Family & Friends Effects

I bond with someone,

They bond with me.

We spend our lives with each other,

healing each others’ souls.

Then one day, they’ll leave and they will leave nothing but memories.

They left without a word.

Day and night I wait for them, waiting for them to come back.

They don’t come back.

I look for others to bond with.

I bond with someone.

Then it all happens again….

Long story short, I’m in a position where no one seems to really anticipate my existence.

I have friends.  And I have a best friend too.  My best friend used to talk to me a lot and she listened to every word I ever said, so I did the same to her.  But now things seem to be different.  It’s like whenever I try to bring something up, she’d interrupt, and goes on talking her own stuff.  She used to clap and cheer me on whenever I talked about my passions and the goals I wanted to achieve.  But now it’s like, she no longer wants […]

who actively looks for dates for over a year and doesn’t even get close to one? Me. Who lost the only person who genuinely did like them because of paranoia. Me. I can’t wait to get the strength to finally find out what’s on the other side. I hope it’s soon

I feel like I’m always ruining everyone’s life around me and just can’t figure out how to stop doing it. Nothing I do is right and everything I do is wrong. There are so many times I have just felt like walking off a train tressel over a busy highway or sitting in my room with my guns taunting me and voices in the back of my head telling me that it’s time. God knows how I am still here have been diagnosed bipolar and can’t seem to keep it together at all anymore. No one really knows this is how I feel or what […]