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Well.

by Katie
written by Katie

Well. I’m only fifteen, and already I want my life to end. Ever since I was eight years old, my life has been a mess. My parents divorce was the spark of everything. I’ve been depressed for seven years, but the past two years it’s been hitting me hard. Every night I cry, wanting it to end. I use to pray to God to kill me in my sleep or to let me have at least one good day. I got neither, and gave up my faith. I wake up every morning, wondering why I even bother getting out of bed. I can’t find one […]

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Sick of Everything….

by St.Patrick
written by St.Patrick

Hi, let me start by saying that I am NOT suicidal. However, I have tried to commit suicide when I was younger a few times, but, I never actually tried to where it’d actually put so much as a scratch on me. I also often want to die… But honestly, I just don’t have the balls to do anything… And I also thought about if, I fail, and wake up in a hospital, get better, have to go to therapy, people ask me questions, all that shit would piss me off.

Anyway, what I came here for is to have a place to rant and just […]

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I’m still sane. Told my cousin the truth

by RogueShadow1281
written by RogueShadow1281

Im still sane.
I told my cousin how I’m in love with her and that I think about her all the time, told her my dream where I ask her out which to me shows this love isn’t a horny attempt for a teenager to get laid with his hot cousin.

I believe sometimes that my love for her iss an ill attempt to find love again after being heartbroken by Nycolle. My love is real and not some incest bound love, because if she were anyone else i would fall for her either way. I wish to exchange a kiss so badly and hopefully […]

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Clueless.

by The RedG654
written by The RedG654

Hey,

I do not know what to say really. I’ve been on the brink of suicide for quite a while I am very anxious so you may get confused while reading. I have been on this site since last year, and I am depressed. I have little energy to live. Now do me one favor. Please do not write comments such as “oh, everything will be better, just wait and see.” If you want to comment, please in form of advice, I am sick of sympathy. So I have lived in an Arab country my entire life. Everything started in kindergarten. I was in a German kindergarten, and I use to bully […]

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Searching

by LegitApplePie
written by LegitApplePie

My family read my diary, which described all the details of my sadness and my wish to die. I am now on lock-down. They don’t want to leave me alone and I am being pushed toward hospitalization. I now have to move out of my sister’s house because she fears for her children’s safety, not really mine.

 

So,

I’m looking for a place to live, but I honestly want to be done with this. I have no where to go and no on wants to claim me. I’m pretty sure no one cares about me and the one person I thought I could count on made me […]

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I Scare You

by DeathOption
written by DeathOption

I know its Hard for You to Understand,

Especially with this type of Emotion coming from a Man

But the Pain that I feel,

Deep Inside… is oh so Real

You rebuddle that the Decisions that I have Made, have put My Existence into a Shallow Grave

And that Deciding to Climb Out, is the Only way to Behave

But what You see as Weakness; I Embrace as Strength

A Strength that I Aspire to Muster;  the Morning when My Body wont make Muster

See, what You see as an Act of Desperation; I view as an Act of Courage

A Rising Plant that grows, the More it is Nourished

What You see as a […]

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At the End

by DeathOption
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I have come so far! I started contemplating suicide at the age of 6! probably not an accurate number but i was that young. I am 25 now! I have cried so hard everytime i tried, but now there is a sense of peace that overcomes me when i think of going through with it. The only thing that makes me weep is when i think about the turmoil i will cause my 2 daughters. I am a great father. i wonder if i was a dead beat, would this be easier. Almost everything about my life makes me want to end it all. My […]

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Did I damage myself?

by porphyrous
written by porphyrous

The last day or so, I’ve become seriously concerned that when I tried to kill myself, I really did injure myself cognitively in some fashion.  That I’ve inflicted some permanent damage to my brain.  I have no idea how long I was unconscious.  Now I’m torn, do I try to recover, or do I finish the task?

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Having one of those weeks…

by Epiphany
written by Epiphany

Not really too sure what I’m going to write about, but I feel the need to express myself. Here goes nothing..

So lately I’ve been freaking out quite a lot. When I say “freaking out” I mean, REALLY freaking out. Like throwing cookie dough at my dad, screaming, having the cops called on me, and my brother throwing a peanut butter jar at my face to get me to stop. Made for a nice little fat lip for a few days.. I can’t even remember why anymore. It was stupid. A flash.

