.
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You are a daughter… Just like he was a brother – my brother. Him killing himself is still too much for me to take, its still unreal. But I think he was like you – so tired of life. I wish he has not done it, I wish you wont do it but I kind off understand the need to end the suffering.
Im so incredibly sorry your for your loss sweetheart . Just know he is at peace with himself now and he is no longer suffering. yes. I have endured alot of suffering and taken it on the chin most times but now i truly feel it is my time
If you’re sure it’s going to work, see you on the other side. But what if it doesn’t?
thats where my rope will come in handy 🙂
Do you mean you’re going to hang yourself?
I’m just scared, what if it does work, you seem like a nice person 🙁
If you go then its your choice. It would be selfish to keep you here suffering for the sake of others. Just make sure you gave life and getting better some chances an attempts. Thats all i would ever ask of anyone who shares this pain. Also make sure you don’t panic and that its strong rope. The after effects and the results of surviving can be horrible and make it worse….hanging…if the neck doesnt break you will suffocate via the rope choke~
thats my back up plan. yes but im hoping i wont have to resort to that..thank u 🙂 im not a bad person. I do have severe social anxiety though so i constantly have a hard time talking to anyone and doing anything with my life thats where my depression has all come from. but im not unhappy about suicide infact its a relief if anything .
Oh and pills wont work even with research. Unless its a barbiturate or i forget the other. You will wake up in a hospital with some organ damage, pain, possible stomach pump, nope probable. There are other methods that work better. Overdosing is mainly successful with illegal drugs and like i said barbiturates.
hey, if you’re sure then go ahead, i’ll see you on the other side, but i want to stop you, but thats going against your own choices, so do what makes you happy 🙂
yes im well aware.. They are tricyclics the older style of antidepressants.. I Have been collecting them for months so i now have a total of 200 . you may be right in I might fail but either way I will die if this atttempt doesnt work theres my back up. I may fail at everything else in my life but this is something i simply cannot. I appericate you wishing me well in my choice cause i hate people that shove religion down peoples throats and say the same old bullshit of “stay strong ” . take care man
Learn the hangmans noose. Good rope. Um hope you find what you seek. Also careful meds make you throw up after a certain amount. Safety measure.
Same here,the second sentence,I eould never want to be like ‘oh she killed herself’
wish you the best. i am disordered or something, without diagnosis, so i completely understand you. but sometimes i’m so fucking angry at my recurrent depression that i don’t want to give in, but fight back (it happens really a few times, to be honest).
but it’s something of an idea. the more your mind keeps bringing you down, the more will be the pride you get once you’ve managed to cope with it. not saying it’s easy.
but i’m saying it’s not impossible, and i’m sure of this.
I will not try to talk you in or out of this…you have your problems I have my’n I am simply here for information…if I have some to give I will…speaking of which I do not have much advice to give you except try to get a hold of zofran preferably sublingual are great…they are used to treat nausea and vomiting…I asked my doc for zofran, I simply told him I had taken it in the past and its helped me. I also told him that due to over the counter pain meds specifically as ibuprofen and antibiotics (I always have some kind of tooth infection going on)my stomach has had it pretty rough lately… zofran is great as an anti vomiting med …I did want to ask you how you were able to get a hold of tricyclics??? I know what they are and I know who can prescribe them..more or less…but am clueless as to what to say to my doc(psych doc) and what to ask her where as to not raise suspicion???any info would help