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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

Hello.

by 121115 6/13/2016

written by 121115

I almost ended my life tonight.

I got into a huge argument with not only my parents, but my grandparents, who I believed understood me more than my parents did; I was also publicly humiliated in front of my friends, in a situation where my parents and grandparents ran out in front of my house, in front of the car my friends were in, all just to yell at me.

I had to tell my friends to leave immediately. My parents talked to me for two hours and tried to tell me that family is all I have. That they’re the only ones who will ever truly […]

6/13/2016 1 comment

People Are causing Me To suffer

by GerbzBaby 6/13/2016

written by GerbzBaby

(A mini drawing I drew to help calm my nasty thoughts :/ )

All my friends and family are unsupportive and them not being here for me is causing me to suffer. Day after day after day all I think about is suicide but.. I’m to much of a chicken to fucking do it. I want to live but then again I want to die.. In the least painful way.. I’ve been waiting for so long to find those friends who finally care.. […]

6/13/2016 10 comments

Fighting

by AshCoveredAngel 6/13/2016

written by AshCoveredAngel

So I’ve calmly explained to my family that my child needs to eat all day.

And then they wonder why I’m suddenly screaming full bore about how they need to eat.

It’s day 3 of them not having an appetite. It’s a fact toddlers do this but mine absolutely CANNOT do this.

They have failure to thrive and we’re in the closing stages of a child services investigation. I’ve successfully brought them home from foster care but our battle isn’t over. The state is going to continue harassing us, even after the case is closed.

I can’t afford my child losing any kind of weight. […]

6/13/2016 1 comment

No one can handle me.

by AshCoveredAngel 6/13/2016

written by AshCoveredAngel

I can’t even handle me.

I need to have this baby.

Leave, run, or whatever.

End it.

I’m only creating more problems with my existence.

If I can’t deal with my mental illness how on earth can I ask anybody else to?

My significant others don’t deserve this, my family doesn’t deserve this, my friends don’t deserve this, and my kids ESPECIALLY don’t deserve this.

I need to end it before I fuck up more people. I’ve already hurt family, my ex spouse, and one child enough.

Enough is enough. I need to get out before more damage happens.

6/13/2016 0 comment

by burdengirl 6/13/2016

written by burdengirl

I am at my wits end in life. Normally I am able to pull through when things get tough but lately I am seriously considering killing myself. I understand that everyone goes through life drama but I don’t think I am strong enough to carry everything on my shoulders anymore. I am 18 and as of right now I feel alone. I was raped from the time I was 7 until I was 11 by my stepbrothers and their friends. I never said anything to anyone because (as a little girl) I believed what they told me .. That they would break up my family. […]

6/13/2016 2 comments

Standstill

by renegadeRaenbow 6/12/2016

written by renegadeRaenbow

It’s been a while since I’ve been active here, and I mainly only come to post thoughts that I can just get down and easily forget.

I’ve been off my medications for about 3 months since trying to have a baby with my husband. It has been so hard though what with making the decision to quit the job I’ve been at for the past five years, starting a job I utterly despise, making the decision to quit the new job entirely (after having multiple anxiety attacks stemmed from it; I do have a backup plan though), and having our roommate situation wear and tear me […]

6/12/2016 2 comments

Seeing things better…

by Jax910 6/12/2016

written by Jax910

Had the world by the balls, successful career, opportunities galore, fell in love after the end of a very abusive marriage, with my best friend, we gave definition to the meaning… My older children don’t have anything to do with me, my own mother trash mouths me, my babies love me, and my best friend, she hurts and I can’t stand it anymore. I really was a good dad and good person, they didn’t see what went on behind closed doors, they don’t know, the hurt from that and the pain is relentless, people don’t stop, my wheels are turning so much and I’m broken, […]

6/12/2016 2 comments

Well, here I am.

by 121115 6/11/2016

written by 121115

I’m not quite sure if becoming a user of this forum is a means of an end or a coping method. At this point, it really couldn’t matter less.

One day, perhaps, I will fully disclose the ‘origin story’ (this phrase is funny to me, as if comparing the origins of my condition to the origins of a superhero’s powers); the entire tale of my descent into severe depression, my incessant and quite honestly obsessive thoughts of suicide that had lasted every day for a year, and my journey through psychiatric hospitalization. At one point, I had felt that these points in my life were important and […]

6/11/2016 4 comments

Schizoid Personality Disorder

by AshCoveredAngel 6/10/2016

written by AshCoveredAngel

I have schizoid personality disorder and basically I’ll never get “better” from that.

After loads of research I’ve discovered that the life I’ve wanted has basically been the root cause of my depression.

I know there’s exceptions but

Schizoid people don’t typically get married let alone have dating relationships

Schizoid people don’t have children

Schizoid people can’t or don’t work in most professions

Basically I’ll never have a healthy or happy relationship with anybody and that’s why my marriage failed and my current relationship is likely to fail as well.

