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I’m lost, I’m a wreck

by Rodiak 3/21/2014

written by Rodiak

I don’t want anyone’s pity, that’s not why I post on this site, this is just the only place where I can put down anything

So basically, typical depressed male teenager story, plus a few details

Anyway, I just…I’m lost, I spend most of my time alone, even though I fear isolation, though I’m welcoming it more and more. I was crying during lunch today at school because somebody came up to me and wanted to know what was wrong, and how they could help. But they can’t. I know this is vague, I’ve never been one for details, I don’t talk to people much. Honestly the […]

3/21/2014 4 comments

Already Fell

by theforgottenfew 3/20/2014

written by theforgottenfew

I’m not much of a writer
Not really a poet
But I can’t seem to shake this
I know that you know it
I see your face
In every mistake
I hear your voice
With every choice
And I’m tryin my best
I can’t seem to show it
I can’t seem to rest
I know that you know it

Give up let it go
Run away and don’t show it
I found my salvation
She’s your reincarnation
I found my damnation
She’s your resurrection
Run away and don’t show it
Give up let it go

She lifts me to heaven
As you drag me to hell
She […]

3/20/2014 1 comment

It didn’t end….

by EvilOni22 3/20/2014

written by EvilOni22

I am still here…I am trying…trying to live.

3/20/2014 8 comments

by msquared 3/20/2014

written by msquared

I’m completely heartbroken, overwhelmed, and miserable.

3/20/2014 2 comments

When Dreamers Die

by kissnm10 3/20/2014

written by kissnm10

It was so quiet when the music stopped
So empty when the bottom dropped
So somber when the dreamers lay
Down to die, their heartstrings frayed
The waking hours became too real
No dreams to conjure up their zeal
And then the night, too, ceased to give
A single dream to help them live
It withered them like winter does
But coated them with soot and rust
It caked their lungs in deathly plaque
And left their souls a ghastly black
Oh how they would have sacrificed
To find and bring their dreams to life
A hope on which their eyes to fix
Like miracles […]

3/20/2014 1 comment

by Kallian 3/20/2014

written by Kallian

I cut. Deep. I regret this.

3/20/2014 2 comments

New favorite song

by suicidal_chick 3/20/2014

written by suicidal_chick

Starring at my food but I can not eat it,
Laying in my bed but I am not sleeping,
Crying in my room and I keep it top secret,
Because people tell me they care but they do not mean it.
I’m cut open, even thought I am not bleeding.
My heart’s broken, so Imma make it stop beating.
Someone runs in the room and screams,
“He’s not breathing!”

I’m rushed to the hospital to have a Doc treat it,
But he cannot beat it, there`s no time at all,
Cause I just popped some pills with some Tylenol,
And 3 bottles of antidepressants, and Zam […]

3/20/2014 10 comments

I’m back…

by lixie 3/20/2014

written by lixie

To tell you all that everything is gonna be alright.

Ive been so far down. Came to this site once. Got a little back up again after talking to likeminded people. Fell right back down. Ive cut, I loaded my ex-boyfriends gun and held it to my head. Ive cried for days. Stopped eating for days. I have scars up my arm.

But today I’m free. And you will be to if you just hold on. I know that each and everyone of you in here are here because you have something holding you in this life. It is some reason you have deep inside that is […]

3/20/2014 8 comments

How do I fix my unpleasantness?

by que sera 3/20/2014

written by que sera

So for a while now I’ve noticed that I have an “unpleasant” energy. Some people would assume I’m weird or awkward, I feel like I repel people from me. When I was younger I use to believe it was people being intimidated by me.

I’ve been told that I’m an open book. No matter how hard I try to suppress these emotions and try to fake it I show no progress. I work in solitude, where I see people on a daily basis. A seedy looking man walked in and reeked of cologne. He had his top button loose and a greasy looking Elvis curl. I […]

3/20/2014 29 comments

Appreciation

by ClairDeLune 3/20/2014

written by ClairDeLune

is so important. You have to appreciate what you have and be thankful. And being/ feeling appreciated makes a life worth living. Usually it is the family and very close friends who appreciate you and who show you that need you and love you and will always be there for you.