I was so pissed that day I just couldn’t calm down. I had to shower […]

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Parents

by gillyflowers
written by gillyflowers

Today I realized how strange my parents treat me, my dad is over protective and paranoied ever since his brother died of an overdose and yet he abuses me both emotionaly and phisicaly, my momther says if she had to chose between me and my father she would always chose me and yet she stands by and watches me suffer. Both of my parents are are paranoied like I said earlier about things like me doing drugs, drinking, or cutting myself and yet when my scars from the years of cutting are showing, they pretend not to see them or they buy my lame excuses. […]

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believe me i will

by itsmytimetogo
written by itsmytimetogo

one day for sure. i will. i will die at my own hands. Why shouldn’t we be able to pick when we want to die? I think we should. Its our owN life not someone elses. We wouldn’t be harming anyone. Only temporarily. I want to die so bad sometimes. I hate when people(teachers mostly for me) mention suicide and laugh about it and stuff. I Hate that. They shouldn’t be saying things that can hurt someone emotionally. I get affected by people who say certain things. Maybe its just because I have the desire to die and I’d actually consider myself suicidal. But I […]

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counselors

by Bogi
written by Bogi

Please give advice: Do counselors help you at all during times of loss, like 2 years ago? I was told that i sleptwalked down the stairs and was found with a knife in my hand. That was after my big sister ran away and we were told that she died while crossing the highway. I still cry. Why would she try that to me? She knew that if she left, I would do something drastic. I can not live with my parents, they never understand me. Only she does. Then she left me… please give advice. I need it. Apparently, when my teachers offered to […]

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On Wednesday afternoon, I went to the hospital

by porphyrous
written by porphyrous

Chapter Two of my story, which began with, “On Wednesday Night, I broke.”

On Friday, December 2, I attempted suicide.  I hung myself by my neck with a cable TV coax strung through a metal shelf.  I failed, because I was startled by an unexpected sensation of falling.  I told my wife, and she called my mother, and the two of them put me on a sort of informal “suicide watch”.  This is what happened after that.

On Sunday, my mother came over and spent most of the day with me.  She’s a former cop and detective sergeant in the […]

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This life… I just want to end it all.

by bittergirl1989
written by bittergirl1989

I just can’t stand another day living my life. I’m at my lowest and I think if I die my mom would be happy. Or not, ‘cos she and my stepfather and also my lazy half-siblings treats me like  I’m their cleaning lady and they won’t even give me a dime for everything that I do for them.

My mom says I can’t have a bad attitude because I’m not pretty, that everyone leaves me because of my sucky attitude. It’s sad that the person who should tell you that you’re beautiful is saying the opposite thing, to think that she’s my mother, and almost everyone […]

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Why me?

by Anonymous
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I grew up an average child, but gradually becoming more and more overweight as I grew. I talk to people about this, very few people I might add, but they keep giving me the same bullshit answer. “It gets better.” Well, I don’t think it’s getting better after 3 fucking years! I started cutting 3 years ago, during summer. I was on vacation and a fight went on between me and my mom, and I left, took out my knife and cut my throat. Ever so slightly. I didn’t want it to end this way. I wasn’t going to go down after the first cut. […]

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i’m dead but still alive.

by 1327
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i’m staring at this blank page waiting to type something but ii have no idea what but i have so much to tell about..so i guess i’ll just start telling.

I’m a girl 15 and last year i tried to commit suicide by cutting my wrists,I survived . I have scars on my wrists and thigh,i used to had more but they fade away, I did a lot of self-harm cuz that was the only way i could feel some relief.My mother heard me cry almost every night,she saw my scratches  on my arm but didn’t do anything about it.I’ve tried many times to tell them […]

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Pain, never-ending suffering.

by Diamondonalandmine
written by Diamondonalandmine

It’s been so long.

Yet here I am, back where I started.

I can’t believe that a person could say this to me, with the knowledge that my brother is austistic…

“Respecting retards isn’t respectful. putting them out of their misery and doing them a favor, however… is.”

With that one sentence; that person has hurt me in every way possible.

He could have called me every name in the book: whore, dyke, ****, slut, *****, etc. and I wouldn’t have cared.

But having the balls to say that to me…to my brother…someone he doesn’t know….

How could someone say that?

How can they sleep at night knowing that by saying that they […]

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Long, long day.

by Exlil_Sky
written by Exlil_Sky

Today had been a rather uneventful day. It was long, boring and full of drama only known to those who remain in schooling. Started off ok, but the abysmal ending left me in tears. It started off with my friends and I going to the plaza to find some thing to eat and just look around. At six or so, a group of guys we didn’t know started to flirt with me and my friends. They asked us to go out with them. We had said no and walked away. We bumped into them later and found ourselves getting followed around the place. We tried […]

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