A few weeks ago, my mother was driving me home from school. She just randomly asked me if I belive that suicide is wrong. Of course I realised that she remembers about the time when I said I would kill myself. She’s asked me this before but I just pretended that I didn’t hear her and I thought thst she had forgotten completely about it, but I guess not. So I told her about the time when out RELIGION teacher told us that nobody knows if you go to hell after commiting suicide. But me mother just completely refused to believe that suicide […]
Its just another year of lonliness.
Just another year of pain.
Another year of me wishing I was somewhere else.
But at least its a new year. 2011 was the year when things went wrong. Horribly, terribly wrong. So wrong that i wanted to kill myself. 2012 could be better. But it could be worse. Hopefully it will be better. I doubt it though
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Its unbelievably stupid. If you cut, you’re “emo”. If you like the color black, it makes you “goth” or “emo”. If you happen to be a fan of the Star Wars series, you’re labeled as a “nerd”. You play video games? It makes you a fat person with no life. If you’ve been in a lot of relationships people call you a “slut” or “whore.” And if you’re suicidal, you could be known as crazy or insane or something of the nature.
 I hate everything about labeling. People can’t treat others like they’re human? They have to supply a certain name for them? When somebody labels […]
I’m so alone. I miss my best friend. She was all I had. And now that she’s gone I have nobody. Nobody to tell me that they care about me. Nobody to comfort me when I’m hurt. And nobody to talk to. I have messed up another one of my friendships. I’ve lost my only friend and its all my fault. I just want my best friend back. I’m sorry, Nikki.
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I just don’t see what the point of going on and living is anymore. If I’ll never have lasting happiness, whats the point? I have no friends, my last friend just gave up on me I guess. So, nobody would miss me anyways. And the feeling, the feeling that I know in my heart that the one thing I desire most in this world will never happen to me. It is one of the worst feelings ever. I think about death on a daily basis. How I will kill myself, when and everything else. And what it will feel like to be dead. I imagine […]
My day was even worse than usual. It started off when I walked to the library to wait gor the bell to ring. I sat by some people who I knew because they were in a few of my classes. When I sat down, the guy I sat next to looked at me and said, “Theres reasons why I don’t like you. So why are you sitting next to me?” This might not have bothered most people, but it sure bothered me. It was just another person reminding me that nobody cares about me. The whole day what he said to me was stuck in […]
This is just a random thing I thought of while walking past her in school today. This is inspired by SuicideKillMe’s post, “You Saw.” It is an amazing post & I highly recommend that you read it.
You walk by you and you look at me, not even caring about the strong friendship we once had and not even trying to bring it back. You notice that I have no friends, yet you don’t try to reach out to me to become my friend. You look at me, right in the eyes but you say nothing. You know I was right when I said that […]
Hello, Suicide Project Administrator. I’m not sure if you’re the creator of this site as well, but if you are, I would like to thank you for creating this site. You have given me a place to openly vent my feelings. Had it not been for this site, I would have never met my best friend and I would probably be dead right now. Even though being dead doesn’t sound so bad, my best friend needs me and I stay alive for her. I’m sure other people who use this site have met people they care about also. I’m still suicidal but this site has […]
Today in religion class, we talked about euthanasia and how it goes against the fifth commandment of you shall not kill. One student asked the teacher that if somebody kills themeselves, do the go to hell. And the teacher said nobody can know but God, but it is assumed that they go to hell. And that in the early days of the church if someone committed suicide, they wouldn’t even have a funeral for them or bury them in the church because thats how they felt about suicide. She went on to say that now that medical education has increased, it is not the suicidal […]
Never again will I be happy
Never again will I have a friend
Never again will I go through the day without crying
Never again will you care about me
Never again will I heal from this pain
Never again will I heal fron this lonliness
Never again will I live, for I will end this life very soon.
Just another random poem by me. As for my suicide date, mabye on Christmas. What better Christmas gift for the world than the death of someone who everybody hates?
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Just as I presumed, things can get only worse. And today, they got much much worse. I am currently failing two of my classes, my parents are screaming at me to go to school even though I dont feel well. My sister is pissed at me and threatened to kill me if I disturb her sleep. I wish she would so I wouldnt have to. Anyways, I have a big project that was due today and if I dont turn it in, ill fail the class and might get kicked out of school. I’m killing myself. Theres no question about it. While my parents and […]
I really want to die. But my best friend won’t let me. I guess she wants me to suffer even more. Anyways, I can’t kill myself until I get her permission. So what should I say to her so she can let me go?
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Its the only way to stop the pain. Its not like my life will get any better anyways, at school, the amount of people who make fun of me has rapidly grown. The chances of me killing myself has also rapidly grown. I can’t go on for much longer. I cannot wait to die and leave this world behind.
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This world is horrible. There is a reason that when people die, the poeple who try to comfort others say “They’re in a better place.” A BETTER place!!! That just proves that death is far better than life, well at least for me it would be. Some people just piss me off so much, I dont know whether to kill them or myself. This world. What the hell is this place?! Some sort of torture chamber that we must stay in for years until we die.
Happiness is just a memory. It exists no longer in my life. I see other people who somehow obtained this […]
I cannot take this anymore. I screw everything up. School, friendships, everything. At school most of thebl people I know make fun of me, or do everything they can to annoy me. What great “friends.” They are just another reason why I want to kill myself. I’ll be sure to tell them before I kill myself that they were a reason as to why I will be doing it. Of course they wouldn’t care much. Nobody would care if I was gone.
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I want to die. Kill me please.
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My post got deleted. Wow. I could just restore it from the trash but I don’t want my account to get deleted too.
Just like I always say, things will only get worse for me. I just got screamed at by my mother for not going to mass because I was too busy doing my homework. Then she told me to go to bed because “she said so.” I turned off the lights and slammed my head against the floor 3 times pretty damn hard and then I cried. And cried. And cried some more. Now I think I may have a concussion. Then she came back to yell at me some more. When she left, I whispered saying”God…..please kill me.” Then I cried some more. Then she […]
I thought about writing my suicide note awhile ago, but I’m not sure what to put in it. Do I mention names of the people who caused this? Do I tell my story of why I did it? Or should I even leave a note at all, and let the people find out for themselves. I don’t know if it matters if I leave a note or if I don’t leave one because people would just think of me as that suicidal lunatic, most people think that of me right now anyways. I cannot wait to die, I hate this world, and almost all of […]
To me it seems as though God has chosen certain people to live out their lives in happiness. These people have an abundance of friends, these people are almost always happy, smiling, laughing. There are more of these people in the world than people like us, the depressed ones. The happy people are everywhere. I am not one of these people, i think i could say that none of us on this site are those people but, I dont know anybody here personally, so im not sure. People keep telling me that God has a plan for everyone, and everything happens for a reason. […]
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