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Fuck Trust?

by StitchedMouth 8/31/2014

written by StitchedMouth

Trust.

That word alone makes me confused. It’s something you give to someone and expect them to respect it. I gave that to a couple people and a couple people abused that. Someone close to me, he abused it. What he did changed my view on him forever. He didn’t do much but it was enough to cause my body to tense up and I was paralyzed with confusion and fear.

Why did he touch me that way? Did he think I was my mother? Being intoxicated changes what you see. I don’t know really, I was practically a hold still. It scares me thinking that he […]

8/31/2014 8 comments

Still trying to figure it out

by HereticBlood 8/31/2014

written by HereticBlood

Is it wrong to resent the people who told the law enforcement and children services that I was lying about all the things my mothers boyfriend did to me… Even if they’re family?… I know it’s been yrs since it’s happened but with all my flashbacks I’m still trying to figure things out.. I’m so confused about everything.. I’ve been trying to make since of everything all day and I’m only spinning in circles. Sorry for ranting on…

8/31/2014 15 comments

all the lies

by _thatonegirl 8/31/2014

written by _thatonegirl

She plays with razors

She traces he scars

She counts her flaws like she counts stars

You think you know her but you dont

Everyday her thoughts get darker

Her heart sinks a little more

She doesnt see the light anymore

“Open up to me, I won’t judge you.”

“Trust me, I won’t hurt you.”

“I’ll never leave you.”

“I love you.”

All the lies they told me.

8/31/2014 2 comments

i am not sure what to do here. i do wish it were brighter.

by flydream 8/31/2014

written by flydream

everyone seems to know, or at least has a sense of what is troubling them. i don’t. i just feel pain. for a long time now. at least the pain is very familiar and unmistakable from other pains.

baby steps, i suppose. can’t go if you can’t see.

8/31/2014 1 comment

For those of you who were moved by the plight of orphaner-coolscar… don’t be.

by Frank Einstein 8/31/2014

written by Frank Einstein

The 13 Year Old Girls Who Cried “suicide”

On this thread about 13 year old girls who cry wolf about suicide, a couple of links were posted by Koji about a former member of this site – a 15 year old girl who supposedly killed herself at the beginning of this year – eloquently describing why we should never judge what’s going on in the minds of some of the teenage attention whores who post on this website trying to solicit sympathy.

The links show the moving final post of orphaner-coolscar as she described her last night and suicide method in detail, followed by a heartfelt […]

8/31/2014 53 comments

What is the way out?

by istherehope 8/31/2014

written by istherehope

I left my husband for love. We had been together almost a decade and he provided me a nice home and new cars, anything I needed and worked hard to do so. We had a two year old son when I left for another man. This man was charming and loving, came home every night and seemed to put me first. I guess I deserve the nightmare of marriage we’ve had for the last 5 years. He’s left me three times, twice at Christmas for two weeks and another time for two months because he was arrested for hitting me. He broke the no contact […]

8/31/2014 1 comment

Help?

by Helpless.and.Alone 8/31/2014

written by Helpless.and.Alone

All I can ask for is help at this point. I feel like the further I go in life the more I wish I could just stand still. Fear is all I feel most of the time. I fell it when I’m at school, when I go out, when I’m talking to my bestfriend, when I’m talking to anyone. It’s the fear of being judge, rejected, the fear of not being accepted. Fear is not all I feel though. I fell well in the only way I can put it… Alone. Alone and scared. I feel alone bc I feel there is nothing more I […]

8/31/2014 3 comments

without him I’m nothing

by lovemyshihtzu 8/31/2014

written by lovemyshihtzu

the other night I was going to hang myself but he called me… he doesn’t have his phone anymore so he had steal his dad’s for a few minutes I want him to come home i haven’t heard from him since now I just want to die again:'(

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. tawneesmommy@gmail.com for full story. I’ve been in process of typing all I’ve been through in life but it’s taking me a long time….:(I am so alone

8/31/2014 2 comments

Weary Of Life Need Help To Make A Decision

by The_Twilight 8/31/2014

written by The_Twilight

I am a male in my mid 30s and have been weary of life for almost 2 decades but always found a way to preserver until recently. Approximately 3 years ago following a particularly difficult year at work I promised myself to end my life ordeal at the end of the academic year (I work in education). As promised I attempted during the summer vacation but a part of me wasn’t committed to completing the process so I stopped and endured another year. The next summer vacation I attempted again but again a nagging part of me prevented completion. Yet again […]

8/31/2014 1 comment

anxious… helpless:(

by lovemyshihtzu 8/31/2014

written by lovemyshihtzu

me and Ryan kinda jumped into things very fast. He moved in with me after two weeks, but we were happy as can be. I was always weary that he was lying to me, because that’s just what I’ve always been used to. But everything he said always added up. He was extremely supportive of everything, including my mental illnesses. we were in everything together. Ryan comes from a very rough child hood. Him & his siblings were taken away from his parents when I believe he was three. He found his mom when he was 18, and moved in with her. I actually met […]

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If you’ve lost someone important

by HereticBlood 8/31/2014

written by HereticBlood

http://youtu.be/U4RxilYhQP0

8/31/2014 0 comment

Paralyzed

by lifelight 8/31/2014

written by lifelight

Hi everyone,

I’m not sure if anyone will read this or care but I’ve accepted that boiling up my demons inside of me is not the answer, so here’s my story.

