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whats the point..?

by AFRAIDandlost
written by AFRAIDandlost

Depression and suicidal thinking seems to have taken over my life for the past year…could run on about my sad life… the traumatic sexual assaults as a child…the counseling… but why? Does anyone really care..? well the problem is someone does…my best friend has been dealt a shittier hand in life than me…its what has brought us so close…so there in lies the problem…as much as i want death how can i go through with it knowing how much it will hurt my friend..?

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200 Days – The beginning.

by DutchTimes.
written by DutchTimes.

My journey has started today. 200 days until the end. And I wondered… We spend a lot of time trying to organise the world. We build clocks and calendars and even try to predict the weather. But what part of our life is truly under our control?

I also sat down today and I think this is going to be the opening of my book.

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“In a time where I can’t really see anything but the bottom of a pill bottle. I have come to realize that dreams are […]

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If only there was another way.

by xxwasteoflifexx
written by xxwasteoflifexx

I don’t think anyone knows the battle you have with your own mind. Day in and day out. Then the people who set you off yell at you and blame you as if it not their fault. Frankly if you set anyone off and blame them they will get mad. So why blame it on the person who is already upset with daily living.
Frankly one day i will have enough courage to kill myself. The thought of leaving the world and the pain and suffering actually makes me more excited for death to come. To think that i will not be in pain […]

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I Just don’t care anymore

by lifeaintfair
written by lifeaintfair

Day 1
I was born to this unforgiving world, and thinking now i wished that i never existed
8 years of my life that i suffered with my Family without knowing the reason….
I was born in a family of a Father working on another country that I’ve never seen until recently, a Mother who tends to destroy me physically,mentally and spiritually, beating me and locking me up for a small mistake and makes my body bleed for a case like for a single piece […]

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Life is not precious and it’s not a Gift.

by Kmoney2
written by Kmoney2

Every day I wake up thinking that this day will better than the last, but it doesn’t work that way. Every day is the same crap. Hoping that someone will hire me, but it doesn’t work like that in today’s world. You have to wait and wait and wait hoping for someone to hire when you know they won’t. I have always wondered why interviewers want a hand shake after an interview. They always say they will give a call when they really don’t. To me right there, that is backstabbing. They always act so happy to see you, but never call if you have […]

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the end?

by weirdalone
written by weirdalone

I want to die at my 15th birthday….it will be soon in 15 august,I decided it because I can’t live anymore….pain seems endless.like I don’t deserve happiness…Like I live only for pain…,maybe my heart is beating but I’m already dead inside..everything seems like hell!I don’t wanna feel this ….I just want to sleep FOREVER!

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Constant torture of my mind

by gops
written by gops

I cannot go five minutes without thinking about commiting suicide.  I dont know what to do.  Have started on medications and counselling, but it only seems to be getting worse.   I am so lonely where i live, but my parents are dependent on me and hence cannot die.

I am not in a prison, yet i feel like i am solitary confinement most of the time.  I go to office every week day, gym almost every day.  Yet, when I return to my lonely house, I feel like i am getting locked up in a prison.

I just need someone to talk to without them judging […]

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Morning Ritual

by lone_wolf592
written by lone_wolf592

As I sat there awakening from my dream-like state of fog that seems to be ever surrounding, whether it be sleep or the lack thereof, I realized that my morning ritual was left undone. So, I loaded bullet into the cylinder and give it a spin. Pulling back the hammer, I thought about the round I was using. It couldn’t be your standard run of the mill .44 mag round, for it could pass right through leaving me a vegetable. Potato or squash? Neither, because I was using a frag round, as to insure the job got done right. You see, the frag round breaks […]

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Might as Well Live

by seppuku
written by seppuku

Well I’m back after a year away. Not depressed, yet still badly wanting to depart this life. I contacted Dignitas at one point but was turned away as not terminal or elderly with chronic illness, and of course then there’s my extensive psychiatric history which apparently renders me incompetent of making this life/death decision. Not for me assisted suicide surrounded by loved ones in a nice room in Switzerland. Dream on, Louise50!

