A lot of our stories here are so very much the same. It’s too bad we can’t do much to help each other.
I took these antidepressants when I was 17 that fucked up my brain It was like my brain was being ripped apart like a wet tissue in a blender. The words don’t come out right anymore. It was like they erased a part of me. Part of my soul. It’s like a part of me is just… Gone. Like a mild lobotomy. I met this person who sort of filled in the blanks that they erased. But I had a mental breakdown and alienated myself from them.
We were so similar in nature, it’s like we connected on a spiritual level. They always understood how I […]
(posted a video, don’t know why it won’t show up without clicking the post)
https://youtu.be/t8PWi1_SATY
This is about someone I know though, but it gives some backstory on why I’m here. I feel most people here think it’s not worth it to share their stories, or too hard. Read if you want. So long story short my mom is an incredibly fucked up broken person who can’t drive hasn’t had a job since she was 40 anxious obsessive compulsive chain-smoking paranoid-avoidant depressive greedy selfish sadistic masochistic etc. you name it who abused manipulated stole from lied to and didn’t feed me when I was a kid… She’s not exactly… Aware? of what’s going on around her? She’s.. She’s
is anybody here more tired than me?
I’m exasperated by all the so called political issues we deal with today.
In a world where hardly anything but harsh polemicizations remain I don’t know, where to go/what to do..
I think everything is flawed from the ground up. Can I just die.
Doesn’t it look kinda like a painting?
Anybody know any forums that mainly revolve around freedom of expression besides this one? I have some ideas that I don’t feel would really fit here or on reddit. Nothing too overly political, and not infested with trolls.
Basically I finally realized at the age of 25 that my scumbag vice-principle called me into the office in 7th grade cause he thought I was a potential school shooter just because of some dumb comics I made where the characters fight each other with swords, guns, and magic. It took me this long to realize it… I didn’t even understand what was happening when I was a […]
Someone mentioned the best defense being not having any expectations… Here’s what happens when you’ve been pushed to that point that you no longer have ANY expectations for anyone… You have an epiphany.
An epiphany in which I firmly believe the capitalist viewpoint finds its onus, starting with the idea of embracing the idea of using your wealth to not only stay on top, but to also prevent others from climbing to your level BASED on this epiphany… Which is that people are thankless wretches, and if you give of your own will, they develop a hubris.
The capitalist realizes that there is no point in trying […]
I think this may be one of the most profound things I’ve ever read. It really is you or your memory. I think I’ll try to remember that. Especially since only you live with your memory. It isn’t really a choice at all. On one side you survive. On the other you lose both.
Someone made the observation that this place is less of a place to get help and more like a journal for their fucked up thoughts, or a repository if you will, for their suicidal thoughts and the accompanying bullshit.
In the spirit of what they said, I’m just going to give short versions of all the thoughts I wanted to post here over the past couple weeks and ask questions to accompany them instead of taking up space with a bunch of separate posts.
So:
It occurs to me that suicide is the result of a complete lack of inspiration. Incidentally the few people I’ve known who actually […]
I don’t like coming to this site. I’m ashamed of coming here. If things had gone any different, I’d leave this dilapidated corner of the internet be. I’d like to view this site as part of my past. Ideally, I’d like to view it as an indiscretion. But it’s not. I keep coming back here.
And the reason for that is, simply, I seek an escape. I cannot simply blame my failure, my inability to commit suicide on science… genetics… cowardice… or circumstance.
The truth is the human body is resilient far past the point of logical survival. We’re pushed to the point of illogical survival. And as […]
Does anyone else here struggle with understanding things like music and politics that other people seem to have a second nature for? It makes me feel like an utter idiot and it’s so frustrating that it largely contributes to my feelings of suicide
What do you think of this quote by Khalil Gibran?
“Your children are not your children. They are the sons and daughters of Life’s longing for itself”
Seriously, what’s up with all the writing off of and denying of people their suffering in modern society with asinine platitudes, etc;?
Why everyone says things like “But it made you stronger”?
If you were a child you didn’t need to be stronger. You needed to be safe.
I wish these assholes would wake up and smell the coffee…
I wonder if there’s a relatively new source to all this quasi-positivistic crap, from within the last century and a half or so. I think someone posted on here about Freud’s nephew introducing the concept of creating a consumer society to corporations and […]
You ever hear that song “Pushit” by Tool? Your poem about your mom reminded me of it. Here:
Another dream of the apocalypse
So… Anyone else here think that so called i n c e l s aren’t wrong?
I’m handsome. I don’t need to worry about shit like that. But the sheerly arbitrary nature of life/existence has always stuck with me. You know how it all goes. People ignore people who are too mentally ill or ugly for society. And for what? To chase the goal of pointless procreation.
Technically speaking, to someone in such harsh circumstances, every normal life lived could be viewed as an affront, their lives stand as a testament to refuse to acknowledge the arbitrary nature of reality…
I’m detached from reality. Whenever I get high […]
After I found out….. I just gave up. My friend offered to take me in after my sick sadistic retard mom made me stay with a family of narcissistic sociopaths for two years… That alone drove me into a mental institution. And our mental healthcare system is so fucked
They didn’t care why or how I got there… Not that I told them anyway. Not the real reason, just part of it. I wasn’t about to tell them I talk to myself without realizing it. Why would I give them an advantage like that over me, something to torture and prod me with… I just told […]