Today, i’ve tried to hang myself…
I think i’m gonna try again once i’m drunk enough, i don’t know if this is a cry for help…
Or maybe is just a warning… Fuck it
i’ve tried, i think i’m gonna hang myself in a sheet…
i’m drinking right now, smoking…
today i’ve used 1,5g of coke…
i’m feeling like i don’t have a place here, i think i am a problem…
no one cares, i just want to die…
i don’t want to be a deception anymore…
i’m sitting here for hours and crying… sip by sip… cigarette after cigarette…
my neck hurts from my last attempt…
i’m desperate
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fuck man im sorry for your pain. you must feel pretty alone eh
Hey Sev I’m sorry you feel so bad, if there is a part of you that is resisting your decision to hang yourself, you should listen to it.
”No one cares but I’m so much stronger, I’ll fight until the end.”
Sorry you didn’t get what you wanted or needed out of it. I tried exploring hanging myself but realized it’s not gonna work. I wrapped n extension cord around my neck and just keep tying it, then tried to pull…..nothing. I came to the conclusion that chocking off my corotid would be very hard and probably gonna fail. Now I have to make more ambitious plans that is gonna take much longer but be oh so worth it in the end. Hopefully within 6-8 months, I won’t know the stars will be out tonight.
People who are reading your post cares. There are lots of others who share in your pain. Things look bleak right now…. don’t do anything on impulse. Think things through.
Taking the step onto the road to Recovery from addiction is incredibly hard but once done there is a life there that is beyond your wildest dreams. Any 12 Step program can offer you a way out of the pain and misery of addiction. There is a way out so I hope you are still out there…