It’s been forever since I posted anything on here. That may be due to my parents spazzing at me for looking at a website having ANYTHING to do with suicide, considering my condition at the time. But whatever, i’m back. I’ve missed you all lots and I can’t thank you enough. I’m not better or anything though. I still have my suicidal thoughts ALL the time and i’m still cutting although not nearly as often. But this site definitely gave me a relese that wasn’t harmful to myself. It allowed me to vent and express my feelings. I’ve met people who i’ve been able to […]
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Suicide. My beautiful suicide.
There are those people who can’t commit suicide because they can’t take that step, they don’t have the guts.
There are those people who can’t because they are scared to leave people behind. hah. wow.
There are those people who just don’t because they are too scared of surviving with brain damage or paralysis or some shit.
That’d be me. 😛
I’m constantly being reminded of how much i hate people and how much this world sucks, yet I still choose to live in it. Because i’m a dumb ass chick who doesn’t want to end up alive in the end. Well then I guess there’s […]
I have one desire. Death. It’s been a while since i’ve posted anything but I guess everything has been building up lately. To really sum it up. Life is shit. That’s my way of putting it…but if you have the time here are some of the details.
I’m pretty sick of everybody right now. Sick of my family putting me down and getting into my business. I just wish they would leave me alone or kick me out of the house…not likely though considering I just turned thirteen but hey, a kid can dream on right? I hope so, because I’ve been doing quite a bit […]
Don’t bother with this it’s just an all out rant.
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There was no need, absolutely no need for you to go and tell the whole world mother! Especially my grandfather. He’s the most self centered person I know other than my sister and he was the one who told me I needed to let it go and move on. He didn’t know anything. He didn’t know what was really going on in that school and he didn’t know half of the hell I was put through! He put me through so much trama, all because you believed the words he said just because he is a […]
fml. I am finished, finished trying to stop myself, finished letting people stop me. I need to cut, I need that release. You can’t stop me. I am consumed with hurt, pain, and a desire to die. That desire is overwhelming me and I just want to die. I can’t do it anymore, I won’t do it anymore. I pray that I will die and that’s not working. I don’t think I have the strength to pull the trigger but eventually I know I will. I want to die on a wednesday, before church. The people that have hurt me most are at church and […]
I’m not all that sure what I’m going to write, I just know that I NEED to write. Blahh I’m not all that sure what’s going on with me but I know I want to die and I know I need to die. Death is all that will cure me of the things going on in my life. I need to die, and if your planning on giving me a bunch of, “You have so much potential and there is so much in your future,” crap stop reading now. I don’t want your pity I just want to write. I’ve been having constant suicidal thoughts […]
i need you not to care so i can kill myself already.
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K3T do not feel free to com,ment on this!!
I’ve done the best i possibly can,
To try and make you understand.
But no one seems to really see,
That a certain something, is destroying me.
It’s something that engulfs your life,
Makes you want to pick up a knife.
Its something that takes away your faith,
And makes you feel so unsafe.
I’m not sure how much more i can take,
Before i crumble, and before i break.
I managed to fight it by myself,
With a smile i pretended to be somebody else.
But its at the stage im losing hope,
I’m giving up, i cant seem to cope.
This thing is painfully ruining me,
I’m not all that sure how to begin but I guess I’ll start here: Last year when I was a 6th grader I went to a public school like most children, but this was NOT your avarage school. Rather than school it felt like I was in hell, and that I would never escape. My teacher, instead of teaching, sat behind her desk all day not giving a damn what we did. My classmates were a bunch of bitches who cared about themselves and nothing else. Because of many things that went on in that classroom I hated going to school and eventually made up a […]