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It sucks truly.

by alina_01 6/23/2014

written by alina_01

It hurts to love people that don’t love you back. To give everything you have to someone who wouldn’t hesitate to throw you away. But worst of all to be ignored because you are so insignificant to anyone in this world. But alone is how I’m used to ending up people always come and go and I’m tired of being the type of person that gives a shit. I want to not give a fuck I want to be the person that leaves that is horrible to people. Those are the people that have good friends that would jump to save them, they are the […]

6/23/2014 3 comments

Lethe

by Iriega 6/23/2014

written by Iriega

Hello again. It’s been a long time, three or four years I think, since I was last here. I’m grateful for the rest at least.

I’ve fallen back into old thoughts, old habits. It’s scary how easy it is. Maybe ‘comfortable’ is the wrong word but it’s so … I don’t know it’s like shrugging on that threadbare jacket at the back of the closet the one you never wear in public but the one that makes you feel right. And the pressure is held back for a time because I know how to work within these boundaries, these battle lines are familiar. It’s me against […]

6/23/2014 3 comments

Please help me.

by ellie19 6/23/2014

written by ellie19

I don’t know where to start. I’m a girl, I’m 20 and I think I’ve completely ruined my life.

I have cheated on my boyfriend of three years several times when drunk. I had sex with one, and the others were kisses only.

what can I do? Well, I’ve told him. He forgave me. But I did it once more than he knows about. I don’t know what to do, I don’t think there’s any way out. I love him so much, I truly do. I don’t know why I do it when I’m drunk.

You can say it, I’m a complete *****. I know.

But guys, I think […]

6/23/2014 3 comments

hello everyone

by Carter 6/23/2014

written by Carter

Hello, my name is Carter. I’ve just joined SP but I have been visiting it almost daily just reading for about 4 months now…Well I will be 19 in august I have been suicidal for roughly 2 years now, I wrote the following note may 13, 2014. At this point in time I haven’t chosen a date or how I’m going to do it. I am posting the note now because it best describes my emotions.

Life takes to much effort , but death is to much work. Without doing anything life is my choice but it makes for a sad existence, at least with death […]

6/23/2014 2 comments

I can’t sleep anymore

by Disenchanted7 6/23/2014

written by Disenchanted7

When I was on medication the side effects kept me awake and now that I’ve been drug-free for the past half year it’s pure torment that’s keeping me awake. All day I struggle to focus on anything then I crawl into bed and I ruminate over every single thing that’s happened and experience panic attacks over all the things I can’t change. I wonder why I stick around, I’m a useless piece of shit and should have ended my life a long time ago. I don’t know why I wait for some miracle. I have nothing of value.

6/23/2014 1 comment

Arise, Calypso

by Bisban 6/23/2014

written by Bisban

Seeking the land, Ouroboros clan.
Planet going down, planet going down.
I am that I am, the one that I seek, am I the only.
Do you understand, in the hands of faith, Salvation.

All that I can say, is to repeat myself.
Vowed to celestial, a beast of hell.
My asphyxiating spirit, it hurts so much.
Forsaken, they call them the ‘Morlocks’.

From underground, one day, they escaped to the island of Genosha. A promised haven for the outcasts of the world, but it was a trap. There, they were captured and held prisoners as enslaved fugitives unable to reach back out to the world. It […]

6/23/2014 0 comment

Into the deep blue depression sea (I wrote this a couple years ago)

by HarleyJean21 6/23/2014

written by HarleyJean21

These scars on my wrists
are from when I was pissed
uncontrollable anger
silent screams of unspoken words

I see stories
you see scars
lines of defeat
wounds of strength

Self mutilation feels better than you think
especially when your blood rises and your skin turns pink
constant competition between mind and body
both so weak you all you can do is fall

You say you “understand”
but nobody ever will
not even me.

-Harley

6/23/2014 1 comment

Cutting again .Broken Promise .Need Advice

by Vengeance Sevenfold 6/23/2014

written by Vengeance Sevenfold

So this girl and I went out and we both have a hard life alcohol, I smoke weed, I have abusive parents always bullied we broke up but remained friends we both cut she saved my life because when I met her I was planning suicide we both started cutting again after the break up and we promised each other we wouldn’t cut again and I told her if she cuts then I will to. Two weeks ago she broke the promise she cut and so later that day I to did to all in this day she told me she loves me she told […]

6/23/2014 1 comment

by Kallian 6/23/2014

written by Kallian

A month, wasted. Clean for a month, no cuts, no new scars. Now….wasted

6/23/2014 1 comment

Can I runaway from this life?

by AlmostGoneHome 6/22/2014

written by AlmostGoneHome

I have had depression for the last year and a half. But about 6 months ago I started wanting to end it all. I even broke up with my boyfriend so he wouldn’t feel the pain when I left. I want to kill myself, but at the same time I don’t. Please help me. Does anybody else feel the same

6/22/2014 7 comments

her

by Kallian 6/22/2014

written by Kallian

Living isn’t any easier for me. Waking up, isn’t either. The cutting doesn’t even numb anything anymore either. But now there’s this girl. I work with her, and I actually like her…I’ve never thought of a fellow female like that. Just confused

6/22/2014 2 comments

I can’t get rid of psychological pain

by SGR 6/22/2014

written by SGR

I’ve recently moved to a new place, in a new state, away from all of my precious people. I can no longer afford my depression medication, and that, combined with the loneliness, anxiety, and feelings of unworthiness are pushing me to a point I’ve never experienced before.

