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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

tears, fears, urges and ramblings

by tylar 5/25/2014

written by tylar

Its hard when you don’t really have anyone to turn to, it can be a lonely existence

Over the last year, I’ve learned to keep my mouth shut when I’m around the people in my life, because I know they are no longer interested in what I have to say, or how messed up I feel, but I guess I can’t blame them, but the one thing that makes me angry is when they say ‘I know how you feel’ or ‘I’ve been through the same thing’ its not a competition but if each person suffered the same, one treatment would work for everyone

Lately I’ve formed […]

5/25/2014 3 comments

I just wanted you to want me

by hellblau 5/25/2014

written by hellblau

Â¿What’s the point of having me at your feet? Â If my today, my tomorrow lost the battle of your yesterday.

5/25/2014 0 comment

That’s it

by Jean_emory 5/24/2014

written by Jean_emory

Thats is, im going to kill myself. And my mother is to blame, she has made my life so miserable that i cant even take it anymore. They always think im lying an im not, they make me not even want to talk to them , then when i dont talk to them, i get in trouble, so im never going to have even a day that im not in trouble. Im going to just explode. My soul is chipping away from the world and my life is worth nothing more than dirt. My heart cant take this emotional roller coaster, im going […]

5/24/2014 3 comments

I’m here <3

by LovelyDaze 5/22/2014

written by LovelyDaze

Hello all,

I’ve never posted on this site before, but I felt the need to make an account and make one. Â To all that is reading this; to all that feels like no one is there; to all that has contemplated life over and over again and feels the need to end things; to anyone that just needs to share their feelings to… I’m here. Â I have felt what rock bottom feels like and I have been in and out of depression, contemplating suicide a few times in my life. Â I will keep this short and sweet: Â the pain may seem never-ending, but it eventually DOES […]

5/22/2014 2 comments

Live.

by Jane Heperi 5/21/2014

written by Jane Heperi

I know what you’re thinking. ‘It’s another girl trying to stop us from thinking about suicide’. ‘Nothing she’s going to say is going to stop me’. You’re right. There is nothing I can say or do to stop you from this. I don’t know what you’ve all been through; I definitely have no right to tell you that you shouldn’t commit suicide. But what I can tell you is that you’re not crazy. You’re not exaggerating. But most of all, you’re not alone. You’re probably thinking, ‘I’ve heard all this, there’s no point, she doesn’t understand’. You’re right, I don’t understand. But there is something […]

5/21/2014 6 comments

Being a Knite

by Shadowknite 5/19/2014

written by Shadowknite

My favorite thing in the world is being there for someone like us. I am 17, a junior in HS, and I have 7 MS girls who are just like me. Cutters, suicidals. I can only help so much. Today, to get one to stop, I put my blade to my arm, on a line I have thinned out from my elbow to wrist, just in case I ever need to do it. It’s a pain to watch them worry, but a relief to watch them stop. I’ve gone back to cutting, though. What gives me the right to stop others when I can’t stop […]

5/19/2014 1 comment

All i ever wanted was love…

by DeathlySweet330 5/18/2014

written by DeathlySweet330

All i ever wanted was love, or to be loved by everyone i came in contact with…..But you see….It’s harder for me….Because…Well….I’mÂ ME….Â I’m broken…. And no one wants a broken toy….I know i’m different from everyone else…But that doesn’t mean i have to be treated as such…I just want someone who will love me…for MeÂ and not judge me for my wrongs…I’ve had many friends….But We’ve either drifted away, had a fight, or been back stabbed…I just want someone who won’t walk out when i show signs of mental pain and leave me like road kill…. Just a few days ago i attempted Suicide….but apparently the driver […]

5/18/2014 5 comments

The tunnel

by ertihan 5/17/2014

written by ertihan

I met a friend of mine about eight months ago. Â Prior to that I had no real friends, no one I could talk to. Â I was 27 years old with no girlfriend, no wife, no kids, noÂ life, really. Â And yes, I was kinda suicidal back then too, but only in the vaguest way. Â I had the thoughts, but never took any real action. Â I was just on auto-pilot, living life day-by-day. Â My life consisted of going to work, coming home, playing video games (not even social multi-player ones!) and then sleeping. Â The most boring, staid, ridiculously isolating life you could imagine and IÂ hated it. Â Then […]

5/17/2014 5 comments

Undead

by Undead101 5/14/2014

written by Undead101

“We’re all alive just not fully, we’re all just…Undead“

Â ~UnknownÂ

5/14/2014 2 comments

My Story

by Defiled 5/13/2014

written by Defiled

This will be my first post on here, it’s probably going to be long winded so I honestly hope that someone will read this. So here goes… I’m an 18 year old guy, obviously very much troubled with life like the rest of us on here. My Mother had me at the age of 24 and my biological Father for whatever reason left her (still to this date any relative is reluctant to give information on him) She then met my Step Father when I was 4 and that’s when things began to spiral down. They had children, and I was pushed a side, became […]

