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I dont think ill ever feel rested no matter how much i sleep. The constant need to always keep moving has always haunted me. I dont make myself at home because i never know how long we will be in that place. Our clothes always remain in suit cases or garbage bags or a basket. Because if we have to leave real quick atleast our stuff is in our bags already.

My dad who sexually assaulted my 6yrold son has taken everything from me n my kids. Hes made us homeless. He sold or trashed all of our belongings that were still in the house. He sold my jeep. His actions destroyed my son and he questions his self worth and thinks hes ugly n says he wants ti commit suicide. So hes in therapy. I heard through the grapevine that my father will not serve prison time for 1st deg sexual assault n incest, and that he will prob only get probation which is not the justice my 6yrold son needs. Also found out this […]

I ended up telling my guy friend of like 5yrs now, that i love him, last night via txt. Its not uncommon for me to tell him the L word cuz he knows i do and usually he laughs it off or changes the subject. But this time was different. Still didnt get a response. I only felt like it was right to say it. Because the last 2 times we talked on the phone there was awkwardness n some dead air towards the end of our conversation nd it felt like 1 of us was tempted to say the l word before sayin bye. […]

I am beyond annoyed right now. Ever since we have been here the people who work at this shelter have treated us like we deserve to be punished for bein homeless. I spoke with the director here about my autistic son and his dietary needs n how he was starving here. So he put on our file that its okay if i supply my kids with their own food/drink. Well the 2nd shift women are now angry at this and are holding my kids food n drinks hostage because theyre like he cant have it unless u share it with every1. Like 1. I dont […]

Still here at the homeless shelter with my kids. Its been hell on earth since jan 21. I dont get along with the other women here. I miss being treated like a decent human being and being apart of society. I havent recieved any mail since the 1st week of january. My dads sentencing is coming up. I only pray my son gets the justice he deserves for what my dad did to him. Still mad that hes in his nice cozy condo with all my things there, while me an the kids are stuck in a glorified prison. I miss my dogs!!! Friends are […]

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I started self harming again. I hadnt done it in 14yrs. But i bought some chemicals and burned my arms like the good ol days. Im already regretting this choice because its all i think about now. My mind wants me to destroy my physical being as a punishment of all the hard ships i endured for so many years. Asking for help has been a bust. Not even human services wanted to help me because […]

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My life has been a living hell since my mother died in my arms during our camping trip this past august. Then december hit and another bombshell hit me. My father sexually assaulted my son while i was either at work or sleeping when i got home from work. Been stuck in limbo with court. As well as finding a place for me and my kids to live. I wasnt financially prepared for this move. Both sides of the family turned their backs on me and my kids because of what my father did. My friends have deserted me because they wanna live happy drama […]