I am special to no one. I strongly feel, I never will be. I am a good, honest, intelligent person who likes metal and conspiracy theories and facts about governments and the origins of civilization, but I am an unattractive and boring mid-twenties man with small and irregular genitals and no money and no place to call my own. I belong no where. Most of the good friends I had don’t care about me anymore. What is left of my family has become very fragmented and hardly existent on both my mom’s and dad’s sides. I have been […]
My needs and desires cannot be fulfilled. What is so normal to everyone else is like winning the lottery to me. I want Britney so bad but nothing can be done about this for many reasons. I cannot satisfy a woman, I cannot get love, so all that is left for me to do is die. Don’t expect me to stick around while you all wave your love in my face.
To girls: I’m sorry that my ‘bad attitude’ turns you off so much. I’m sorry I have no reason to have a good attitude. Sorry that you almost seem […]
First: I am hopelessly alone. Second: because of this I think about killing myself almost constantly. Third: so I am trying enjoy what I can (which is very little) just so I can stay content enough not to kill myself. Something specific: I have a very strong attraction to my step-sister, more specifically, her feet (but not just her feet). What I want is to be able to take good pictures of her feet, with her consent, and I don’t want anybody to know about it except for me and her. The problems with this are: She has a long time […]
I don’t have much to lose. I don’t see how I can gain anything I need While stuck in this body.
My needs/desires are tearing me apart. I can’t handle seeing all the happy people holding hands with their significant others
while I am still alone. I feel like a man who has been lost in the desert for a long time with nothing to eat and everybody is waving food in front of my face, real close to my face so I can smell it, everything but touch it or taste it. I am convinced that there is no girl (who I would find […]
I wrote this four days ago.
……………….I’m not sure why I have let myself be trapped in this horrible body for so long. Maybe I just need to let go of those small emotional attachments so I can finally get out of this body. I’ve said before that I am not ugly, this is actually not true, I was being nice/lying to myself. I am ugly in many physical ways. My huge head and fat face, my small hands and arms, my awkwardly broad frame, my terrible skin, my stupid stupid sounding voice (my voice makes me sound like a total fucking idiot who is […]
Here is more of the stuff I have written recently about why I constantly think about killing myself.
Living to survive, surviving to live. LIVE TO MAKE MONEY SO YOU CAN SURVIVE….AND MAKE MONEY.
For me personally, I see no value for me to continue to survive just so I can keep surviving. I also don’t see why I (or anyone) should have to dedicate my life (majority of waking hours) to continue run on a treadmill (a job) just so I can make money so I can continue to survive for the sake of surviving when I have no real reason to continue to survive […]
Hi. I am going to start posting some stuff that I have wrote in the past several months about how I feel and why I feel this way. Here is the first piece of the puzzle that I am going to post here, one of the oldest.
I am a white male in my early twenties and I will likely live a short a life, mostly because very undesirable body and within that, my small hands and arms, bad teeth, huge head, bad stretch marks, fat belly, and my small and crooked penis; Its is roughly 4.8in by 4.8in. Besides this I am ugly but not […]