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Does what I will describe ever happened or is happening to you?
At first of my depression, I was of course sad, hopeless, and in great pain. But as the years go, I keep those feel but it’s becoming more and more twisted. I feel this anger growing and I feel like in those moments I really am dangerous. I’m not a bad person but I can’t stand any more of the injustices, of people like us living one foot in the grave while other people have it all easy and painless. Laughing doesn’t feel sincere, it’s always with a part of bitterness. I can’t feel […]
I’m 14 and I’ve already had 4 suicide attempts. Is that bad?
Death is a thought that every once in a while draws me closer and closer. The loneliness on nights where sleep can’t come any faster and I hear that monster talking me into death. No one will miss this pathetic little man. No one loves me, no one acknowledges me, I tend to be ignored by most. I guess I should take my life but what stops me is that life is not mine to take even my own. And so I guess I will suffer until the day comes maybe I deserve pain, some of us do. If I fail maybe tomorrow I may […]
As bad as I want to die I haven’t given in yet. I’m trying really hard to make it through the next 8 weeks until my trip, it’s the only thing might save me. I want to wait until after it to make my final decision. I’m trying and fighting, even though it’s causing me unbearable pain in the process.
I might not get through the 8 weeks though, I’m barely getting through the days. I quit my job so I just sleep my days away and drink at night, but thankfully I got my Ambien prescription filled today so maybe I can sleep at night. […]
This is a good post http://ithurtssomuch.tumblr.com/selfharm
Tell me, did it hurt even a little, when you looked into my eyes and saw all the broken pieces?
Hey guys, I’ve been kind of a lurker here for sometime now. I just joined because I really wanted to speak to a lot of like minded people in terms of suicide. Suicide is something that has been on my mind for a long time now, but it has recently become a stronger fixation since the beginning of this year. Â A couple of weeks ago I started feeling like I could feel that the end was near for me and that I would probably die because of my fixation on suicide. Â Even now, it feels like I’m at the last step, but the problem is […]
So one of my friends just told me he was cutting and contemplating suicide.(Join the club, right.) and basically wants me to be there for him to help him get better. How am I supposed to help him get better when I can’t help myself? He really doesn’t have anyone else to talk to. Suggestions? Comments?
My Near Suicide Attempt from the book I wrote about it, and my recovery
written by thementallyillmentor
Recently, I spoke to a Mom that told me a very sad statistic about her son’s high school.
She said that 3 teenage boys had taken their own lives in 3 years!
I felt deep sorrow about this situation not only because of the loss of 3 precious lives, but also because I, too, have struggled with depression.
And, I, too have been tempted strongly to attempt suicide.
In this excerpt from the introduction of my book:Â The “Mentally ill” Mentor: Practical Principles for Achieving and Maintaining Balance in Your Life, I explain my heart-wrenching experience in greater detail.
Here it is, word for word from my […]
Hey guys. well, where to start. I’ve always had suicidal thoughts. when I was 17 my first serious girlfriend left me for her ex. I went through a long stage of depression. for at least 6 months. I wrote a long suicide note to my family one night when I was certain I was going to kill myself. I was in bed, left the note laying on the floor. I had a plastic bag put it over my head waited a couple of minutes…I could slowly feel myself drifting away. but as I was about to fall into the ‘no going back zone’ I had second thoughts […]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EQTRX23EMNk
I’ll start with my earliest memory of running around my living room while people where drinking and taking drugs the last thing I remember is being put back to bed by a junkie. My mum always used to beat me from time to time. When I was around 7 she meet a guy called Stephen. She would give him money when there was no food in the house and I had nothing to eat I would go to my grans who lived around the corner from me to get some of her biscuits to try and kill the hunger as I would go days without […]
It took me awhile to realize that I only ever come on this site when ever I’m down. I wish I could come here just ONCE and say “hey am doing well ” and I though that I was.. I think I’ve been doing good. I mean I haven’t been cutting my self. But am sad all the time. A while back I was sitting in my room cutting my self in the dark. And my mom walked in. So I took the razor and shoved it under my pillow and all she did was. Sat on the bed. Pulled me into her […]
I’m am currently fighting with my one of my best friends over the fact I’m suicidal. I was stupid enough to send a drunken message to my ex, who sent this message to my friend who is now fighting with me because he thinks of it as weak. JEEJ ME , THIS WILL SURELY MAKE ME LOVE LIFE ALL OVER AGAIN,…. NOT.
who is to say who gets to be the judge in life? Â who gets to say who has more power? who gets to say that other people are wrong? everyone has the right. there is no one person who is above everyone else. you may be judging people, but people can still judge you. you are no different than the people around you. everyone has an opinion. but nobody has the right to condemn others. because if you do, then they have the right to condemn you.
Miss me but let me go
When I came to the end of the road and the sun has set for me.
I want no rites in a gloom filled room, Why cry for a soul set free. Miss me a little–but not too long, And not with your head bowed low.
Remember the love that we once shared, Miss me— but let me go.
For this is a journey that we all must take, and each must go alone.
It’s all a part of the Master’s plan, A step on the road to home. When you are lonely and sick of heart, Go to […]
I have a mean to end it all.
Painlessly.
Yet, I can’t do it.
Indeed, those before me.
Were cowards, not at all.
I am not mercurial.
But I know, somehow.
I’m too tired to follow through.
This existence seriatim.
I look skyward,
and see nothing.
“Show yourself, You coward”.
Indeed, I was shouting
in the wrong direction.
I have a choice,
between lost eyesight,
or continuing a decadent existence.
I wish I could’ve somehow,
fight against our fall.
If only they know,
how much I love them.
I think I can safely say we’ve all heard this one before. “Don’t kill yourself, it’s selfish… Think about all the people around you? How they would feel ”
Who here actually feels like suicide is a selfish act?
I personally say this to people who told me this. Maybe suicide is selfish but you can’t forget humans are selfcentered beings.
I was hospitalized again this past week. A friend was worried about me ad had the police called on me and now I’m home and back on the medications.
Do I still want to cut?
Of fucking course I do.
I left my boyfriend of four years and so stupidly ran into another without even really thinking. All I knew is that I didn’t want to kill myself just yet and if I have someone here, I might not. But now it’s getting to the point where I don’t even know if I can handle a relationship right now. I am very committed in my […]