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The Truth, Finally

by timetogo76 6/18/2014

written by timetogo76

So I’ve suspected what was coming for a few weeks and had plenty of time to contemplate what would happen. My love finally told me last night she wasn’t coming home to me and that she needed a divorce. Unfortunately she’s halfway around the world “defending our country” and I’m left home keeping her house ready for her for the next couple months. Of course when she gets back I’ll need to leave my life behind. My family, house, sanity becomes hers. She’s not angry and has been talking to me about getting help but it doesn’t help. I’m currently in therapy and on meds […]

6/18/2014 12 comments

Question about exit bag

by herteklit 6/18/2014

written by herteklit

Poorly know English so i use translate.google. When I use plastic bag and I open the valve of the tank of helium, I’ll need to close the valve ?? Plastic bag will not burst (explode) ?? I live in a country where suicide is a mortal sin. Nothing about it I can learn.

6/18/2014 12 comments

planning for the future

by Mad-hatter 6/18/2014

written by Mad-hatter

I am a certified genius.

that’s a good thing and a bad thing.

I am a constant danger to myself. I know exactly how my body ‘ticks’. and I know how to make it stop ticking. I don’t need no knife or revolver I am able to use anything except the air filling my lungs. I have been planning my departure for almost 9 years now. escaping pain in it’s various forms.

heartbreak, impending failure, shame.

6/18/2014 98 comments

What You Leave Behind.

by spearson 6/18/2014

written by spearson

You know the time right after a really heavy rainstorm? When it’s quiet and peaceful and all of the ugliness is over – Honestly, I’ve always been a little afraid of heavy rainstorms, especially when there’s lightening and thunder. But I love when it’s over – I like to stand outside and smell the fresh air, and breathe a sigh of relief – not nervous anymore. I’m hoping that’s what we’ve finally come to – the end of the thunderstorm. I don’t want to be nervous anymore. It has been what I have dubbed “the winter of our discontent” – a seemingly endless series of […]

6/18/2014 2 comments

Not sure where to start

by djb428 6/17/2014

written by djb428

I’m 24 I’m a college undergrad and have been dealing with depression since I was young. Seems like I have to be strong for everyone but I don’t know how to let people be there for me. Every time I turn around the people I get close to leave me. Starting with my best friend being killed in front of me when I was younger and I blame myself for not being able to do anything like it should have been me instead. Not to add when I was young my baby sitter and her brother would take turns doing things to me I have […]

6/17/2014 3 comments

i’m hopeless and i don’t know

by rainbowsrcute 6/17/2014

written by rainbowsrcute

so, here is my story. back 2012, i moved school so i could be a more dedicated student and stuff, but what i actually did was study like a slave for 14 hours or more. i also had all my teachers saying “how are you going to enter a university? you need to study harder” and that’s what i did. i stopped doing everything i loved, i stopped watching movies, reading books that weren’t from school, texting or calling friends, or even hanging out with friends, i also stopped listening to music (yes somehow i managed to do that) and taking pictures of myself). my […]

6/17/2014 7 comments

Failure I am

by WorldsDisaster 6/17/2014

written by WorldsDisaster

I dont know what to do with myself. My mother told me i failed every class of my sophmore year, that im a failure, stupid, a waist of time, that im on the right way of being homeless. She tells me i cant go to summer school cause she doesnt want to waist her time and that i have to get a job to help myself from now on. I live right down from my school, about one hour walk. I can do it myself. I dont need her to help me. She said i dont get a second chance so i say”But thats the […]

6/17/2014 1 comment

Bye.

by anon18272 6/17/2014

written by anon18272

I’m sixteen and just recently got caught shoplifting. I’m so stupid. I have one of the highest gpas in my school, play a varsity sport, and successfully take the hardest APs at my school but I threw everything away with this one mistake. My parents blame themselves when it’s all my fault not theirs. They barely make enough to support our family yet I selfishly cost them more so that I can get an attorney in hopes that this won’t remain on my record. If this stays on my record I don’t have any chance of going anywhere in life and all that stress and […]

6/17/2014 4 comments

by broken818 6/17/2014

written by broken818

im so tired of thinking things will get better when its obvious there only getting worse i cant take life its just too much for me !!! i really dont know what to do with myself 🙁 !!!!

6/17/2014 4 comments

My head hurts.

by BumbleBee111 6/17/2014

written by BumbleBee111

Well… I’m 15. I’m scared to talk to people about my problems, so I thought, why not post what I think on here.