It hurt so intensely earlier today that I cut my thighs to bloody ribbons, but not even that helped ease my pain. I can’t go back home, because to do so would only add a financial burden onto my family’s already burdened shoulders.

I know I can’t kill myself yet, but I’m afraid. I’m thinking of it more and more, […]

6/22/2014 2 comments

So tired

by Duva718 6/22/2014

written by Duva718

Hi, i guess i just need to vent. I am so tired of fightin urges to destroy myself. Will be 4 8soon. Have been fighting this my whole life. I come from a family of major abuse, riddled with mental illnesss – schizophrenia, borderline personality, addiction. I have complex PTSD that never got ack.owledged – I just got meds which didn`t work and ruined my health. Had my brain shocked. I’m disabled now and completely isolated. My friends got tired of me being depressed a.d I got tired of them telling me, “Hang in there, it will get better.

Last week a neighbor left me a […]

6/22/2014 9 comments

Music

by thepainiskillingme8062 6/22/2014

written by thepainiskillingme8062

I am perfectly aware that this is a stupid post but who cares? Is it bad that I listen to music about suicide, rage, and good ol’ depression. Should I listen to “happy” music or should I continue my current listening habbits?

6/22/2014 7 comments

I just wanna go home

by lifeishorrible 6/22/2014

written by lifeishorrible

My first time cutting since March.I just feel like the weight of the world Is on my shoulders.I can’t think straight.I feel like I’m loosing my mind.I feel guilty.I got off way to easy.I just wanna go home.

6/22/2014 2 comments

Better post before its too late

by quaero 6/22/2014

written by quaero

I cannot choose anything in my life. Underground Man was right. No desire in me goes deeper than my desire for truth. i was wrong when i said i will choose freedom over truth if such a choice comes. i was recently given this choice. i stuck to truth. truth is unbiased. each decision in life is biased. you need a reason to do anything, and that reason has a beginning somewhere. no reason is “holy”. something has to begin somewhere. so how can i choose anything? on what basis i will make that choice? what is worthy enough to be given preference?

And what’s worse […]

6/22/2014 1 comment

How do I say bye

by nvrlivedaday 6/22/2014

written by nvrlivedaday

How do I say bye to the one and only person that I believe when she says I love you? In my suicide note I ask her to never cry for me I beg her so much in the note that this is the best thing for me. I just wanna know how I can say bye in person when I see her today. It’s gonna be the last time I ever see her and when me and her are done hanging out idk how I’m gonna hold my tears in when I’m hugging her goodbye knowing that she has no idea it’s gonna be […]

6/22/2014 6 comments

Ive Lost Everything

by nowhere2go 6/22/2014

written by nowhere2go

Its been a year now since my wife and I seperated. We have two beautiful children whom I adore very much. I moved here almost 10 years ago from another state after a string of failed relationships. I met my wife and married her almost eight years ago. It was great in the beginning, but first come children and then financial worries and somewhere along the way we began to grow apart. She left me for another man and when that didnt pan out she still felt she was better off without me. Now I have to work constantly to pay my bills and give […]

6/22/2014 5 comments

I just don’t know

by Thisismyname 6/22/2014

written by Thisismyname

So words are kind of failing me right now, i’m not really sure what i’m intending to type in this post but i guess we will see where it goes.

I’m just struggling to keep caring, to keep on going and to give a shit about what i do with myself any more. I’m stuck in this fucking void of self hate and i only hate myself more for being stuck there because i have absolutely no right to feel this way. I just don’t know what i’m supposed to be doing anymore, i’m just such a fuck up and i get everything wrong. I’m […]

6/22/2014 1 comment

comparision

by addicted 6/22/2014

written by addicted

one must compare. Human life is evolved in a way we must compare to survive in the system

lets do it

1. Happyness- Rich people, Rich kids, unconcious people

2. Sadness- homeless, handicapped, slavery jobs

3. Lifestyle- if you satisfied with your lifestyle what about Obama, bill gates

4. Money- Warren buffet, Larry Ellison

5. Achievements- mark zuckerberg

6. Glamour- Justin bieber

What driving us to live a life?

if you know you are not even comparable to any of above people

6/22/2014 3 comments

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