In my case – since I wouldnt put any of my friends in this category – it has always been family that made my life somehow worth living. I would even call them the only reason why I am still alive. During the last few weeks I started to realize something though, and I have […]

3/20/2014 7 comments

There is no point anymore

by joey123 3/20/2014

written by joey123

All i really want to do now is go to sleep forever. IV always been useless and ugly. I am never going to get anywhere in life so what is the point in living. The only reason i am still alive is because my death would upset a few people to much. Iv let my mum down who brought me up all by herself and wasted her life to try and give me the best she could. People tell me im a lovely person but that doesn’t matter. Just want to be normal and not ugly and to have a tiny bit of success in […]

3/20/2014 17 comments

does anyone care?

by paingoaway 3/20/2014

written by paingoaway

im crazy and sad. and alone. and scared. what do i do?

3/20/2014 24 comments

iv givin up..

by Honey_bee00 3/20/2014

written by Honey_bee00

i tired of trying to make things work when you dont even try anymore.
ill iv done is cry
go to sleep sad
and wake up the same way
iv givin up
im tired
youv only left me with a broken heart and i dont see why im with you still.

3/20/2014 17 comments

SHE FOUND MY STUFF!!

by rocketman1000 3/20/2014

written by rocketman1000

Well I was busy and she was not, so she poked around found the key! Opened my hiding place, found two tanks of helium, I was smart enough not to keep all the components together, I scattered them in separate places, the regulator, tubing, and so on, she asked what I had those tanks for! I said for blowing up balloons, she said where are the balloons? I said I havenâ€™t gotten them yet, I said it was a surprise! I was throwing a party! She said what party? I said well it wouldnâ€™t be a surprise if I told you! Ha ha! ïŠ Little […]

3/20/2014 62 comments

Where do I turn when no one will listen?

by Dasboot 3/20/2014

written by Dasboot

Where do I turn when no one will listen?

The suicide hotline is of no use to me.

If I attempt to call them, I’ll just be referred to a mental health facility.

My family?

They don’t understand. I tried to talk about my problems stemming from my depression. Their responses: Why do you feel that way? Why can’t you get over it?

My girlfriend I could never talk to about this.

Even though I care about her deeply, Â she doesn’t understand. I talk to her about this, she makes jokes about suicide and cutting.

So I ask,

Where do I turn when no one will listen?

3/20/2014 11 comments

Warm belt around my neck.

by crvalid2 3/20/2014

written by crvalid2

I spend all day with belt tied around my neck. Desensitizing myself. Tightening just enough to feel rush of blood to the head. Preparing myself to make my death comfortable.

3/20/2014 10 comments

by ProfessingEmotions 3/20/2014

written by ProfessingEmotions

“Maybe if you go to bed youâ€™ll feel better in the morning” is literally just the human version of “Have you tried turning it off and back on again?”

just came across this. wanted to know your thoughts on it because a lot of people get this kind of response.

3/20/2014 16 comments

by Kallian 3/20/2014

written by Kallian

well, still here.

3/20/2014 4 comments

Sell Me Pretty

by AscahIsBroken 3/20/2014

written by AscahIsBroken

Is this what you wanted me to do, to hurt myself again?
I think that it’s worth it
I’m not sure if I should be afraid, right now
All I know is this life is a lie you made

I will not let me go
I will stay here alone
You are what gave me hope
Now I have no home
But I’m not leaving

Aren’t you the one that pushed me over, left with all these holes?
I think you’re perfect
I can’t decide who was right or wrong, but I’m sure
With all these bruises blame, it must’ve been you

Hurt me harm me
I’m […]

3/20/2014 1 comment

My depression story

by ProfessingEmotions 3/20/2014

written by ProfessingEmotions

TheÂ Â weird curiosity of what would happen if I kept on living or simply shoot myself struggled within me until today.

I have been an observer for quite some time and I would like to share how depression influenced me into the right path.

At the age of 14 depression began showing signs.
I started smoking weed, having sex, drinking and cutting myself. I did what I thought would be best to numb an utterly terrifying feeling of hopelessness and emptiness. I was a lost introvert desperately trying to keep my head up but dove in instead.

High school was a living hell. I would feel miserable as if […]

3/20/2014 5 comments

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