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My hands are shaking, I don’t know why
I’ve been here before
Yet for some reason I can’t help but cry
New doors, but all of them so far away
The old ones are slowly closing
And they call out strongly my name
What will become of me?
I cannot be sure
But I know there is no cure for what I am
So simple yet so complex
I am unable to see through the fog
And I’m afraid I’m destined to choose wrong
One bad door is all it will take
One wrong move, one mistake and I know
I’ll end up where I have been before
I reach […]
I keep dreaming of a different life
I keep hoping to be a better person
I keep praying for a brighter sun
Yet I keep holding this knife
A new start they say
Its your chance to be whatever you want
But every time I try to imagine, my mind taunts me
With these fantastic images of what may be one day
You’ll be a hero, a friend, a savior
You’ll change the world for the better
You’l finally forget her
You’ll finally change your behavior
These pictures in my head
I can see they are lies
And I know that even if I tried
Soon, I’d just […]
I’ve never had much luck with love. It seems that every time I fall for someone, they can’t reciprocate my feelings. I had a girlfriend I really loved when I was younger, from the age of 12 to 13, but I became a phase to her and so she left me. After that I had a few relationships in middleschool and college but I was just settling for people I knew I didn’t love simply because I didn’t want to be alone. I’ve had a few people proclaim their love for me and it always makes me feel terrible when I don’t feel that way […]
For a long time I’ve known I would die by suicide. I know now that this time has come. I’ve come to the end of my mortal life and I can’t live any more. The only unknown in this equation is when. I’ve been hospitalised an average of four times a year for the last four years for mood symptoms and psychosis. This feeling of expiring has been building for a couple of years now and it’s grown to the point of no return. I’m not sure that I can come back from this feeling. This feeling of complete emptiness, blockage, doom, the end. The […]
Thanks everyone for providing a place where people who suffer from such a myriad of issues can tell their stories. While I know none of you, it’s been nice for the last few weeks to have a site to go that I can read posts from people who ask a lot of the same questions I did. It’s allowed me to live semi-vicariously through your words in a world where I didn’t think I was so alone, so isolated. I read all the posts, commented where I felt I might have some insight, tried to be there for people who wanted someone to talk to. […]
get me thru this night
i am a single mother have been even tho i am married. the man has never been there, he was always off drinking while i was at home taking care of things. not saying i dont mind it….i love my son so much and i would do anyting for him. now my son is two, and im filing for divorce since my life with my husband became physically and mentially abusive…sorry if i have spelling errors…so i left him a year and a half ago. […]
Chuuming the sea,
Get it ready for me.
Throw in the fish,
Prepare the main dish.
Sharks all around,
They wait for that sound.
Me falling in,
Let the feeding begin.
Biting and ripping,
I feel my life slipping.
Soon nothing there,
Life was too much to bear.
Find my boat on the sea,
But they’ll never find me.
Far away from facebook , far away from family , far away from people , far away from reality .. I sit there and cry , with every tear drop I hate him andI hate myself even more .. perhaps because I once gave someone the complete power to destroy me with just words :s
and once he had the chance , he did it .. perhaps I’d cut myself later , or maybe I’ll just end it all … but would that change a thing ? no it won’t .. the pain would only follow me into the other life , and while I keep […]
Okay so, I’m here to tell people how horrible my life is and what it feels like to be living in hell.
*WARNING I MIGHT USE SWEAR WORDS
Now let us get to the main point, I’m a middle schooler. (I’m not telling any other info about me)
I’ll put the conclusions first.
I WANT TO DIE.
We got that out of the way now, let’s get to the main main point.
It probably started like 5 years ago? Maybe 3.
I don’t clearly remember what happend and what started it but it did. My mom has mental problems.
She thinks that she’s being “stalked” and her phone/computer being […]
It’s like some kind of sick movie. I was all ready to go through with my plan tomorrow and be done with it all, but today at work it was like he knew what I was thinking and was trying to save my life. He just kept making me laugh, but that’s easy considering how I am around him. We played around with each other like we were 5 years old, spinning chairs and all. After work he even drove me to my car cause it was parked farther away. I’ve had a crush on him for less than a month, and as crazy as it […]
So today I got called in for a hearing,,, met her lawyer for the first time. My lawyer was a crook, stole money and ran, left a mess for me, thus my day there today to straighten it out, or I would have been put in jail.
I walk in, find it is a “machine” of sorts, the room is full, strangely all women, I am the only guy there (except for the judge and bailiff).
Many before me, the judge basically ending all the other peoples marriages right before me.
Im not there yet, will fight my whore of a wife as long and hard as I […]
So everyone comes here to talk about ending it all….
Many of us are already dead.
You know what I mean.
So last Tuesday, almost a week ago now, I had a really bad anxiety attack. I couldn’t stand up. I couldn’t talk without sobbing. I couldn’t move without my body hurting. I had this feeling of impending doom. At one point I fell and just didn’t have the motivation to force myself to get up…. I thought this attack had been the first one in a long time, but when I was talking to my dad afterwards he said that this was one of many in the past few weeks and was considering getting me to a psychiatrist to figure out some medicine to help […]
Ive been thinking about telling my dad about my cutting. I wanna do it tonight but im scared. I dont know if I can.
World doesn’t care,
About this life you bear.
Dead or alive,
It’s the evil who thrive.
No room for the good,
No room for the best.
No heart that beats,
Inside my chest.
All love gone,
All hope lost.
The game of life,
Too high of a cost.
Time to pay dues,
My plan I will use.
Go out on the sea,
No more of me.
ive selfharmed for about a year now, with minimal people knowing the cuts are getting alot more deep and my arms are covered in scars ive also burned myself alot, i wear long jumpers most of the time. My parents are never at home, people think i am happy, but that’s one thing im not, my parents want me to do so well in school but i cant focus anymore, i cant concentrate at all, i get around 3/4 hours of sleep most nights because its just impossible for me to sleep and all i do is cry, im really nervous and anxious but i […]
I’ve just seen this site and registered as I know it’s somewhere no one who knows me would look.
I have battled with depression for a really long time now. I did have a couple of years of respite, but over the last 5 years, it’s becoming more difficult to manage.
Pretty much everyone I know knows I suffer from depression but just recently and up to this day I have kept to what degree from them. The last year or so has been especially difficult as I lost my father and my mother has become hostile towards me. She has always been protective and has frowned […]
I’m scared. Everything in my life is spiraling out of control.
I’m a failure. My family and friends are trying to support me, but all I can feel is their pity. And I hate it. I hate it so much. I just want to get away from everyone, and away from reality. I want to get drunk. Like so drunk that I don’t even know what’s happening, and just stay that way. And not have any worries.
I want to scream, and cry, and fucking hit something. I feel so angry and mad and.. I just don’t think I’m cut out for life. I paint a smile […]
Why do we continue the empty eternal struggle. Knowing there is nothing at the end.