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What do you do when someone who you love leaves your life forever, and you never feel that same way with anyone ever again?
What do you do when you find out you love someone much too late?
You label me as high functioning. Apparently that is my anchor. The fact I can go to work and attend university. That I present a facade of normality that rivals that of any you have ever seen. I assume, in the way it is delivered, that it is meant to be a compliment. That it manifests in some super human strength to carry on living while I am already dead. The reality is much less glamorous. I spend my work days pretending to bother myself with their petty and inconsequential issues, generally a result of their own stupidity. Then I go to school, and expend […]
I guess I’m a walking irony, I have severe depression and social anxiety and you know what it was cause because I helped people and took on there problems but didn’t have anybody to talk to about my own. You know what’s even worse when I joined this site, I got locked out because I kept checking my page so much to see if anybody had bothered replying to me and I felt even more alone because of that, like even the website put there for people like me doesn’t want me. I’m that much of a screw oh that this site hates me too. […]
Most of you don’t know me, because I’ve usually been pretty quiet here. I’ve read a lot of posts over the years here, however. A precious few of them have even made me feel better, for a time. Thanks to this site and those people who have posted here for making me feel better, if only for a little while.
I’m thinking about bringing things to a close this weekend. I don’t want to back myself into a corner by making it a firm decision, but I think it might be time.
I let it slip at work today that I might not be coming into work […]
I tried to kill myself , I just looked at the gun and couldn’t do it, can I not even do that right ? I want to die so why can I not just do it !!!!!!
Well, that could almost be the story of my life.
But I’ve never been much of a drug addict.
I’ve taken a lot of crap from people and kept my mouth shut.
Now I want to take some shit to shut up the crap in my head (see what I did there?)
The stuff is called N, it comes in powdered form, it was not purchased for this purpose.
I get unbelievably lonely and bored as I don’t have a job or many mates to hang with.
I’m like the 60’s housewife popping pills to get through her day.
I need to man (woman?) up and do stuff with my life, but […]
It seems to me like suicide is my only way out. Everything started going down hill when I graduated from high school 3 months ago. I moved into my own apartment. My parents have never been supportive and were abusive. I was going to college to get my nursing degree. I was determined to work and go to school full time. Over the past month, I have lost everything except the roof over my head. I’m working myself to death rolling burritos at Taco Bell. I’ve lost most of my friends over the summer due to either me moving or them going to college. I […]
I rarely post here, but I guess it’s about time I do.
I don’t know how to describe my life, it’s not gonna come across as a fucked up one to you I bet. My family is supportive in every sense, yes. I could simply go to them in case I ever have a problem, however, I have rarely exercised that option. Passed out of school with grades that could let me have admission in pretty much any commerce college one would want here. Enough buddies to get wasted with at nights. If I need their help, I could call any of them even at 2 […]
It was the supreme power, matrix or whatever it is called wanted me to suffer. That’s why all those escape routes I could have were brutally eliminated. I am made to loose and suffer. Family is one big cause of this mess but there were other reasons too. No matter how much I try, the supreme power will always derail it. May my life end quickly. Hopefully today. On this auspicious occasion of Ganesh Puja, a religious Hindu festival I want to finish this mess called life.
I just got done watching The Last SOng, which is a total tear jerking… im in love with this movie and the message it sends. My mom is a cancer patient, she has a type of Leukemia. Ive wasted so much time with her, ive been rude, not understanding, really selfish, and at any moment her health could turn for the worth and she could be gone from my life. SHe is the one person who I could literally not live without, she is MY rock she is my everything and i dont think ive told her enough just how much i really love her. […]
I’m 24, sort of successful with my studies I guess, got a bachelors degree in math, admitted to a US university to study math with tuition paid by teaching assistantship, good future and career ahead of me, if I cared for boasting, I would say I have pretty high IQ and stuff… my parents are proud, my sister is proud, my thesis supervisor is proud, my friends are proud.
I don’t care.
we broke up with my now ex-gf almost a year ago after a wonderful seven years. I’m not over it, I doubt I’ll ever will. and while I miss her every night (or someone she […]
Hi.
So, uh, I’m new to this website.
Let me introduce myself– my nickname is Tori.
And I’d like to help others instead of helping myself.
that is all
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I think a nice way to try to prevent yourself from cutting is to draw a small flower and write the initial of your closest friend in the middle. When you feel like cutting, you look at your little flower (where ever you place it, not all people cut their wrists) and remind yourself that you, my dear, are perfect and as fragile as a flower, and you are a wonderful creation that DESERVES to exist. Also, please be strong. I […]
I’m probably going to kill myself tonight. I know I’ll be doing everyone I know a favor. Accutely I’m sure people will be sad and hurt but I’m certain over the long haul the world and everyone I’ve ever met will be better off without me.
I am new to this site and I was wondering what does your comment is awaiting moderation mean? Does it mean that the person who made the post that you commented on has to approve your comment?
This is probably going to be long. I just needed somewhere to write out what has happened these last few years so I can get my thoughts in order. I’m sorry.
I first noticed that I was apathetic with my emotions when I was 10. I didn’t think much of it then – only wondered for a little while as to why I was different to the rest of my classmates. It never really bothered me much, that is, until I got to high school. I suppose that I should mention that I’m an introvert. I don’t have very many close friends, and none that I […]
You think I’m fat? Cool. You think I’m a loner ? Fine by me, love the comment. You think I’m ugly? What wait….sorry I was looking for a fuck to give.
It amazes me that people could be so cruel and uncaring towards another person. They whisper and point, my mother always told me pointing was rude as was bullying. It hurts honestly to hear what I already know. I guess the words coming from someone else’s mouth hurts a lot worse. I look in an reflective surface and immediately I feel self conscious.
I hide it. Laugh it off and joke around. It’s not that hard, […]
So I have a boyfriend that I have just started going out with and I’ve known him for six years. We met in a residential program. I was there because I didn’t have a family and I was struggling with mental illness (which I still struggle with). Thankfully now I have a family. I got adopted at the age of sixteen. I am now nineteen. But this guy has liked me for a long time, and now he says he loves me but I’m not sure I even like him in the way I should like a boyfriend. I’ve always had difficulties in relationships. I […]
iam a 27 year old male…at the age of 21 my mother (who had divorced my father when i was 9) eloped with a man i had never met and left me with no where to go…i ended up roomating with a guy that was a drug addict and had a mental problem..i became greatly depressed as i was already suffering from social anxiety..and fell into heavy drinking..i would drink almost everyday…and i couldnt stop..this went on for years until i had a nervous break down at the age of 26 and i was put on to anti psychotic medications which i take every night…(alot […]