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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

I’m not going far

by Rory959 8/7/2016

written by Rory959

Dearest Friends and Family,

First let me tell you that I love you, and it is this love that has kept me here for the time that I have been alive. It is not because I have lost my way, or that I no longer respect and appreciate all the things you have ever done for me. I end my life today because I have reached the end of the road. Why continue when there are no maps, no signs and no one to walk with me along the way? I don’t expect you to understand this, nor do I want you to try and answer […]

8/7/2016 2 comments

I’m going to be ok?

by itllbeok 8/7/2016

written by itllbeok

My aunty is visiting me before I leave for college, and she is the prettiest of my mom’s siblings because she uses the most makeup and she is the “beauty expert”. The only downside to this is that she cares way too much about her looks and comments on other peoples’ too. I was at the mall with her today with one of my other family members, and she kept talking about how much smaller she is than I am, yet she still has more than double my breast size. She kept saying comments during dinner (we ate saucy chicken wings from her favorite restaurant) about […]

8/7/2016 4 comments

Run Away

by ErasedEon 8/7/2016

written by ErasedEon

Would it be okay if I went on an adventure to find myself? When I say that, I actually mean… would it be a good idea to run away? Maybe not now, but the next time things take a turn for the worse. What do you guys think?

I’m sorry… I’m not your hero anymore.

8/7/2016 3 comments

Update with the wedding

by kupo95 8/6/2016

written by kupo95

So i was enjoying myself single for the first time in five years and forntje for time ever I was able to change out with the girls not caring about serving cleaning looking good impersing some one ..but in turn into a night of people telling me to just go back to my ex . my family are apparently holding me hostage. So when I bring up my ex’s girl friend while where married no one believes me. They just look at me as a ungrateful little girl and like I’m dirt because I dint stay for the abuse . on top of no one […]

8/6/2016 3 comments

Empty.

by hellblau 8/5/2016

written by hellblau

I miss you so much and I feel empty without you. I just wish you could feel the same way about me.

8/5/2016 2 comments

The ultimate betrayal…….

by noneedforaname 8/1/2016

written by noneedforaname

I found something out yesterday that completely ripped my heart out. My wife divorced me a year and a half ago and i didnt know why until now. It seems my ( best friend lol ) was going to talk to and check on my wife and family while i was out of town for work without me knowing. This guy had a successful trucking business, a wife, kids, plus come to find out, a girlfriend and kids with her. So why interfere with my life. I lost everything because of this. My home, my vehicles, my Harley, but most importantly […]

8/1/2016 2 comments

Skeptical, but willing to try.

by Lyanhyrt 7/31/2016

written by Lyanhyrt

People tell me talking about my problems helps the healing process to being. I’m skeptical, but willing to try almost anything to get me to stop thinking these thoughts. Let me begin by telling a little bit about myself. I’m a male, 28, and an independent fundamental baptist. I don’t tell anyone what I’m feeling or thinking; the fact I’m doing this is extremely uncharacteristic of me. I’ve been having these suicidal thoughts for at least a decade (since high school) with on and off degrees of intensity. My most common prayer is that God will kill me during the night, I don’t think he’ll […]

7/31/2016 3 comments

Homesick

by Jazzmoses 7/31/2016

written by Jazzmoses

I miss him so much. The apartment is so cold without him. He’ll visit me on Monday and Tuesday. Living without him with me is so weird.

7/31/2016 0 comment

Family

by Jazzmoses 7/30/2016

written by Jazzmoses

Mom friend, only a year older than me surprisingly, has helped me more than anyone has in certain ways. Taking me shopping, giving me rides, paying my high school summer classes so I can graduate. I am ungrateful. I really almost fucked up.

I am taking summer classes in order to graduate high school and I almost fucked up. Today was the due date, but technically, I have until Sunday. Damage is done, though. I told her I wouldn’t make it, told her I’d pay her back, then she dropped me. Told me to buy her $200 jeans to make up for it. Then Anthony called […]

7/30/2016 2 comments

I’m sick of it.

by Lonely1457 7/29/2016

written by Lonely1457

I haven’t posted on here for a while now but it’s happening again. I’m always getting blamed. I get blamed for the things I didn’t do because “it seems like I did it.” That’s what she tells me. What did I ever do to her anyways? She’s always acting so good but I know her better. But it hurts so fucking much to get blamed for every second. She tries to find things to blame me for every single time. Every little thing. I’m so fucking done. I did nothing wrong. Just take me away. And these days it’s always my fault. Crying again now. […]

7/29/2016 4 comments

Rage

by Jazzmoses 7/28/2016

written by Jazzmoses

Rage is what I’ve been feeling since my dad visited two weeks ago. One month without talking to me or trying to reach out. The hardest month yet. The month I started my antidepressants. The month I constantly called him, remembering that he had promised me to be there for me, even if it was 2:00 am. One night, it was 2:00 am and I was holding all of my medication in my hands. It was painful. There was a war inside my head. Trying to die is mentally painful. I called him 10 times. Voicemail every time.

