Please give advice: Do counselors help you at all during times of loss, like 2 years ago? I was told that i sleptwalked down the stairs and was found with a knife in my hand. That was after my big sister ran away and we were told that she died while crossing the highway. I still cry. Why would she try that to me? She knew that if she left, I would do something drastic. I can not live with my parents, they never understand me. Only she does. Then she left me… please give advice. I need it. Apparently, when my teachers offered to take me to the counselor, my parents refused. I heard my mom tell my dad that she could care less if i died or survived. what should i do?????? I have 2 younger brothers, and 3 sisters. I’m the oldest, and I have to take care of them. help please.
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This happened two years ago and your parents still hold resentment over something that was not your fault?
No!
For the love of God, DO NOT speak with a counselor. I confided in one a couple of months ago and I ended up spending two days in a nuthouse. If there’s anything I learned from that experience, it’s to never trust anyone except yourself.
I think if you asked a teacher they could arrange you some counseling. I think it could help, but if you see one, don’t put all your trust in them. They could really help, but be careful. I went to get help a few months ago and ended up more upset than anything… I felt like they ignored how bad I was, just left me waiting for some kind of help for ages, kept treating me like I was just a bit sad when I was really hanging on by a thread by that point. I just felt worse. I didn’t really give the ‘help’ they offered a proper go though… but that’s another story! All I mean is, if you go, don’t expect them to solve everything straight away and don’t expect them to solve nothing. You might end up seeing someone you don’t like to begin with… if you feel as sensitive as I did, especially when you’re talking about deep things and feelings, don’t let any small things they say get to you, which I do. Just see how it goes. I do recommend it. I also recommend searching for groups or forums online though… you might find people to talk to who have been through similar losses and have recovered a little. Just finding people who have been through similar things might be a tiny relief. They can add up over time. I think the Suicide Forum might have a section for losses, and they’re really nice on there. I’m really, really sorry for everything you’ve had to go through, but I promise you can get through it, however overwhelming or horrible it feels at times. You’ll be okay 🙂