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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

I’m so tired of “trying”

by whyohwhy1113 3/10/2015

written by whyohwhy1113

I just recently was discharged from a psych ward. This was my second hospitalization. I’m still suicidal and have been for a long time. My parents told me today that I need to “try harder to be happy.” I’m just sick of hearing shit like this.

I just feel like dying, how am I supposed to stop all of a sudden. I just don’t understand their logic. I’ve been struggling with depression and self harm for about 8 years now (since I was 10 years old). And haven’t felt happy to be alive in about 2 years. My suicidal thoughts / planning have increased and became […]

3/10/2015 4 comments

in sickness and in health

by scartopia 3/8/2015

written by scartopia

I know I’m dying and they know it too but they’re too afraid to face reality

3/8/2015 4 comments

Why do people think/act this way?

by mywall_wontfall 3/7/2015

written by mywall_wontfall

I always seem to end up in a melancholy state. No matter what I do I always end up there again. Things only go good for a while then bam. I got to start all over again from the beginning. It seems to happens no matter what I do.

I guess the reason I feel this way is, because I know no one really gives a fuck about anyone else. I’m guilty of this myself and the only reason I act the way I do is because everyone else is doing it, so why not me too then? Why should I be the one that gives […]

3/7/2015 3 comments

Confessions to an Old Friend

by Sammi6xoxo 3/5/2015

written by Sammi6xoxo

“But sometimes, I can see myself sinking so far down. Getting so desperate for some sort of tangible stability or peace. I can see myself getting a gun and swallowing the barrel.. I can’t See myself ever pulling the trigger, but I can almost hear the defining silence that comes after the blast. And I just wonder. Is there anything after this? If so, could it be better? I just want to be stable. I want to be okay. I can picture this landscape. Tall grass and a weeping willow in the middle of the field. Mountains are barely visible against the cool summer sky. […]

3/5/2015 0 comment

Bitter Sweet

by lezbehonest94 3/4/2015

written by lezbehonest94

My wife came and stayed with me last night. And brought one of our kids. I missed her. We lived together. Then we were separated due to her fake beatfriend/roomate giving her altimatums on me being there. Today is the fifth day we’ve been living apart. Last night went great. Of course we bickered about what has been going on and stuff sence I’ve been gone the house isn’t a home . its been turned into a frat house. She promises to have me back home soon. She promises to have me back in her arms. In our bed with our pup and our normal […]

3/4/2015 3 comments

My battle with depression and suicide (Help)

by Parzival 3/3/2015

written by Parzival

I have been dealing with suicidal depression for over a year now. I’m 18 I no longer live at home due to some family issues and am currently living with my sister who I split rent with. I have a full time job as a cashier, I go to college, and overall am a very busy person. I am actually adopted from a family of drug addicts. My birth dad left my mother when I was born and she did some drugs while pregnant. This caused me to have a form of high functioning Autism called Aspergers (AD) syndrome, ADHD, and OCD. Some of the […]

3/3/2015 5 comments

Is it true? Please Answer

by Quiver 3/2/2015

written by Quiver

I’ve built my life on trust… confiding in people, caring for them, loving them. And today I’ve realised most, if not all, have broken my trust in the last few weeks, when I needed them most. I’m doubting whether or not people are worth it… Is trust really not worth it?

3/2/2015 6 comments

Do you ever think about

by Ascending 3/1/2015

written by Ascending

what happens after the end?

I have been suicidal since I can remember. The only thing that has stopped me from attempting (in recent years) is the fear of what will happen after I catch the bus. What if I am successful in my endeavor, only to end up in the same position again?

I have the means. I have the will. Now I just need the courage to take my final step.

3/1/2015 5 comments

The Hopeless Child

by nobody special 2/27/2015

written by nobody special

Ever since I was born, I have always been a shy person. I would try to ignore my own feelings to help others. In fact, I was forced to at such a young age since my friends were all a few months younger than me. Therefore, since I was the eldest, I was the one who got reprimanded and to my young mind, did everything wrong. This idea was reinforced by my mother shouting at both me and my dad a lot. My dad and her yelled at each other every night. They tried to hide it from me, but I was a poor sleeper. […]

2/27/2015 2 comments

I can’t believe that this is what it has come to…..

by serenityseeker 2/27/2015

written by serenityseeker

I don’t have Internet connection on a regular basis so if I want to write a post for this site I have to pre-write it and save it fir when I do have Internet. This is a bummer in one way because if I don’t have my laptop the next time I get Internet I can’t post it or if I have it on my flash drive but only have my cell phone the next time I have Internet then I can’t post it either.
So, now that I have that all explained away, I suppose I will update those who care or are even […]

2/27/2015 1 comment

Loved him.

by hellblau 2/24/2015

written by hellblau

¿Why should I be sad? I have lost someone who didn’t love me. But He lost someone who loved him.

