Yikrens

I took myself one Pill of mine. Short after I lost Consciousness. When I woke up, I was in the living room, both of my Hands swollen, mark of Stitches at both my Elbows. Strains of Blood marking both my knees. And my Medication gone.

This bastard’s are trying to turn me around. I said once to my Dad that I want to die, as he replied to me: “If you want to die, I’ll also.”, I must seen the lie earlier and this douchebag with the imagination people with this private urge can be played.

Respect is equality. None gets that from me out of itself.

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Once it was more unfamiliar to me to visit this Page. It was like a Sanctuary. Pretty decent like the last resort. The Place to set-in what would cause you trouble in social life if you had somewhere else. To plee the last time before the own set-up is getting one’s life over and end.

Basically, it is just Facebook now as it started. The end of was horrifying.

It started in my Case very early. I romanticised Suicide, did learned about respiratory depression in the cold, the paralyzing effects of alcohol. I can’t remember about more details. It was then 2010/11.

Long Time, it didn’t came up again. but I was not easy to treat. 3 People were aiding me almost Daily for Years.

From Age 18 on, I was able to get forward without consequent correspondence. Drugs.
An Overdose in a Polytoxicomania made me recall: I just died.

Isolation.

When someone broke it and at some point said something in direction of what is been experienced, I cut mindlessly […]

not a single language covers what we truly are. biologically healthy a wreck of psychological pain by amount of worthless sustainable knowledge. then phenomenal therapy will give it a cut. no suicidality anymore. it is so expensive sometimes. that’s not the market, it is real the resources. a human can’t be manufactured to resources. health services are dumped.

i want to meet a different human.
or myself, some of the resources felt if people are dissected , just for fun before a trade. & you?

no, I don’t give resources. I’m in pain that desires, visions, sanity, preferences and anything extraordinary is vaguely unpayable, and this for […]

From early Age on I used different Names. Even when I tried to note them down I failed to capture it all. Ifeel guilty for having used over 20 E-Mail addresses. A letter to Google didn’t change a thing. I probably used 7 Facebook accounts, barely remembering what it was to begin. With them, some deleted at the beginning I use now 2 at once and own a 3rd. The oldest still Online will also not be recovered. My Oldest Tumblr, and I don’t knowhow anymore I lost it, but I would had liked to know what I poet I oncehad been. Now I use at a Moment like 14 different Tumblr URL’s. Just as, the Year before the latest Presidents Inauguration when I left Home I lost Data of any kind on 21 Devices. Even my Birth certificateand 3 Passport’s are circulating in the World – Interpol ison it. At leastjust 2 ID Cards, 2 Tramway ID‘s are not that heavy. I think I use now the 9th Phone Number. I lost anyway from a Peak of 1000 Contacts down to just 2 […]