Response to EndOfTheLine

Interesting video. Thanks for being honest and clear in this one. I understand what your saying when you say you have lost your power.

I think you believe power tis what ever you held dear, It was the reason you went to work, the reason you brush your teeth, the reason you lived for.

Now what every that power was has been either taken away or you lost it some how. Either way you believe it is gone. And the only person who can tell you what to believe is power is you. We all hold different things in our hearts. It because of that i dont think i can help you. I wish i could, but the only person who can help you is yourself.

I will say that when i had lost my “power” my life feel apart too. i was a bit more destructive than you though, i became addicted to heroine, i burned all the bridges in my life to my loved ones, I tried to kill myself.

When i went to rehab i spent along time alone, and in silence, or siting by the sea. I realised that the only thing that really mattered to me was my mind, without i have nothing, with it i have everything.

You can take away my apartment ment, i will get another or i will live on the street, i have done it before.
take away my job, i will get another.
take away the one i love, i will feel bad and be sad, but i will love again.
take away my friends, i will miss them, but there is lots of people in the world, i will make more.
take away my Health/mental health, well then im fucked. (i am bipolar)

Point im trying to make is, power is what ever you want it to be. To me it is my mental health, so it comes first, i do what every i have to feel happy and healthy.

I dont like some1 i tell them to go away, if i dont like my job i quit, theres lots of work out there.

i did what i had to do to find this place that i am finally happy.
My happiness is mine, i am the only one who truly cares about it, because lets face it were selfish beings by nature. So i do what i have to.

I hope you can do the same, i hope even if you have to do it piece by piece, i believe you can get your power back, or even place it something else, something no one can take from you.

PS. I know exactly how you feel when you talk about the real world and the reality of the mind, when i was in my teens i knew i was different, i have been bipolar since i was a child so i allways used to meditate alot, i saw things alot clearer that rest of my generation did, i knew the things they held dear were meaningless.

Things like getting pissed and sleping with anyone and everyone, needing the latest phone, or latest game, or how much they cared about football match at the week end.

I hated them all, people are suffering in third world countries and being killed and mutalated and dieing of hunger and you care who wins at the weekend between liverpool and leeds. I felt like screaming WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU.

So i found solice in my mind, I used rush home from school to mediate, i would go to my happy place, I am a born strategist so i used to pretend i was a commander in a war between humans and an alien race i created in my mind, all humanity was united, there was no hunger or war between people, And the war with the aliens was for my amusement.(i was 13 at the time)

I no longer dream about such folly, but i still feel safest in my mind when i mediate, when ever i have had a long hard day, i just go to my happy place,

That is a place where i have a house over looking the ocean, a beautiful garden, a beautiful wife and loads of children. Perfect. (at least to me it is)

I hope i written enough to warrent the honour of a video in my name. 🙂

If you think im someone you would like to talk to, just click the the little e next to my name and you can see my email address.

I hope you find the power that you seek. And thanks for sharing.
Your part of SP now, so were brothers for life.

by the way, your video’s have inspired me, so i think i will make one for you too.
I will post it next Saterday, i promise.

@one day, why does a dog lick his balls, because he can. 🙂

Peace 🙂