I should end my life, tomorrow’s the big day after all… No one will miss me, no one will care, Tomorrow is the only day I’ll have to myself, NO ONE WILL TAKE IT AWAY!
Tomorrow, I die!
Sliced wrists, Downed pills, and a rope around my neck! I’m making sure I die this time! GOOD BYE FOREVER YOU HEARTLESS MONSTERS OF THE WORLD!!!
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It’s sad to read your posts, you’ve had a hard upbringing and find yourself doubting you have a future. I know you must worry about where to go if you did leave home but at some point in the future you will, it seems staying there is hurting you, is there nowhere you can go. To feel no one cares for you, to feel no one will miss you, are you so sure, idk, I’m not you, it’s sad if true. I know you want peace of mind, but I hope you change your mind about tomorrow, to find something to hold on to even in the darkest of times for you.
My posts are just me basically screaming for hope, a helpful friend, or for someone to save me… I have no future, I don’t deserve happiness, love, kindness, joy, or any of that, just as I’ve grown through life without any of them. I shall die as I have lived, unloved, unhappy, broken, sad, depressed, miserable, and in constant pain. 🙁
I plan on heading out to the woods… that’s where it’ll happen. It’s not staying here that’s hurting me, it’s the people, myself, the things that have happened… it’s the memories of pain and hatred.
No, I just want to be free of the pain, the memories that torture me… :'( that’s what I want.
And it is the truth that no one will care and that no one will miss me either. My mind isn’t fully set on it but, it is the only logical solution… 🙁 My darkest time was my childhood, and it only got worse as I got older. Logically, it’ll only get more worse, never better for some ‘thing’ like me… :'(
Today is the big day… most likely my final day.
You post because you want hope and someone to save you but you say you have no future, to be saved you must try and see something to hope for in life however small. You have been broken by the past events, so now you can only feel negative thoughts about yourself, they are constantly going through your mind but given the problems you are still having at home it’s hard for you to break free of them. All I can do is to listen and offer words of support, there are others here who will do the same, please keep talking instead of ending it, you are not worthless, keep reaching out.
“Some one to save me” If you do find that someone who puts out, like me, don’t trash them ok.
By save me, I mean that literally, I’m practically a servant/slave to my mom and sister, and am stuck in a town that believes in family only business. My mom and sister have talked very badly about me to everyone, and school was even worse! Why they did that, it’s because, they wanted people to feel sorry for them, and since this is a really small town, word spreads like wildfire. So, they have friends, and people that like them… whereas I’m hated by pretty much everyone in the entire town. 🙁 so, I rarely go outside, or do anything…
Yeah I know all about that. People are generally wrong when they do that. Bullying is for abusers, so they’re the ones that are monsters but fat lot of good that does to your situation.
:/ I can’t really help you, but I can be your friend?
We can give you support, listen, as others sad before, but we cant make you do stuff. It needs to come from yourself. Took me a while to realize this, and sometimes i still wait for a person to save me, but that wont happen. And why should it? Yes people like me, but everybody has their problems … and life to live. No-one will give up their life for someone else.