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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

nobody Cares until your gone.

by lostgirl909 2/5/2014

written by lostgirl909

It’s funny how the people that were so called their for u but at the end your by your self ur probably so hurt that u don’t even know wat to do either to kill yourself or overcome your self and I find it really hurtful wen u know u been thur so much yet no body could see that they just think u thank happy girl or boy but once u let one person in and u tell them ur reall life and they go n tell people ur stuff and then seconds ur called a slut or fag or nothing but no body […]

2/5/2014 3 comments

help me

by keke_ 2/5/2014

written by keke_

2/5/2014 2 comments

Feeling Confident..

by BrennaBear 2/4/2014

written by BrennaBear

all my life I have been the freak, the weird one, the one nobody wanted to be friends with. people would look at me and laugh, call me ugly make me feel uselss. fat ugly weird scary whore slut emo, were only some of the names….

grade 2 was when it started. I never realy knew what it was, and I thought it was all a joke, I dident really care, cuz hey I was young. grade 4 was when it hit me, this is bullying. I never wanted to tell anyone becauseÂ I was scared it would make it worse. the names that I was called […]

2/4/2014 2 comments

I can’t do it anymore

by eipeerc 2/4/2014

written by eipeerc

(I’d like to apologize for what I’m writing here is not coherent.)

It is about 01:09 am, and I’m alone in my dorm room.

At the moment, I’m crying. I must say that I’ve been fighting the tears for a long time, and right now, here they are, running down my face.

I’m the invisible one, and for some reason, I don’t mind it at all. The only thing I regret is not having any reliable friend with whom I can talk openly. I’m about to turn 18, I’ve never had any capital-f Friend, and I highly doubt I’ll have any.

I spend most of time surrounded by books […]

2/4/2014 3 comments

what is wrong with me

by mariaheb 2/4/2014

written by mariaheb

this depression i cant get over. im almost 23 years old n life isnt life anymore. 10 years of this bullshit. numerous attempted suicides. july 5, 2012 i thought was it for me. i had taken 60+ pills. i just didnt care anymore. at one point i had it all. a job, school, living in my own apartment. today im jobless, living at home with my parents who could care less about my problems, and a single parent. that day i woke up and had completely given up on life. i remember the paramedics trying to talk to me. i was to drugged up for […]

2/4/2014 4 comments

by gaby 2/4/2014

written by gaby

I don’t really know where to start with all my emotions because they are very confusing even to myself. I’m 14 and I had depression when I was about 12 or so and I had suicidal thoughts every day. In that time I saw the world in this very ugly way like if there was no more innocence or beauty. I was able to get over my depression by myself (my mom didn’t believe I actually had depression and I didn’t know who else to tell) and with the love of God. After that experince I learned to look at life with great gratitude and […]

2/4/2014 1 comment

Help me I think I’m gonna brake down

by Bloody 2/3/2014

written by Bloody

I’m supposed to be in the work where I am at practical training right now but I just couldn’t go there, I’m sitting here, crying and sobbing and I feel like I can’t breath. I think I can’t go there today but I don’t know what to say to my teacher and those people in the work, I feel ashemed of myself and I feel like Im good for nothing and I’m just i everyone’s way and causing troubles to them.

I don’t know I’m feeling that everyone thinks I’m just lazy but I really just can’t do those things that normal people can, and it […]

2/3/2014 7 comments

My first friend I know personally attempted suicide

by RogueShadow1281 2/3/2014

written by RogueShadow1281

bullies in the army. Some shitbags making fun of Abagis for being gay, he was accepted by us back at basic training. For him to slit his wrists and be chaptered out for his suicide attempts. I want to hurt those bastards for that yet i take no action against my bullies on the homefront in the army. I should just fight back full fledged (starts out with shit talking then gets physical and i punch back and they kick harder and suddenly theyre beating on me in formations. I guess i should be the one beating on them. The. It’ll be fights behind closed […]

2/3/2014 2 comments

The woes of living with my parents

by Anabanana 2/3/2014

written by Anabanana

I live a life that’s not really mine. My mother has been emotionally and physically abusing me since I was a young girl. My father left when I was only seven years old, and lives with his fancy girlfriend. He doesn’t care what happens in my life. I acheive high grades, I have friends, and I seem like a normal girl externally. Internally, I am forever suppressing an intense desire to put an end to my life. I only find comfort in dance, music, poetry, and for some strange reason, science. However, I dread every moment I spend at home with my mother. I live […]

2/3/2014 2 comments

Is it today?

by blacksheep989 2/2/2014

written by blacksheep989

I have spent a long time reading through this site. But never posted.

For the last 3 years now is struggled with depression, caused by job stress, relationship etc. Over the last two month I hit a patch where my job and my boss brought me right down. I’d entertained the idea of suicide, but could never go any further than that because of my partner, whom I love very much.

