I’ve gotten all business attended and done I’ve got everything in order now I just have to do it finally I’ll be free from my abuse all my pain I don’t belong in this world was there any doubt I would die early not in my mind I knew at a youngest age that it would end with a bullet through the mouth and soon it will be done
Taken his souls into the night upon a hill lays a tree a young man hangs from dangling the angel of death has had his first kill freeing the young man from his hellish world now to do as he pleases free from the ones who say they don’t need him now free from a world of hurt free to heal the angel of death smiles taking his soul the angel of death has once again had his first kill where upon a hill lays a tree the young man hangs and bleeds wrists slit this is it finally free to escape misery and now […]
I’ve realized I’m no good my family hates me my grandpa doesn’t like me my uncle always fucks with me and makes me feel worse as for why this impacts me so deeply is I have no father all mine is happens to be a pill popper and can barley sustain himself for two minutes without going into a fit of rage. My grandpa has always thought lower of me and never did like me at times it really shows for example, he always goes on about how I’m soo dumb or how I never change when I try when he sits on his fucking […]
Yes I am a cutter it’s how I deal with certain major problems a few months ago my life was going great now it’s taken a turn for the wiser my emotions are like a land mine and it dosent take much to trigger them if you don’t know me by now I’m Jason or Day whichever you want to call me is fine. I have been suicidal at a very young age and it’s only gotten worse I have drank so many chemicals in attempts to a true release but all have failed I always end up throwing the chemicals back up i am […]
I stopped feeling years ago now the only thing I feel is pain I don’t truly know why I’m typing this stuff…maybe it’s so someone that has the perfect advice to see it and gives me that advice and I make a better life but everytime I try I have the cruel reminder some force wants me to see and it’s that I was born to suffer everytime I’m happy I try to bring my mood back down so nobody can have the satisfaction of ruining it I’ve lost every single shred of me that gave me a will to live I want […]
I trust a girl with my heart and it’s broken as if nothing, I showed her my true colors and she turned them black and white once again what have I done to deserve this? Guess it’s what I get…I never was meant to live truly, there’s always something dragging me down and she has to make it worse all I want is to be worth something but I’m easily replaced, I can’t do this anymore I always plaster a fake smile hoping people will leave me alone, but she always has to come to me about mistakes I made, she said she can’t say […]
I’ve done nothing to nobody yet I’m somehow the most hated person at my school I want my life to get better but everyone makes it worse I just want everyone to leave alone why can’t people do that WHY I get it I’m a horrible person I’m an asshole I’ve done nothing right in my life but I just want this suffering to end Ive never wanted to die so badly there is no fucking god and if there is he hates me I only want the hurt to stop once just once I want this to go away I’ve tried everything and I […]
I’ve known this girl for 3 years I’ve loved her all throughout those 3 years but sadly 9th grade is coming soon and we will be going to seperate highschools and she will find that perfect guy and leave me then I’ll be alone again I just want to feel like I have a reason to live because I know I’ll lose that reason soon I just want to truly live for once i want to be that perfect guy for her because I’ve never met someone who cares so much I’ve never met anyone that cared at all and I want to be that […]
My mother is a complete psycho ***** that hates me to the extent of why I wonder I haven’t blown my brains out a lot if times I wonder if I’m even her son or something else to her like property and my dad is a wanna be thug who TRIES to relate to me when he was NEVER there for me and suddenly thinks that he can come back and think I will have no hard feelings towards him my grandparents think I mess everything up maybe it’s true I pretty much have nobody all of my friends I’ve made are on Xbox and […]
If you don’t know by now I’m forced into the life of a loner I cant ever go outside my house without my parents constantly calling my phone every five seconds half the time I wanna put a bullet in my brain and end it all so I don’t have to feel this cruel reminder of what I could have but never will and the other half I wanna kill my mom she has done nothing but hurt me she has let me get severely bullied victimized and traumatized and PAYS someone to give a shit and my father who is a wanna be low down […]
Well at home I’m alone but not reminded that I will be alone forever but at school it’s a cruel reminder that I’m alone and a complete loser as much as I want to say Im not a loser it’s the sad painful truth that I am alone and always will be I want to say things will get better for me but everytime I try to sound or even be hopeful the cruel life of mine ruins it I don’t know why I bother I’m sure anyone who reads this is thinking “Ha what a sorry excuse for a human” I know I am […]
I’ve been that one guy who sits alone in the back of the class the guy who sits alone st lunch and why? Well the answer is obvious everyone hates me. Everytime I try to talk to someone I get this strong feeling they don’t want to be around me then again who would I’m a complete waste of space I’m only on this damn blog so my friend the only person who cares will know that I’m alright honestly I’m sick of being everyone’s punching bag it dosent matter where I’m at some asshole will open his mouth then everyone’s saying something about me […]
I’ve hated my life for so long I have no idea what being happy is I’ve hung myself nothing drank bleach and window cleaner and threw it back up I want to die but I’m scared to but I fear the next day and dread today I want to leave this world and live a life where I control what happens not others controlling and ruining my life I’m the outcast of my school everyone thinks I’m a joke or that one guy who replaces a girls boyfriend until they find another or that one guy who is a replacement everything I sit in the […]