My mom told me that she could have killed me when she was pregnant. In my school I was bullied continuously for 3 years. I had operation twice due to some health issues and unfortunately I couldn’t complete my college. I’ve worked really hard from childhood to get my dream job, now I’m feeling like a failure. I wish my parents would encourage me and support me a bit but they always put me down. They compare me with other children from the childhood, and my mom always hit me with a stick even when it wasn’t my fault. No love from them but God has always loved me no matter what and I’m really grateful to him. I had girlfriend but I had to let her go because I’m jobless. I remember when my teachers told me that I’ll do something great in my life, I’ll achieve great things in my life but I couldn’t, life is completely messed up. Soon, my parents won’t pay me anything. I don’t know how I’ll survive. I’m 26 years old and a complete failure. All my dreams are broken now, I always worked hard but things didn’t go well as I expected.
Is there any easiest way to die? Any drugs that are available in India? Sleeping pills doesn’t work these days. I need alternative solution. If I die then I’ll get freedom from this life and everybody will be happy because no one needs me. Please give me name of drugs that works.
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Sorry for what happened. Indian parents really suck. mine aren’t as extreme as yours but the essence is same. its hard to go on when parents aren’t supportive.
dude you’re still a baby at 26. u got lots of time to figure shit out. don’t be so hard on yourself. it’s all about baby steps. doing one thing at a time and before u know it u look up and are shocked at how far you’ve come. first save some money and move out. get away from your parents negative shadow. start with something small and measurable though. start by changing your hopeless thinking into thoughts that inspire u to move the fuck forward no matter how tough it is goddamnit. fight. fucking fight harder than u ever have before. the time is now. seriously. fuck giving up just move forward. hell yeah!!
Thank you! I’m feeling good after reading your comment 🙂