How can I find myself again?

These days the advice is always that you should learn to love yourself and not feel bad about how you look. But there is an entirely different option. If you don’t like it, change it. Eat better and exercise. The exercise itself will actually improve your mood (there are reports that say exercise is better than antidepressants, look it up) and eating healthy can lead to better moods as well. If you feel like you don’t have the drive or energy to change it through hard work, then you do have to go with option 1, learn to love yourself. Look around at the world, a huge majority of people are in average physical shape or worse. And as far as physical looks, I know it can be hard to not like what you see in the mirror, the sad truth is none of us had any control over that. I don’t like things about how I look either. Mean people will always use that as a reason to judge people, but nice intelligent people grow up to realize that nobody could control what their face or body was going to look like and it’s a silly thing to judge people about.

High school is a crazy time, hold on as best you can and get through it. If you have some friends at all, hang on to them. If you feel like the relationships aren’t super close, you can be the one to work harder on that instead of just wanting people to like you more. I’ve gotten in a position where I have no friends and it is terrible. If you have a few, make the effort to be nice to them and talk to them more. Sometimes we have to be the one to make the first move instead of wanting people to approach us. Surround yourself with however many good people you can, it’s really one of the only good tricks for getting through life.