So for two months I’ve fought back, getting back to a healthy state, then on saturday night, after a good day in the sun, drinking and enjoying my time with my partner and friends, I go […]

2/2/2014 17 comments

BP Rage – The fight to bite ones tongue

by PhantomShadow 2/2/2014

written by PhantomShadow

The one thing that most people associate with Bipolar is bad husbands with anger issues.Â It might sound stereo-typical but for the majority that is true.Â You have to be extremely carefull not to share your anger/disappointment as it can erupt in the drop of a hat and you wig out.Â I am a much more “peacefull” bipolar case than the usual but only due to the fact that I had grown up with the rage and it keeps me in check…most of the time…but I can rage with the best of them.

They say that Bipolar is inherited and it shows.Â My dad has serious […]

2/2/2014 0 comment

why do people have to care+

by darkartist93 2/1/2014

written by darkartist93

all I wanna do is let go…

I just can’t keep going, but there is one person…

if I die…

she probably wouldn’t handle it at all…

why couldn’t she have walked away…

just like everyone else?

2/1/2014 8 comments

I just want to be happy again…

by Speedy 2/1/2014

written by Speedy

So many things have changed. My best friend/cousin is dead. My relationship is deteriorating. Every night it’s the same. I think of her and how I wish she was still alive and how I want to be dead. It should have been me instead of her. Everything right now is such a mess. School. Friends. My relationship. I don’t eat right. All I have been thinking about is death. It’s been a year now with these thoughts. Maybe more time. My daydreams are about suicide, how I’d do it and when..

2/1/2014 1 comment

Consuming Guilt

by EndlessWhispers 2/1/2014

written by EndlessWhispers

I found out Thursday that my cousin ended his own life. The entire community is devastated. My father and Grandfather were both close to him. I have this guilt in me that is just all consuming. All I want to do is cry. A year ago, this could have been me. If I succeeded in killing myself, I would be the cause of more pain than I could ever deal with. I should have been a better family member, a better person. Maybe I could have done something, seen the signs, and now my entire family is feeling so much pain, and al I feel […]

2/1/2014 2 comments

shallow water

by lissbabe 1/31/2014

written by lissbabe

what is the problem with leaving me be why is it i have to stay downstairs in a room with an adult why is it that school is my hell hold but when im home thats my mental hospital, why cant i just be alone in my room sliting my wrists why cant i just be who i am and not be changed by the people who dont even give two fucks about me they are just scared of me incase im mental and insane because they dont understand this pain but they just have to change me and have to think about how safer […]

1/31/2014 1 comment

Death row

by Saint Thomas 1/30/2014

written by Saint Thomas

Trust is a powerful word and most don’t even realize it but i learned through to many experiences that no one in this world can be 100% trusted. I trusted a group of people from a small town i used to live in and look where that got me…it ended up with me getting bullied day in and day out i trusted every girlfriend i have ever had and look ive been cheated on and used or the bullshit brake up lines like ” its not you its me ” and always over text or by Facebook. I know that their are other people in […]

1/30/2014 0 comment

I’m losing hope

by babyscars 1/30/2014

written by babyscars

so I found this website and it hopes of finding people that will understand me.. So I’m assuming this is my place..

to be honest, I don’t know what’s getting into me . I feel like a monster. I made my mother cry after she found out I self harm, and now that I stop self harming, me and my boyfriend have been getting into countless fights… My mom still puts me down. She calls me whore, slut, only because I’ve kissed one guy. She beats me for no reason too. It doesn’t stop and I know it won’t. I feel so useless and I feel […]

1/30/2014 1 comment

Unforgiven (sorry, its long)

by Disgusting soul 1/30/2014

written by Disgusting soul

They are disgusting. They have a need to feel superior to one another, in looks or friends or personality. They stole all my hard work away. I will lose everything because of them.

I live with three other girls. I’m okay with one of them, it does annoy me when she is slow or in my way. But other wise she’s fine. My issue is with the other two.

I’ve known one of them since, 2nd grade or something. We’ve been best friends for a super long time. But i have never shown her my weakness. I have never shown her my true side. I just show […]

1/30/2014 0 comment

People who hate!

by Fatuglyguy72269 1/29/2014

written by Fatuglyguy72269

It never ceases to amaze me just how cruel and insane the world can be.

People will just build you up and then blow you up for their own enjoyment. So many people have hated me my entire life. I have noting left to look forward to in life. this is driving me insane! I just wish I could be a different person and experience what’s it’s like to have a family, friends, and a girlfriend. I never will get to experience any of those things Why keep this suffering going?

1/29/2014 5 comments

I should be dead but I am not

by toxicluminoth 1/27/2014

written by toxicluminoth

I am lost and scared and I’m no where near fixed but I am not dead.

I still think about suicide often and I remained un-medicated until a few moments ago when I popped the first pill to happy (doxepin).

I am getting therapy. Every once in a while it will give me something useful but not often. I don’t think I’ll be sticking with it in the long run. Maybe once every few months.

I may be unable to sleep due to apnea or even my sinus being closed off because of a random act of violence back in 07′. Apparently sleep deprivation is a bad thing…

I […]

1/27/2014 2 comments

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