NicoleK

It’s been a while since I’ve actually posted. I’ve given up talking to people in my life. I don’t want to burden them anymore. But today, it’s either talk to someone or kill myself, so I suppose the internet will do.

It’s a number of things, most of which stem from years of abuse, loss, and conditioned self-hatred. I don’t begrudge anyone for the things I’ve experienced. I try not to play victim or think about the actual events for the most part. Really, the problem is how I view and respond to life now because of how my brain and worldview developed through those events. I’m […]

Sometimes you just have to wash a night of work down with a cups worth of vodka. I feel dizzy and distant, just like I like it. “Sing me to sleep, sing me to sleep. And then leave me alone. Don’t try to wake me in the morning, ’cause I will be gone.” If only I could get the guts to wash down a handful of pills with it.

It may be cliche, but it suits my feelings rn.