Relationships often make me feel empty and hollow. I’ve had friends in my life, and it seemed like the more I knew someone, the less there was to like about that person. Nowadays, I rarely leave the house. The only people who know for sure that I’m not dead are my family members and psychiatrists. I’ve told my therapist that I’m tired of living. Everyone says that I’m just inexperienced in life, and that I’ll be happier later on in life. I’m very doubtful. They think I’m just being stubborn, which is probably true. The problem that I have with life is that it’s boring and predictable. I guess I started failing high school because I wanted to see what would happen if things were different, and now, I’m all alone because it’s something new. All that is left to do in life is work. I’ve had enough fun in my life to be bored by entertainment. I hate that I have to work for no reason, and then die, according to everyone I know. I really wish people were kinder and would be more open to assisted suicide.
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Birth->learn->learn some more->work->family (optional)->grow old while continue to work->stop working and continue to grow old->die. Fun thing is that when you say that to people they either respond with a “that’s life” or “you’re being a pessimist and stubborn”.
Funny thing is that i kind of get their point because there are things in life that seem to be worth hanging around (at least for me), but if you’ve already gave up on those or know for sure that you can’t achieve them… yeah, there’s not much point at all.
I’ll agree with you that people should be more open to suicide. I’m not so sure about assisted suicide…
The only way I feel that assisted suicide should be accepted is for those who are completely incapable of killing themselves, or generating the know-how. Even then, as it is currently unaccepted in society, the burden of failure or a permanant vegatation-like state, or worse, lies on the assistant, not the suicidee (even if they do press the big red button!)…
If someone needs assistance in killing themself, they should consider all possibilities, and although doing so (as i have done) makes you into a death-obsessed major-depressive loony in the process, those who avoid that still show that they’re fighting suicide by avoiding trying to find all the ways to kill themselves on their own….
Which is why asking someone else to kill you, or even help kill you, is actually asking someone for help.
Which is why telling anyone you’re suicidal ever is interpreted as ‘asking for help’….somewhat often mistakingly, of course…yet still 😛
Oh and the ‘the more i know you the more i hate you’ thing rings a bell as well…but thats bound to happen if you focus on the negative, as with any suicidal person…
It’d be like if i banged some babe without asking her first if she accepted abortions or adoptions in case i got her pregnant….I wouldn’t know, but half the time I never would’ve had any interest whatsoever in her anymore…bad example, but same idea.
Back to assisted suicide though; -anyone- who can a. pick up objects to a degree and (possibly ‘or’) b. move to any degree (many people are on electric wheelchairs) can, to some degree of certainty that’s dependent on the proficiency of the above points, kill themselves (if they think with their brain instead of their asses). That tends to make me question a majority of assisted suicide cases….
Sorry for the length, i just felt like blurbing on about my opinion, I guess. I can be your friend if you want =o you might not like me after awhile, and theres probably a 99% chance I won’t really like you as a friend xD but if you keep trying with new people, you’ll eventually find someone…Although, I’ve stopped looking for now 😛 I’ll just stick to a few ‘almost-friend’ people for now xDD I’m too lazy to keep looking…