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What am I meant to do?

by TishToshTash89 8/21/2014

written by TishToshTash89

So… I really don’t know where to start or what I’m even meant to say… My head is so full of racing thoughts that I can’t even work out what the thoughts are, they’re just a complete mess. I don’t want this anymore, I don’t want to live like this. I’ve tried so hard to beat it but I can’t fight anymore, I’m pretty sure fighting with your own mind is impossible anyway? I feel like there’s nothing left to do… I just desperately need to end this, I need to hurry up and do it. I just wish that this guilt wouldn’t stop me/ […]

8/21/2014 5 comments

is superhero real exist ? are superheroes real exist ? is superpower or magic real exist ? (like in those cool movies, games, comics, novels, books, anime / manga, etc) ? fuck this boring reality / real world / real life !!

by niki 8/21/2014

written by niki

is superhero real exist ?
are superheroes real exist ?
is superpower or magic real exist ? (like in those cool movies, games, comics, novels, books, anime / manga, etc) ?
you know, like in those ‘cool’ superhero movies : X-Men (X Men), Superman, Thor, Spiderman, Iron man, Captain America, or in those ‘cool’ fantasy / sci-fi (sci fi, science fiction) movies : Harry Potter, Narnia, Lord of the Rings, Avatar, TRON, or games like Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, etc etc ..

otherwise, fuck this boring reality / real world / real life !!

I hate reality, I hate life , I hate this very *LIMITED* & […]

8/21/2014 5 comments

i dont wanna stay

by DeadGirlNotFound 8/21/2014

written by DeadGirlNotFound

not anymore. im done with people, im just done.

8/21/2014 2 comments

The Rope

by KissOfDeath 8/21/2014

written by KissOfDeath

I don’t understand what you’re expecting of me,

your needs a bottomless pit.

Just because you don’t understand these feelings,

doesn’t make me a misfit.

I don’t wish you to understand,

this mind, it’s my own personal hell.

I’m scribbling down my note written in my own twisted fate,

hoping no one remembers to tell.

The rope, hung ever so delicately,

my last and final hope.

The knocking on my door loudens,

as my body begins to mope.

8/21/2014 5 comments

New Member: New Confession

by Avalanche 8/21/2014

written by Avalanche

You ignorant fool
Why do I love someone like you so much?
Why so long?
I just can’t be around you anymore
Because I know there’s someone you care about
More than I
You don’t love me anymore

And yet those moments when I can touch you
And hold you
You still hold my hand
In those moments
You’re mine again

And I suppose it’s sad
That the moments I feel the most loved by you
Are those times when you hit me around
And choke me
And call me names
That’s when I feel your affection most
Like maybe nothing has changed
When I know it […]

8/21/2014 0 comment

I don’t know

by hopeisontheway 8/20/2014

written by hopeisontheway

I honestly believe I live a privileged life. My parents have wealthy paying jobs, and I am able to go to a very nice high school. Nothing awful besides the deaths of my loved ones, and regular crappy teenage drama has happened in my life. I’m lucky. I’ve never been abused or assaulted, but I’m still sad. I was briefly bullied in middle school, but who hasn’t been in their own way? No matter how many incredible things happen in my life, I somehow fall back into a dark place. I have periods where I am so happy, and then I have times where I […]

8/20/2014 2 comments

Session 20: The noise they call life

by R3T31D 8/20/2014

written by R3T31D

The more you look back at it, the more it becomes clear. The chaos in the way everything around you moves, breathes, exists and ultimately vanishes into the void. I’m sort of glad I found this place, I wasn’t sure a thing like this would exist. I’ve been cutting so many ties lately, well, is still tough to linger as you start the preparations. I think it was a good idea to set a counter, so I’ll start with 20. I’ll post 20 things in here before I can manage to successfully be one with the nothingness and have the sweet embrace of everlasting silence.

I […]

8/20/2014 1 comment

my story

by midobarca 8/20/2014

written by midobarca

One day i was thinking to kill myself because i was feeling so bad.

I had a failure love story ,she is engaged now.One day was attending her sister’s wedding then i saw her dancing with her fiance .. i felt so sad 🙁 when i saw them.these days my father was facing problems in his work and his financial situation wasn’t good.I’m a student and i don’t have a job to help him.I felt like a loser in this life i lost my girl and i can’t help my father.I was feeling i’m useless so i had an idea to stop my suffering it was […]

8/20/2014 0 comment

Anyone else committing suicide to be escape the world

by cookietherookie 8/20/2014

written by cookietherookie

I’m afraid of life and all the terrible things that can happen to me. My two worst fears right now are (1)being raped and getting pregnant and (2)being paralyzed from the neck down. I don’t really get that much satisfaction from living anyway. I love the guarantee of peace that death brings. Honestly, i jaunt want to escape the world. I don’t see the point in going through the motions of life when I can just end my miserable existence as soon as possible.

