I get up most mornings and it’s the worst. It’s the combo of the past failings and not having nothing to look forward to. I heard writing in morning helps process past shit for 15 mins every morning about a past bad experience. I have so many though. My life is like a trail of one bad thing after another. God I wish I had someone else’s life who has a life lol! I don’t want to continue in this hand to mouth existence. Morning rant that is all.
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I’ve been a prostitute most of my life, and I can’t escape it. I’m too hardened and damaged. Just ready to end it so bad. I wake up everyday really depressed and unable to function. I’m pretty old too, so it’s not like I can just start over. I have lots of suicidal ideation especially when I first get up and b4 bed. I do have a few friends I will miss and my cat who lives with a friend because I was forced to move do to the complications that arise with my line of work. The main issue is how will I do […]
Because abortion is legal I thought that it was ok. Somehow it didn’t register as murder because it is legal. It gave me the idea that it’s not that big of a deal. Well it kind of is a huge deal. Because of decoupling sex and commitment I kept getting pregnant by men who were not able to provide, or didn’t really want a kid with me in the first place. So I was trying to avoid single motherhood and thought I had more control of my fertility than I actually did. Birth control had bad side effects but I still tried to avoid pregnancy. […]
Anybody else get intensely negative and your brain goes into an emotional flashback which you eventually come out of but in the moment u cannot reason with yourself? It’s very scary and I can never recognize it while I’m in it. It’s only when it lifts and suddenly I’m able to have slightly more positive thoughts. I hate when it happens because I feel totally helpless and like I’m already dead or I’m going to be.
I wish I could just die so I won’t have to live my disaster of a life anymore. It’s just so bad in a multitude of ways. It’s so complicated and miserable and just plain sad. I know people will be hurt but they have no idea the level of hell im in. Its mostly emotional pain but today I felt like I was walking a bit hunched over and it was scary. I just feel like a cripple in a number of ways. I wish I had a surefire method or some help to kill myself.
I considered going this route, and going to a very isolated place so I won’t be found. Within days I’m sure I would probably die of dehydration with no access to water or food in like the dessert.
Has anybody ever tried those crisis numbers? What was your experience, did it help u?
I understand why they don’t allow people to have access to easy death but it would be a relief to know that if your life is totally fucked and you have no hope of any decent future that you could go in peace and prepare your ending. Many people now do not have the types of family support and economic stability that allows you to plan appropriately for old age because of the decimation of the nuclear family and the extended family. Nobody wants to die really young but in modern times I think you should be allowed to especially if u have no young […]
All of these guys can be found on YouTube: for all the young pple who are struggling to make sense of our society. I recommend a few people who have woke me up and at least helped guide me to understanding why I’m depressed or struggling in general. Stefan Molyneux, Jordan B. Peterson, Richard Grannon were a few who helped me understand why my life hasn’t turned out so good. But if u can kind of understand what is going on with u, you get some relief and understand it’s not all your fault in some cases. We live in a highly propagandized society that […]
I’m a 41 yr old woman, and basically just dysfunctional and almost homeless. Well moving around from place to place, and no permanent spot. I never held jobs for very long because I had issues revolving around this. So basically I kind of just get by through informal ways of making money. Anyway, I often wish my life was over and I had a peaceful way out. All my would be kids were taken by the abortion clinic. I struggle with regret and grief over this now but it didn’t hit real hard till I was older. So being childless, no partner, no stability, no […]