I may have brought my daughter home from foster care but I’ll never be […]

6/10/2016 2 comments

I Miss You…

by ghost187 6/9/2016

written by ghost187

I really loved you. I actually cared about you. I’m sorry that that wasn’t enough. I’m sorry that I didn’t know that less was more. I’m glad you’re happy. Finally. You deserve it. I wish we talked more. I miss you like crazy. You were the best person to me. Even when shit got broken towards the end you were still more of a friend to me than the people I call friends now. You meant more to me. You treated me like a real human being instead of just some rag doll. With you I felt secure and okay and like I actually mattered […]

6/9/2016 1 comment

You Can’t Make Me Feel Sorry

by GerbzBaby 6/8/2016

written by GerbzBaby

People throughout my life have been making me feel sorry for them when I decided to put my foot down. Like with my friend who I got into a heated fight with. He always tells me about how upset he felt in the fight but never cared about how I felt about it. Hurt, depressed, betrayed, cheated on, thrown away, used, the list goes on and on.. It always seems like he’s trying to make me feel sorry for him even though he was the main cause of it. Same said with my dad. I remember this one time I didn’t want to go on […]

6/8/2016 1 comment

“I Didn’t Want To Die, But I Felt That I Had To…” —Kevin Hines, Suicide Survivor

by HERE4UOK 6/6/2016

written by HERE4UOK

SeeSmith on another post here on SP said it well: “You are the LEAST qualified person to judge yourself [when you are in an ill state of mind]”.

Don’t make the mistake of thinking for others, don’t assume you’re a burden or that others are just too “busy with their own lives” to care for you, to help you.

Ask for help. It’s OK to not be OK! Life is not just about its sweet moments.

6/6/2016 0 comment

Don’t Be Sorry for Struggling. We All Do at Some Point. It’s NOT Wrong Asking for Help, Not Doing So Is..!

by HERE4UOK 6/6/2016

written by HERE4UOK

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6/6/2016 2 comments

I Just Want to Talk

by MortalCoil 6/5/2016

written by MortalCoil

This is not a cry for help. Technically, this is seeking attention, but only in the sense that I wish to speak about suicide without entertaining the notion that someone will attempt to interfere. I just…want to talk to someone who might understand.

6/5/2016 5 comments

Depression: Love and sadness.

by StrawberryReunion 6/4/2016

written by StrawberryReunion

So I will start off by saying that this might seem like I am looking for attention but I am not. This is what I deal with and I don’t know where else to express myself. Please don’t judge me. I’ve had enough of that.

Depression is hard. Its like being strapped to a table and left there in the dark with a chronic pain that just gets worse and someone constantly whispering in your ear:
“If you give up, I can make the pain stop”
I sit there wondering “Is it right? It hurts just to breathe, Why is it happening? I hate myself, I […]

6/4/2016 2 comments

I wish you knew

by skysie 6/4/2016

written by skysie

These are the things I wish I could tell my best friend/ ex boyfriend:

I wish I could tell you I love you
I wish I could tell you that I care
I wish I could tell you I will always be there
I wish I could tell you how much I miss you
I wish I could go back and say the right things
I wish you could see I want to be there
The person who you call
The person you love
I wish I knew what you felt
I wish I knew what happened
I wish you knew that when I cry I […]

6/4/2016 10 comments

Stressed Out & Helpless

by hdd7474 6/2/2016

written by hdd7474

Dealing with the aftermath of my mother’s suicide has been very difficult and stressful.

My mom and dad had been married for 27 years back in March and they hardly EVER spent a night away from each other. If she had a business trip he’d be right beside her. If he had a business trip she’d likewise be right there with him. I know that none of us know how to cope with this the “correct” way…..due to I’m sure THERE IS NO CORRECT WAY TO HANDLE A SITUATION LIKE THIS. I feel helpless in not knowing how to help my dad heal. It hasn’t been […]

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6/2/2016 0 comment

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Bearer of Bad News… ANT, R.I.P.

by HERE4UOK 6/1/2016

written by HERE4UOK

I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but I can share with all you SP members that a friend of Ant’s confirmed his departure.

R.I.P. Ant, you leave us your words, music, and special sense of humor. Wish we could have made you stay with us a little longer, though.

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6/1/2016 38 comments

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Why do I feel like this?

by skysie 5/31/2016

written by skysie

So I went to my prom as a lot people recommend but no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t enjoy it my social anxiety kicked in and I became self conscious. All the songs reminded me of my bestfriend and person I loved that I lost. I missed him and really wished he could have been there. I saw everyone else was happy so what the fuck did I do to deserve so much pain, to lose everything. Why am I being punished since the day I was born.

I cant do this anymore

I just wanna go to sleep and never wake up

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5/31/2016 1 comment

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Best friend (a boy) depressed what should I do

by skysie 5/30/2016

written by skysie

Hi,

I need some advice. My best friend and I both have depression. We went out for 6 weeks and we loved each other but then he left me to push me away as he has been going through a rough time recently. I really care about him and love him and feel so helpless. He has withdrawn himself from all of his friends and is barely ever in school.

I really want to help him. I love him and am so worried about him. He’s 19. Any suggestions?

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5/30/2016 14 comments

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