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I need a reason to stay..

by UndeadArmy
written by UndeadArmy

Right now i feel like i have no reason to be here.. My friends are all asleep and i really need some support.. I dont know what keeps setting my off. Every time it happens im alone and am just thinking. i have my razor out i plan on it tonight.. not killing myself, but having some relief. i deserve that at least.. I need someone here with me. who i can cry to , who understand me, who wont say that my scars are ugly or that i shouldn’t have done that, some one who truly understands it and would call them beautiful and […]

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Hometown

by kyuketsuki
written by kyuketsuki

I’m back in my hometown for the summer. It’s between the semesters for college, and I’ve been suffering the entire time. Is it odd that the moment I stop on the pavement I got a stomach ache? I couldn’t get a job and I’ve chosen to drop one summer class. Just from those two things, my parents think it’s reason enough to beat me. To scream at me. To call me ‘retarded’. They didn’t even pay for my classes. My grandmother left me money for college; from things like this… but they think that because I spent it on a class that I dropped, I’m […]

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How long Muust this Go on

by alwaysacutter
written by alwaysacutter

Been cutting since I was 15 (7 1/2 years). Never thought I would do it, once I started, never thought I would stop. I finally stopped. Went over a year without cutting, then relapsed, then stayed “clean” then relapsed then stayed “clean” then relapse and so on and so on. I will always be an addict to this stupid thing that controls me. I crave the feel of it, the release it gives me. I know I should have control over it, especially by now, but I cant help but want to give into it. I am still and always will be a depressed person, […]

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Trying

by Jayykeith3312
written by Jayykeith3312

I’m not sure why I’m still here. My attempts at suicide are failures and it’s starting to make me think about more effective attempts. But I want to stay. I want to see my future. I just want out of the present. I feel numb, tired, and weak. I go through the days avoiding people and just trying to find ways to make each day go by. I feel broke down inside. I’m  still in high school and living with my parents. I’m gay but don’t know how to tell them. I had a gay friend over once, my dad told me not to talk […]

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I don’t care about anything

by progmessiah8
written by progmessiah8

What’s the point? I hate everything. I hate being a teen, and I don’t want to go through whatever bullshit comes my way in life. It’s just going to be full of people who have no sympathy for you and just laugh at your misfortunes. I frustrate people to the point to where they want to just disappear when they listen to my problems. No one can get anywhere with me. I was even called “typically close-minded” today. I always thought I was better than that. I always think most of the poem “Richard Cory” perfectly describes me:

Whenever Richard Cory went down town,

We people on […]

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scars – how to cope?

by wallflower123
written by wallflower123

New to this, but have experiences I would like to share and would also like any advice from others.

I have large scars on my leg from top of my thigh to the knee, some very long and wide. On my left arm I have scars on both sides of my arm including my wrist. I have been in this situation for six years. I use to live in small towns where scars were more acceptable so I showed off my arm with ease and didn’t have any issues. I moved to a city a few years ago and have found peoples reactions more of an […]

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Here we go again >.<

by lifekilledthelifeinme
written by lifekilledthelifeinme

I don’t know what to do. I’m writing this and it’s all so sketchy. There are days I’m not paranoid and then there are days where I question if I should trust the world and my loved ones. I’m just a fucked up statement of life. I hate life and everything it consists of. I don’t wanna see the sun shining and the clouds passing by. I don’t wanna see the grass and the food we eat that in the majority is micro-processed. I feel so burdened with my thoughts, for they consume me entirely. I am not me anymore, I am a […]

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ennui

by hankbaker64
written by hankbaker64

Every time I see a kid walking down the road with his mother or father or a grandparent, I get this weird pang in my stomach. I feel sad, like dead puppies in the ditch sad. I can just tell myself that its just some depression thing and move on but it just keeps coming back. Every time I pass a poor family sitting outside around a fire waiting for dinner, waiting for the night to end, every time I see a housewife standing on the porch looking and waiting for ways to kill time, every time I think of a paper pusher in an […]

