Unique

Today I woke up screaming, I have nightmares most of the time, I have seen things I will never forget. Things no one could forget. Either way I had the dream again, where I was standing in the doorway and I slowly pushed it in, then I saw her face. Lifeless eyes that I loved so much. lost forever.

I could not Meditate today, every time I closed my eyes there she was, I tried deep breathing, still the thought lingers, the feeling never leaves. The schools are on a term break at the moment so I don’t have much to-do  My days are long and full of my […]

As most of you may know i have been through some difficult times in my life, some were near world ending and seemed to cover me in sadness and depression.

But i endured all this and i drove forward with a little help from my friends. I traveled ireland and met some amazing people and i found a new calling in life. I met Jen and her son and fell in love again. We were engaged a few months ago.

Then we were in a car crash and they both died. I fell off the wagon and got pretty smashed, i spent a few days completely shitfaced.

When i found […]

Hello

I have not been here in a long time.

it has been so long i cant remember my last post.

for the last few months i have been happy, i was truly happy. I had everything i ever needed or wanted. All i ever wanted was love again. And reacently i found it in my new wife and her son. they have been my whole world for the last few months. Happiness eternal.

I want to share with you everything i have learned.

I am bipolar, i was diagnosed as a child. I have always dealt with it. I had a loving family. I had everything.

When i was in college, […]

Hello guys

Heres an update on the last few weeks for those you want to Know. 🙂

So things have been going great with Jen, this is the first night we have spent apart in 2 weeks, Because we really hit it off, seriously she is perfect for me. Smart, funny and Beautiful. BUT

Yesterday she told me she has a seven year old son…..

I was truly shellshocked, i was speachless because i was freaking out man, i am not ready to be a dad, i have allways wanted children but he is not my child and he will never see me as his dad no matter how […]