I’ve only felt this while for a little over the year, and I’m not exactly sure what triggered it. I have a stable family, a stable education, and a stable set of friends. I have a roof over my head and I have a lot to be thankful for. But I had one sad day too many, and one day I just collapsed into this mindset. And I haven’t gotten out.

I wrote a paragraph of reasons […]

8/31/2014 6 comments

Has anyone ever…

by anomR 8/31/2014

written by anomR

Has anyone never let anyone in before. Not out of fear but simply not caring enough and then met someone who they thought walked on water and was prepared to die for. I love her so much, it’s been 10 months 3 weeks and 2 days since she left me. It’s not like I’m a loner or anything I know loads of people who love and care about me. I could get another girlfriend who’s more attractive. But there’s something about her, I just adore and I don’t know why. It doesn’t make any sense and isn’t logical at all. She has confirmed repeatedly she’d […]

8/31/2014 2 comments

Long lived blackbird

by HereticBlood 8/31/2014

written by HereticBlood

So while I know this post will be long and I’m not sure worth anyone’s time I’m warning in advance it may not be worth reading… I just decided I’ll tell everything even if it may all be stupid..

Ill start from the beginning. I’m 23.

Growing up my parents always argued between the yelling and hitting I always somehow found myself with headphones under my bed. At 10 the called it quits my mom had had enough. The day my father left is still pretty upsetting because I remember just how much he cried. Finally thing were getting better. So I thought… About 8 months down […]

8/31/2014 4 comments

Update on me xoxo

by sbkstep43 8/31/2014

written by sbkstep43

Well I haven’t posted on here because I thought life was getting better but I saw I was living for others intead of myself and that I’m alone i feel all broken and weak so now I’m trying to find myself and what I want do because I have to decide which college I am going apply to by December and hopefully I survive my last year of pre med ( if I go back)

Recovery has been hard but I have been clean for almost two years , no drinking no cutting and actually eating so I’m somewhat proud of myself

In conclusion this […]

8/31/2014 0 comment

The trouble with loving a Ghost

by theforgottenfew 8/31/2014

written by theforgottenfew

I don’t know if my memories are real anymore because they blur with my dreams of you. I dream of how things should have been. As you torture my mind I cling tighter to those memories and dreams and I feel guilty for loving him now that you are gone. I feel guilty. I don’t feel like I deserve any happiness because you didn’t have any, I feel like I’m betraying you by building a life with him. But I have to. I’m stronger now since I lost you but I am weak, and stupid. I make bad choices and I hurt people. The ones […]

8/31/2014 1 comment

A Wolf In Sheep’s Clothing

by Zander0451 8/31/2014

written by Zander0451

That’s how I feel at the moment. If anybody could see who I truly was, I’d be finally, truly alone. Maybe that’s what it will take to get the courage to end everything. I’m stuck in this fucking hole, and when being myself leads to pain, what else have I got than to lie, or to give up the act and let everything fall apart?

Nobody will ever understand who I am and what I still think about doing… if it gives any perspective, I’ve had dreams of killing people and watching them choke on their own blood. That was when I was eight, and the […]

8/31/2014 1 comment

Tonight is it

by firegirl 8/31/2014

written by firegirl

I know what your thinking , I’m so young I have a life ahead of me. I don’t. My childhood was tossed between my divided parents who hurt each other by hurting me. My stepfather hit me , my mom told me she wished I had never been born. Then when I was 15 I moved in with my dad and his wife thinking that they wanted me me because they loved me , they just wanted to stop paying child support. I was alone I had a few friends , but then he came into my life, my boyfriend I had found a reason […]

8/31/2014 50 comments

Fuck it

by Black rose 8/31/2014

written by Black rose

Things seemed like they were going great, I’m so stupid. Why the fuck would I be optimistic when life just had to bite me in the ass. I have to go to Sydney, a massively overcrowded city to see my family, be tossed from one family to the other whilst old people hug me and say I have grown so much, see my best friend (and I use that term lightly) who has ignored me since I last went back to Sydney. I also get to see her older brother (my old crush from when I was little) and he loves to torment me saying […]

8/31/2014 2 comments

<3

by HereticBlood 8/31/2014

written by HereticBlood

I just wanted to say that with today being my first day on here I’m glad to know I’m not so alone in these feelings… I truly hope we can all find happiness!

8/31/2014 2 comments

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