Been reading the Peaceful Pill handbook. That was a waste of money, as sources for the so called peaceful pill change all the time, it’s illegal in my country and phenomenally hard to get […]

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Desperate for help

by elena
written by elena

Hi i don’t know how to start.I just have  a few questions  and i hope to get some answers.First i want to say that my English is bad ,so i hope to understand me well  and  be able to help me somehow.Ok.I want to die i guess everyone here want that.I read peaceful pill book and i choose the exit bag and pills method.I have 50 pills phenobarbital-100mg  and i wonder is it a good medicament  for this method?It is for epilepsy and it’s from barbiturate class.I wonder can i  fall asleep from these pills and don’t wake up and should drink all of them?I […]

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My story at least a little piece

by zo needs help
written by zo needs help

So when i was about 5 i lost my parents, well at the time none of my family wanted me so i went to foster care. When i was about 8 years old i was adopted by great parents, or at least i thought. Growing up it was alright i got picked on alot though because ive always had short hair my whole life ive had it. Well it wasnt until recently that i had started coming out with being a lesbian. Everyone hated me at my school. I only had one friend which was my sister Amber. Im 13 and shes 14. I became […]

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A potentially fatal mistake…

by RogueShadow1281
written by RogueShadow1281

Hi, some of you may remember me, some may not, I am Rogue, the one who wanted so badly to join the army. well I had gone through the Military Entrance Processing Station. I did my oath and signed a bunch of papers pledging my loyalty. Little did I know that, until this night at around 9 pm, my mom informed me that there is little to no chance of quitting the army. After a quick 10 seconds of tears as I am having trouble letting them flow, and a few breaths of hyper-ventillation, I realize how fucked I really am. Now there are quite […]

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feeling sucidal

by Stacie
written by Stacie

so i know i have fucked up yet agin i keep fucking up its my fucking gosh darn emotions i have such extreme anxitey i dont feel safe i dont feel okay i feel lways on edge i defintley feel tense i mean i dont just know anymore i feel like such a loser i wish things were the way they use to be i dont liek how the future is looking i dont like how things will end up and i fucking knew it i fucking knew that life was going to be horrible and it keeps getting shitty and i guess it could […]

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If you are dieing anyway why is suicide a bad idea

by burnside1
written by burnside1

I have been married for 25 years to the love of my life.Three months ago I was diagnosed with non small cancer of the lung and mets to the brain. Inoperable. One week later i found out my wife has been having an affair for three years. when I confronted her about it she told me she did not love me and has not most of our marriage. She stayed because I was a great provider and safe choice. she told me she has had six affairs in all. I am a broken man. She will not even take me to my chemo treatments. I […]

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here we go

by Th3darkt0w3r
written by Th3darkt0w3r

To night is the night I will be taking enough insulin and metforman to never wake up. i haven’t felt this much at peace in years. no more crap job, no more pain from my back , no more pain at all just peace forever. just thinking about it makes me smile. a real smile not one i just put on for the world one for myself and its been a long time.

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7.15.13 home alone

by sunflower
written by sunflower

it scares me to be home alone. i like it. i like the freedom but i hate being by myself im scared what im going to do. thats why i always go out so im not left alone with my thoughts. .. i had a really weird urge to cut that randomly happened with one of my friends over. i couldnt wait for her to leave so i just locked myself in my bathroom with my razor and went at my wrist. fucking shit the cuts just went away so now i have to hide them from people.

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I’m a liar because I wont tell you everything.

by nikole zidane
written by nikole zidane

I’m a liar because I wont tell you everything. I’m stupid because sometimes im wrong. I’m ugly because my face isn’t perfect. I’m a push over because I like making people happy. I’m a loser because I’m a not friend with your group. I’m fake because I’m too nice. I’m weird because I’m not like you. I’m fat because I eat when I’m hungry. I’m clingy because I don’t like to be alone. I’m insecure because I care about what people think of me. I’m no fun because I’m not always hyper? Don’t try to tell me who I am BecauseI already know! </3

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