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Nothing Last Forever!! ♥

by km112525
written by km112525

Sooo.. Recently I have been having suicidal thoughts for several reasons. Most of them I’m sure no-one will ever understand, because we all view the world differently, what may mean the world to someone may mean absolutely nothing to another person, so with that in mind my suicide thoughts have done nothing for me but make me feel even worse about myself, but I am now realizing that life is hard on everyone, some just handle it better than others. now, my family means the world to me and 90percent of the time when I am soooo close to killing myself.. I think about how selfish […]

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funeral planning

by mizkaypuck
written by mizkaypuck

Does anyone know a good website that can help me plan my funeral so my family wont be left with so much burden.  Please do not respond with stupid stuff that is not helpful. this is a serious matter and getting dumb replies just verifies my need to be done with the stupid ass people here on earth.

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“And Then…There Was Love” <3

by waste2304
written by waste2304

Though you are my friend
My love for you will never end
Remembering that night
And god it felt so right

Your body pressed against mine
And boy did the moonlight shine
As I closed my eyes
And took slow breathes
You leaned down and kissed my neck
Not to fast
We made it last

There was no rush
There was just us
Every kiss I reminisce
The way your lips
Rubbed against my lips

There was love
I felt this
We took it slow
Not one moment did we miss
As you lay there on my chest
At that moment I felt so blessed

You […]

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“Here I Am, Damn Strong I Stand”

by waste2304
written by waste2304

Here I am
Here to stay
Fucking happy night and day
Your words mean nothing
Effecting me in no way
Because I am me
I am here to stay

Bully me yeah…that’s okay
I don’t listen anyway
You are big…
I’m not afraid
You Bully me
Call me gay
Hell yeah I’m gay
Gleeful everyday

You pick on me…if I do say
you’ll get it back soon one day
Yeah I’m a nerd
that’s all I get
that’s considered a compliment
I’m not like you an idiot
But do your worse
I am up for it

In conclusion
And in the end
Here I am
And dammit […]

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“The wonderful Place…We are forced to call home”

by waste2304
written by waste2304

Hey
I know you feel alone
In this place we are forced for years on years to call home
When I hit earth I entered hells dome
It is a scary place we all have to Roam
So I decided to write you poem
About this… the wonderful place we call home

A place where it rains
Where there’s nothing to gain
So we try an maintain
A bad life we restrain
We work hard all day
To get to that place
Where we wither away
Then suffer in pain

We get to that point
Where we wanna give up
Because during the day

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I hate my life so much

by NWiegert2013
written by NWiegert2013

Lately it seems like everything is falling apart. I used to be so into church. God was everything to me. I finally got married to the woman of my dreams. I had a crush on her since i was just a boy. Everything seemed to be going great. We were married on July 28th 2012. Almost a year now. I had a great job, was a member of a wonderful church, and things seemed like they couldn’t get any better. Then i lost my job last December just before Christmas! Everything started to go down hill from there. Things seemed like they were going to […]

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Emtpy..

by Zinthias
written by Zinthias

It’s not like anyone really cared for me. I promised him I wouldn’t cut. I promised him I wouldn’t cry. I promised her I’d stay strong. As everything falls apart I realise that I can’t see any more colour. I can’t notice what they’re trying to tell me. So what if I’m a paranoid schizophrenic? Does it matter? Does it matter if I have social anxiety? Does it matter if I’m different? According to them, yes. It means a world of a difference. Trying to breathe and see through tear filled eyes. I know I feel guilty for cutting. For just breaking that promise. What […]

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I Feel useless

by sleeplessinSTL
written by sleeplessinSTL

I woke up this morning and felt numb. When I look in the mirror I see a glassy-eyed freak. I don’t get up in the morning and feel good. I just bury my head deeper into the pillows. I don’t have a purpose anymore. I feel so useless.They say that everyone has a purpose, but I don’t. I don’t have motivation, and the things I used to have passion for don’t matter anymore.

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