Okay so, I am 14 and I still live with my parents. They give me everything I need and want. But the only thing they don’t give me is attention. We never have a true conversation or anything. Even though we live in the same house, it feels as if they were 1,000,000 miles away from me. I try to talk with them and spend some time with them but they either ignore me, leave me talking by myself, always make up an excuse or say they are “too busy”.
I have 2 younger siblings that actually get to spend time with my parents, but I don’t, and I feel left out. They always go eat out or go out to catch some entertainment together while I am home in my room in the dark listening to music.
I remember when I was younger my father once told me that my mother tried to kill me as a baby, so I asked my mother if it was true and she denied it. I know she lied to me. I hate when people lie to mess with people’s feelings… Maybe this is why they reject me so much, maybe they never wanted me in the first place.
So I feel that without me they would make a better family. They don’t need me, I don’t know why I’m still here…
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You ARE important. You ARE here for a reason. Is there anybody you trust…relatives, friends, teachers, counselors, **anybody** you can speak to about this? If your parents won’t listen to you, sadly, maybe they’ll hear someone else. If nothing else, maybe speaking to someone can help. If nobody else believes in you, then believe in yourself.
Thanks, but everyone thinks this way, I thought I had a friend I could trust and talk with but she starting to get more and more distant each day until she finally left without an explanation. So now I have nobody… And its kinda hard for me to say how I feel since I’m not used to it. So I don’t know anymore
No time like the present to start 🙂 It’ll be difficult… and awkward… but I think it’s far better than the alternative. The people you open up to will need to understand that and be patient. Think you can find someone who fits the bill?
They need you. And if not, I need you. You can’t go yet, you are so young and have things to experience. I believe that you can make it through. I am also 14 and trust me, ealier this year things were absolutely terrible. But somehow, things have gotten better, and I am doing okay. For half of 2016 I was suicidal, yet I made it to today. If I can, you can!!! I care and believe in you. You can make it!!!
That’s great for you 🙂 I’m glad to hear that you have made it through whatever it was that you were going through. Thanks for caring and believing in me, and I hope that with time I also get better like you did.