I’ve been going through depression for 3 years now. I’ve been having suicide thoughts. Thing is, I’ve been scared to talk to people. I know they are there to help, my mum, my nan and all. It’s hard to just speak up. I feel like I’m always in there way, so I hardly talk to them about my problems. I’ve told a few of my friends about my problems, but I feel like I’m being self centred all the time and I […]

6/17/2014 4 comments

Beaten Down

by david123 6/17/2014

written by david123

I’ve been depressed for years. Abused at an early age by a neaighbor.. That was the start. I got into trouble hung out with the assholes for no reason other them they were in pain too. I have a beautifal family who i love so much. It kills me to be the way i am. I went to prison i hurt people in fights and i paid dearly for it. I found out one day that i wasn’t like the sociopaths i was surrounded by and i had a massive nervous breakdown. I was. Sent to a psych ward and then i spent 18 months […]

6/17/2014 7 comments

21 years to this day.

by whitenorth 6/17/2014

written by whitenorth

I sit in my room every night weighing up the pro’s and con’s of ending my life? And most days the pro’s out weigh the con’s, but then I remember what I’d been told.
“suicide is a selfish act”.
Is that so? I can’t get my head around which is more selfish. Taking your own life, or being made to live it?

Yes before it crosses your mind I do cut myself, but I do it in random places not in lines so all it looks like is a few normal scars. I probably do it so keep some sort of sense of control so […]

6/17/2014 4 comments

5 years later

by elodin 6/17/2014

written by elodin

I just found today an old post of mine to this site, back in 2009. I have lost the login because I don’t have anymore the email account that I used. A long story. My nick was griks and here is the post:

http://suicideproject.org/2009/11/it-all-sucks/

It was me. I remember I just posted that and didn’t look anymore. I am shocked the post has 19 comments. From almost every year , and the last one is from January 2014, only 5 months ago! and I posted that on 2009.

I said I didn’t know why I shared that and now I still don’t know why I am writing […]

6/17/2014 0 comment

beardoom #156 **

by Bisban 6/17/2014

written by Bisban

I need to flee SoCal.
I am the black dragon.
To heal my wound scales.
The faith, where is the wagon.

Twelve, the number is zero.
Now, in the age of oblivion.
Yet to be, another hero.
Welcome, our faith of destruction.

Fate, have you ever heard of the undead.
I live, here I am. Messiah in the dark, read my palm.
The heart of the ultimate scale, inside of me.
A turbulent chaotic beast, the rage of hell.

Peace like a saint.
Faith is my sword. My rotting flesh, sworn to be vowed.
Like Cyclops, inborn half-man and half-weapon.
My mission. My battle. My war. Forever until […]

6/17/2014 7 comments

Why do people look for suicide partners?

by crazygirl22 6/17/2014

written by crazygirl22

This is just a question that I don’t think I could answer myself, but I never understood why people would look for a suicide partner? Is it because they are scared to do it by themselves? Is it so they could be less lonely? I don’t know having a partner with me would make me feel like I was responsible for someones death. I hope I don’t sound judgy because I am honestly not trying to be. I am just genuinely curious.

6/17/2014 10 comments

I’m always here.

by chubbypanda13 6/17/2014

written by chubbypanda13

I’m always here to listen to anyone who needs to vent/talk.

chubbypandahelps@gmail.com

6/17/2014 11 comments

need someone to talk!

by nakon 6/17/2014

written by nakon

6/17/2014 5 comments

Identity of a person over time

by ClairDeLune 6/17/2014

written by ClairDeLune

I think this is one of the most important unanswered philosophical questions at this time. Are you right now and you in a minute from now identical, apart from whatever experiences you may have made in this minute? (A) Is there something which identifies you as a distinct human being which is preserved over time?

You could for example imagine a duplication machine which copies every particle and all of it’s properties of an object and creates a new object with these particles which will be identical to the first object. (Let’s just assume this were scientifically possible (B) – which we don’t know of course […]

6/17/2014 13 comments

Success in gettting Phenobarbital

by vampe 6/17/2014

written by vampe

I’m just wondering if anyone has ever had any success in getting this , via mail or over the border etc. if this post isn’t allowed you can delete it , but I want to go out a foolproof way , I don’t want to end up a vegetable or a dribbling mess. If I can’t even kill myself properly , even that is more depressing than the life I have now.

6/17/2014 4 comments

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