i am so fucking done i am done with the bull shit i am done with the lies i am done with being stuck in the middle i am just done i am done with the fights i am done loosing friends i am done with the broken hearts i am done with pretending i will always come out on top and stronger then i was before i am done always faking a smile i am done telling myself that i can do everything and make threw anything because i really can’t and i am giving up
i want to rip my hair out and scream i want to cry my eyes out too the point were i can not even see.. i want to just die and watch no one care…. i have been coughing so hard i puke my brains out… i feel horrible…. i feel alone and lost and empty i want to die i want to fall asleep and never wake i am so done right now i am sick of all the bull shit in my life i am sick of all the heart breaks and drama i am sick of being alone all the time i […]
my mom and her boyfriend are arguing on the phone with each other in the other room. my mom is screaming and crying i am stuck in my room blocking it out like i always do… i had the worst day at school today there are rumors about me and my ex boyfriend is being a pain… i am trying too move on but it is a little hard when you see him every were at school and today he asks you if you and him can talk but you can’t because you are busy dealing with your Borderline Personality Disorder mom all the time…. […]
i feel so alone and empty right now i want to rip my hair out and scream and to cry like there is no tomorrow
my wish for you is: smiles when sadness intrudes comfort on those difficult days, rainbows to follow the clouds, sunsets to warm your heart, laughter to kiss your lips, hugs when spirits sag, friendships to brighten your being, beauty for your eyes to see, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, patience to accept the truth, courage to know yourself, love to complete your life ♥
not only do i feel alone but i just want to die everyday and every thing just seems black and white to me i lost my boyfriend of 6 months on and off dating for 3 years with him… he just completed me and made me feel happy now i spend most of my days trying to forget him i try not to think about him but every time i look at my wrist i remember how much i really do care about him… the cuts on my wrist are deep long gashes that took a lot of medical tape to cover… days have passed […]
I’m done really I am I have had it with all the bull shit in my life I don’t care if its painful I want.to die any ideas?
i had the worst time sleeping last night, i woke up every hour I had a headache and i was feeling like i wanted to puke all night i am shaking today i have dry mouth all because of my attempt i made yesterday… i want to rip my hair out and scream i can’t stand it… i want to die but all that happens is we are sick then dying when we try to commit suicide……….
what happens when your family is not there for you that the betray you… after my dad died and my brother moved out of the house i was left all alone with my mom and her Borderline Personality Disorder things changed big time we started fighting a lot more and things were not getting better I started cutting myself for a cry of help when the school therapist found out i stopped and they got CPS in to the picture a year later now that they are gone we have been seeing a family therapist once a week and i would show my arms so […]
I feel tired and done im in love and stupid I feel worthless and like there’s nothing more to life
You promised me
You said you’d never let me go
You kissed me
You hated on me
You said it wasn’t over
You try to cheer me up
You turn your back on me once again
You say you don’t care about me
You pretend like the pain doesn’t hurt
You pretend you don’t love me
You say to move on
You look sad when I try move on
You say you don’t know what to do
You act like I am not important
You wouldn’t even care if I were too die
So If I did what would you.do with out me
I am sick of my mom making me feel like shit the yelling and arguing she does really hurts she is pushing me towards the end of my rope. I am writing this from my phone because we are in the car and we just had our fight I have been cutting my self more and more recently…. My ex or bf or what ever he is said to stop cutting or he is going to be really mad and stop talking to me… He cares about me ik that he kissed me today and honesty he still doesn’tknow what to do… I want to […]
i feel like i am already dead on the inside… its just my body that walks around i feel plain and boring i have been depressed all weekend because i was around my ex i was with friends who tried to cheer me up but it didn’t seem too help i cried at the bowling alley when he put his arm around me… when he asked whats wrong i said “if i told you what was wrong you would think i am fucked up” he did not really try to get an answer out of me after that… but i seem to feel upset around […]
Why can’t I die… I am done and I just want to end my life now
Hanging out with my friends and my ex or bf or what ever he is and we have been hanging out all day but when he hugs me or puts his arm around me I wanted to cry so bad my eyes started to water and my face got all red… I want to die
i am lost i hate my life i want to die i want to die… i still love my ex or bf or what ever he is.. but only problem he doesn’t love me back he did at one time he said he would never let me go he said he loved me he said he was sorry for leaving me…. i started cutting again it numbs the pain i find it starting to work again i want to try to kill myself again nothing in my life seems to be going right at all the only pills i have access to are my antidepressants, […]
i did more drinking today with my friends i did half a shot because i was meeting up with my mom shortly and needed to be sane… about an hour ago they wanted me to come back and i said no, not because i was not in the mood trust me i did want to go back and get wasted sure but i did not have a solid plan on coming home or staying out late or what!! my ex or bf or what ever he is kissed me again and hugged me he said he was sorry for leaving me… he has been hitting […]
today after school i hung out with my friend lily she is really nice i met her in P.E i also hung out with my ex or bf or what ever he is we went back to her house and started drinking i just followed along because i did not know what to do it helped numb the pain… after i left they he stayed at her house and continue drinking the scotch she pulled out of her parents liquor cabinet… when i got home i started doing shots of vodka and i did some drinking while i was home by my self i almost […]
Something is for sure wrong with me I am going crazy I need answers why do I still love him why do I want him back why can he not figure out if he wants to be with me or not or someone else why does he kiss me one day and then he’s not speaking with Me then he’s being nice to me! Why does he hug me close and sends me all these mixed messages clearly I am worthless. I am not good enough not even close
fuck my life just fuck it i hate my life i want my ex back i hate school i have no friends who even bother to hang with me i am alone i am sad i want to die i want to die i want to die i hate my life there is nothing good about nothing at all