5/13/2014 5 comments

im tired

by killmealready97 5/13/2014

written by killmealready97

Im just tired of everything everyone hates me except 2-3 people my family hate me my mom always calls me names and my brother and sister told that next time i try to kill myself i shouldnt tell anyone so i actually die and maybe theyre right i think about it a lot and i realise everyone in my life would be better without me im just a weordo who cant even talk to people i cant even talker to my counsilors and psychiatrists maybe its my time to go and finally give them what they want besides my life has been hell so far […]

5/13/2014 2 comments

Being Pathetic and my Dad

by Poison 5/13/2014

written by Poison

I’m so tired. Just tired of all this crap lately. First off, I was starving myself yesterday and the day before- an attempt to diet because I’m fucking gross. I want all of my fat gone. All of it. I hate myself. I’m a gross, fat, ugly waste of space. I hate myself so damn much. You know what I’m really, really, really craving, though? Sweet release. Last week (I think), my blade was taken away, and I haven’t been able to cut. Cutting was my little escape. All the cuts on my arm are fading away, and I’m getting anxious about that, for some […]

5/13/2014 1 comment

Better day a brighter tomorrow

by anaboyred24 5/13/2014

written by anaboyred24

Today as been one off the best days I’ve had in months so far I feel there is hope for me I can give so much to this world. my CPN (community psychiatric nurse) don’t know if you have them in the us? but in the uk we do. Well he said that I will be starting counselling next week I’ve been waiting for this for months as they have Â a very long waiting list in my area where I live. I still feel down I still fell like ending it. but it is less today then it as been its mead me think my […]

5/13/2014 10 comments

Switching to Tumblr

by Engeltje 5/13/2014

written by Engeltje

Yesterday I decided to make a tumblr, and I feel like I can express myself there betrer than here on this site. So probably I will be less on this site. I’ll try to give an update once in a while, but forgive me if I don’t.

5/13/2014 10 comments

Broken mirror

by AllBroken 5/13/2014

written by AllBroken

Hello I’m 25yrs young I like that word better I’ve felt this way for awhile now I attempted suicide once already and died for about 5 seconds, long enough to hear the heart monitor flatline and feel life slip away, when I was a kid I had believed in finding something to believe in or hold onto, when I was younger I would look into the mirror and this feeling of sadness ignite in my heart I’d stare through the tears and tell myself it’ll change it’ll go away I used to wake up at night and cry until I fell asleep again sometimes my […]

5/13/2014 3 comments

Raw In Sect – Cutting My Skin

by Scarred 5/12/2014

written by Scarred

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8g-FcVpg52c

I feared what I love and became what I hate
To settle down the score, I punished me
Young, I started to relate to every inch of misery
Now I’m going to sit back and watch me drown within

Forced myself to fail my father
So called rage has rotten me
Could reach for highs and uppers but still the fool
Down in the gutter embracing gloom

I threw fiction away just to realize there was nothing left
Enlightened by sin
I feel so alive cutting my skin

I don’t know why it takes so long
Just to find where I come from
I’m sinking way too deep […]

5/12/2014 0 comment

Alone.

by -disconnected- 5/12/2014

written by -disconnected-

Has anyone else felt alone their whole life? Always the odd one out, outcasted by strangers, friends, and family alike. I’ve grown to realize that I’m not like the others. I’m quiet; I observe everyone around me. And I don’t like what I see. Everyone is so superficial. I see people for what they really are – their flaws, ulterior motives and blind prejudices. I know I have flaws myself but they don’t even compare to what I see in others. Perhaps I am a pessimist; though I like to think I’m a realist.

Every year that goes by, the more I dislike everyone I […]

5/12/2014 9 comments

I’m going to try

by anaboyred24 5/11/2014

written by anaboyred24

I did not end it last night I was moments away for it but thats down to two people my mother and a comment left on a post here. Yes i still got no hope I still want to die but I was in a very dark place yesterday. And if it was not for that post and my mother coming into my room and hugging me saying “I know your in pain but I love you and you can get through this” it almost broke my heart I can’t remember the last time she did that. so I’m going to try again for her. […]

5/11/2014 6 comments

Coincidentally May 10th

by Shaynax 5/10/2014

written by Shaynax

is my mothers birthday and the anniversary of my fathers death. I haven’t said happy birthday to my mother in 7 years. It is not a joyous day, so I don’t think there is any point in saying it. It makes me feel horrible but I literally can’t find it in me to say it. And Mother’s Day is not too far behind. Worst daughter of the year.

5/10/2014 2 comments

Falling back…

by Engeltje 5/9/2014

written by Engeltje

I feel like I’m falling back to my old habbits. The last weeks I started to take more and more control about eating and exercising. My life’s turning again about (not) eating and exercising and trying to hide it all. But I’m fine with it, because my life is a little bit more bearable now, and I have sometimes a little happy moment (if I lost some weight or had a good exercise). And I know it’s unhealthy and stuff, but it’s keeping me from suicide, so that’s a good thing, right? And I’m going to be more happy with my body. I love the […]

5/9/2014 8 comments

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