I plan on ending my own life as soon as I get my hands on some sleeping pills and have the house […]

8/20/2014 5 comments

my early life 1

by heliumhood 8/20/2014

written by heliumhood

There is always one moment in childhood, when the door opens and lets the future in. – Graham Green.
I can remember a moment such as this occurring many times in my own life. Whether it was the kindness of strangers, or in some cases the complete opposite, the cruelness of my family or peers, I can remember so many milestones in my life where I have come to the point where enough is enough, and I have opened that door, seen the future, and attempted to embrace it.
I have always considered myself to be an all or nothing kind of person. Whether […]

8/20/2014 0 comment

Where’s Aeterna?

by Flanker 8/20/2014

written by Flanker

You read the title, where’s he gone? Does anybody know?

PS. Damn you Zoogle if you beat me to ‘it’.

8/20/2014 4 comments

The End is Nigh

by ladydragonfly78 8/20/2014

written by ladydragonfly78

I feel like I’m fighting for my life
And no one knows the depth of my despair
Too busy
Too uninterested
Too annoyed
Too…everything
I am a burden
A blight on a perfect life
Acknowledging me means they care
Caring means taking action
Neither are appealing to them
So it’s best to ignore it
Hope I’ll go away
It’s easier for them that way.

8/20/2014 1 comment

Is this it?

by ladydragonfly78 8/20/2014

written by ladydragonfly78

Would anyone notice
Would they even care
If I were to disappear
Would lives be better
Without the complications
Without the worry
Without the troubles I bring
My patience grows thin
Feelings becoming too hard
Just want it to stop
Peace is an illusion

8/20/2014 0 comment

Just Can’t Control..

by JustBreathing 8/20/2014

written by JustBreathing

Well, this depression is destroying my life. I can’t be happy anymore. I used to be so funny and loud, but now all that is just a history. I can’t study, eat, or go out. I’m locked in my room 3/4 of a day.
At night I fell asleep with tears in my eyes. I can’t control myself anymore. I feel like I’m death, and now I am just breathing..

8/20/2014 4 comments

Isolation can be dangerouse…

by Broken_Soul 8/20/2014

written by Broken_Soul

Isolation can be a dangerouse thing.It can change you.it can warp you.it will mold you into something….not human.I know this because I live it.in all the years that I’ve lived in isolation, I noticed one thing.it takes you down a path….it starts to change you little by little.and everytime you hit a vital point down this dark path…you become that much less of a human.For me at least, I know this much.you start to hate uncontrollably, you turn into something else.Im a perfect example, im not human anymore…I may look,act,and sound like one but the truth is im turning into something of the dark.I love […]

8/20/2014 2 comments

I can feel it coming on

by Engie 8/20/2014

written by Engie

Zopiclone is squirting into my brain. If they find a way to make the taste you find in your mouth at this point less horrible, it would be much appreciated.
My mind is starting to melt like candles, bright glittering, forming pools of liquid, yet a solid.
I was told these can make some people hallucinate if you try to resist the urge to sleep, but it didn’t work for me.
I didn’t mean to make this post so long, but typing the last few paragraphs has been incredibly hard and and glittering sparking birds fly through the sky, they feed off the weak. They […]

8/20/2014 4 comments

Smells Like 1980’s

by Wednesday 8/20/2014

written by Wednesday

For me, the 80’s had a scent. Kinda like the plastic flower section of an old Walmart, the Walmart’s that closed at night time (usually 10pm).
I’ve been watching the television program “The Golden Girls” a lot lately and I swear I can smell that plastic flower smell while I’m watching!!!
…..the yarn at the old Walmart’s had a smell to!!!!
Ohhh And “ALF”, man I loved ALF!!!
It’s a shame television can’t be good again!!!!

Erm, just one more thing. I have yet to figure out how Dark Horse Brewing (The new program on the History Channel that has nothing to do with […]

8/20/2014 2 comments

Thinking to Die

by Drdie 8/20/2014

written by Drdie

Thinking to die? Ask me and i will give you a simple solution to die .

8/20/2014 4 comments

Loss

by hogpotter 8/20/2014

written by hogpotter

Today I have a loss again. Someone who I thought I loved and loved me back. Someone who I sacrificed for once upon a time. Someone who I fought for once upon a time. Someone who once upon a time gave me a reason to hold on. Someone who once made me feel warm. Someone for whose sake I picked up the pieces even though I was broken and left dead once.

But I don’t need anyone who doesn’t appreciate me, right? They don’t deserve me. And I myself don’t deserve to keep struggling stupidly for someone who doesn’t appreciate my efforts.

From now onwards I will […]

8/20/2014 2 comments

Constant suicidal thoughts.

by chloe92 8/20/2014

written by chloe92

I tried to commit suicide for the third time on Friday 15th August 2014.. I took 36 quetiapine and it obviously didn’t work because I’m here to tell the tale. I was admitted into newbridge house mental health unit where i was sectioned and I discharged myself yesterday afternoon as soon as I was taken off the section.. I am currently under home treatment and they put up the dosage of my medication.. What I’m trying to say is that I never stop thinking about wanting to die.. Or should I say I’m told to die.. In my head I never hear ‘I’ […]

8/20/2014 8 comments

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