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My excuse for my cut face was scratching it in the shower. It worked, and everyone believed me. Thankfully. Tonight had I the same urge again, so I went over the original cut. Slightly deeper this time (still, I don’t think it’s deep enough to scar). It’s still bleeding a little.

However, the bottom went off course and there’s two lines there. I guess I’ll have to pick at the scanned one tonight until it’s barely visible, then cover it with makeup in the morning. Fun.

I didn’t leave my room until the afternoon today. I got yelled at for sleeping in. In my defence, I wasn’t […]

I’ve had an urge to cut my face for days now. It started off as a punishment from the voices, and then grew into a constant topic for them and Bree to talk about. This then became an actual urge on my part. I wanted to slice into my face.

And tonight I finally caved. Admittedly, it’s not as deep as I wanted it to be. Though, it’s deep enough for it to bleed for a little under 6 minutes. Despite the relief of actually doing it, I’m worried about tomorrow.

This isn’t the first time I’ve cut my face, and my mum knows that. She thinks […]

The voices have been awful. So has Bree. And I overdosed on an old bottle of my antidepressants over the weekend. I found it in the cupboard under the stairs. It was probably out of date, but I could not care less. I overdosed last night on pills last night, also. That was about the 3rd overdosed in 2 months.

Despite what it looks like, it isn’t a suicide attempt. More like, an attempt to fix myself. I want to kill what’s left of the good in me so I can listen to the voices. I want to kill the thing inside me that holds me […]