2/24/2015 2 comments

So here we are…

by serenityseeker 2/24/2015

written by serenityseeker

…back at home. And tonight for what I believe is the third time in four daysI have had to call rhe local police department to aks them to check the area for this female that continues to come to our bedroom window at night and call out to my man. She calls him by name, taps on the window, flashes a light into our room and just pesters the fuck out of me if I’m in the room or does whatever it is she does with/to my man when I am not in the room. The difference between the last two times I have called […]

2/24/2015 0 comment

So it happened again tonight….

by serenityseeker 2/24/2015

written by serenityseeker

Will it ever end? Will it ever stop? I have so many questions and no answers for any of them. I have no idea what anyone else reality is but i can tell you for sure that mine is shit. I have absolutely nothing to stand on, no foundation or stable ground that I can always rely upon for safety or otherwise. Does anyone know what i am talking about?
I seem to chase away everyone that I love because I am so tired of hurting them all of the time. Every emotion that I have comes across as angry, even when I am hurt […]

2/24/2015 1 comment

am I suicidal

by i-Like-turtles 2/24/2015

written by i-Like-turtles

It’s a funny question.

I question myself if I am suicidal … I’m diagnosed with major depression impulse control disorder and anxiety. But when I got discharged from the hospital again my second time I was okay… But after a couple of weeks so many people weren’t there for me.. I feel no need to live, because I’m not important… I also don’t want to go back to the hospital again and I don’t want attention I’m just tired

2/24/2015 0 comment

I’m a loser , I am a loser in this cruel boring LIMITED real world , reality , real life

by niki 2/23/2015

written by niki

I’m a loser , I am a loser in this cruel boring LIMITED real world , reality , real life .. !

I am a 33 years old Asian guy, who used to have so many beautiful hope & dreams ,
and many people have told me that I’m a smart, multi talent , very creative, & wise person
but now the more I see this cursed world, people, humans beings, and this reality, the more I lose hope in humanity , losing hope in human beings, and also lose hope in myself & my future

you see ,.. Reality / real world / real […]

2/23/2015 4 comments

cutting is frowned upon

by i-Like-turtles 2/23/2015

written by i-Like-turtles

So many time since heard that people who cut are dumb emotion faggots… Sick of it! It makes my gut turn.

I still do cut and it’s a pleasure…not for attention…. Well all heard this over and over what do I do?

2/23/2015 1 comment

final decision

by i-Like-turtles 2/23/2015

written by i-Like-turtles

I feel so many people abandon me… Thinking I want attention, but ever day I feel a little bit more certain to make the choice to kill myself . many people say….”you still have me” but they are never there for there word or me

2/23/2015 7 comments

Pre-Suicide Notes

by kinai 2/22/2015

written by kinai

Dear Mom,

No, I am not yet trying to commit suicide. Just not yet. Not here. Not in this winter. If I do it, I’ll do it right. I’ll do it at home. Our home. Our real home. Not here. So, chill, I’m still alive. Isn’t that explained why this post is called pre-suicide notes? Hah. I’m sorry mom. I’m sorry for being a failure. I’m sorry to disappoint you. I’m sorry I’ve been so wasted in this world. I’m sorry that I’m being like this. No, you did nothing wrong, mom. You’ve been a great mom. Yes you are. It is just me. I’m thinking […]

2/22/2015 2 comments

Why?

by Lost_In_The_Darkness 2/20/2015

written by Lost_In_The_Darkness

I cant do this anymore….my friends tell me not to do it. And a minute later I get a call “I’m so sorry I tried to….” I cant stand here and know that my friends try and I can’t! They dont understand that I deal so useless when it happens that as I sit here and type this I’m about to cry. Keeping myself from doing anything…. I can only do this for so long….

2/20/2015 1 comment

Futility remain unanswered and hope remains an ornamate.

by letmeusemyname 2/18/2015

written by letmeusemyname

This could be a trigger so I ask people who have tendencies to skip this.

I would just like to ask for opinions, thoughts, anything. So if anyone would like to reply, please go ahead. This is not a post about hope but about suicide.

I am 21, I am far from being young and I am far from having what you would call a hard life. I have a degree from uni, I have a roof above my head and all that shit. Yet I still want to die, there is nothing for me to live for. i am a waste of space to everyone around […]

2/18/2015 2 comments

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