I was crying, of course. I don’t hold […]

7/28/2016 3 comments

I am a stalker

by ListConn 7/26/2016

written by ListConn

My parents never talked to me and dismissed my problems because they are too perfect for their kid to have flaws I guess. I am a weird kid. I never kissed a girl, never had friends, never had a childhood and I guess I never grew out of it.

A new employee at work is a girl who is the friendliest person I ever met. On her first day she introduced herself to me and she seemed genuinely interested about me and she was smiling. She always smiles. Few days later a coworker told me that she said that I’m smart and nice.

She is my cure […]

7/26/2016 7 comments

You are loved

by honoringtrent 7/25/2016

written by honoringtrent

This is my first post, though I’ve perused many over the past few months. I have found a lot of comfort here, but have also felt so much despair seeing so much pain put into words.

You see, I was shocked and blindsided by the loss of my husband, the father of my children, my life partner for 11 years, my best friend, to suicide on June 13, 2015.

I plan to post more at a later time, but felt incredibly compelled to post this now…. You are loved.

I don’t know you and you don’t know me, but I hope you read this (yes, I’m talking to […]

7/25/2016 3 comments

Who knew?

by snader 7/24/2016

written by snader

I sure as hell didn’t.

That’s the tragedy about stories like mine: nobody saw it coming. Nobody saw how deeply and utterly lost and saddened my brother really was, how lonely and abandoned he felt, how angry he was at the world for leaving him and disappointing him.
Not his teachers, who saw him in school every day. They saw how he hated being there, how he was disgusted by how they treated the kids because the “teacher is always right”. How the principle was so unfair to everyone, the only way was their way. But they didn’t think much of it, because that’s just […]

7/24/2016 6 comments

How do you guys feel about your families?

by hopeisafourletterword 7/23/2016

written by hopeisafourletterword

For some people, their family is the reason why they don’t commit suicide. For others, it’s the reason why they want to so desperately.

Personally I hate the idea of belonging to a family. I’ve hated it for a long time. Everything was fine when I was a kid but now my mom resents me for not wanting to live with her anymore. She thinks she understands me but she really doesn’t. She doesn’t want to take responsibility for her actions and claims that bringing me into this world was out of her control. She’s a nice person but frankly she deserves what she says she […]

7/23/2016 12 comments

Long time no post here…

by pikwangchu 7/20/2016

written by pikwangchu

Tell me…

Am I useful to this world?

I mean, from what I see, i’m useless.

So I’m here to rant about myself.

I’m unaccepted, i was never able to be super comfortable in a group of friends.

I’m troublesome, i’ve always caused my parents a lot of trouble. It’s to the point where i blame myself about my father’s heart attack about one and a half year from now.

I’m an accident, my parents never planned me out. i almost killed my mother when i was born. i’ve been called ‘adopted’ a million of times throughout my short time of living.

I’m mentally suicidal, if that made any sense at all, […]

7/20/2016 2 comments

Abused, broken , and confused

by unknownnnbbbb 7/19/2016

written by unknownnnbbbb

i-act-like-i-dont-care-but-deep-inside-it-hurts-sad-quote I’ve been sad for years! It started the summer before my ninth grade year. That summer I realized my parents true colors. I was a daddy’s girl before that summer and that’s what really broke me inside because I put all my trust into my dad. Anyways that day my dad had said some hurtful stuff and I got mad and he tried to make it up by giving me money and I said “money can’t buy love” he gave a crazy look and left the room he came back with a belt and beat […]

7/19/2016 6 comments

Feeling depressed and not worth living? Then you have been lied to… (Part 1)

by beyourself 7/16/2016

written by beyourself

Let me first tell you a bit of my story and how I found this website – I was searching for methods to commit suicide. Why? I do not feel suicidal at all and I do not want to die at all. However, I may not have any other option. The reason for this is that there are some criminal people treating to do horrible things to me and my family, presumably because I was the cause for their significant financial losses (we are talking millions “supposedly”). While I can accept being killed I do not want my family to be affected. Therefore, my only […]

7/16/2016 1 comment

This is depressing.

by Lawli 7/16/2016

written by Lawli

My parents make me depressed, that’s why I stay in my room because every time I have a conversation with them, hang out with them, or when they talk to me I want to kill myself afterwards. They don’t do anything mean to me or anything, we don’t even argue much, I can’t ague with them, maybe it because i’m scared of them, or I know I just owe them to much but I can’t argue with them. I guess I feel kinda like I have been locked in a cage around them, I don’t feel comfortable at all and I can’t be myself. I […]

7/16/2016 2 comments

No more

by Lonely1457 7/15/2016

written by Lonely1457

I can’t take it anymore. I’m crying every night. I’m stressed, I’m anxious, and I’m tired. What to do anymore? Is life important? I’m here thinking of someone I can tell my problems to and I think and think but I end up being here. So much friends but they’ll only think I’m annoying or take it as a joke. I just want to die, not suicide. Then again jumping off a cliff doesn’t sound so bad. I’m so sad, lonely and everything.

7/15/2016 1 comment

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