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Ever sleep the day away because of how empty your life is?

Tonight isn’t as bad as most nights that I’m on here. but that’s because tonight I don’t feel sad or depressed. Tonight.. I don’t feel anything. I feel empty. Broken. I used to know what it was like to love. I still remember how it felt. But now, it seems all a dream. Some days it seems real. The feeling I recall seems nearby. Some days I think tomorrow I might feel it again. But it never comes today. And most days I don’t feel it at all. And I know I should. The last boy I loved was terrible to me. And now I’m […]

My entire life i thought i was going somewhere. I have realized in the past week that i am going nowhere. yes i am young, there is so much i havent done, blah blah blah. dont try to talk me out of it, there is no use. i am nothing but a kindred spirit now :(. i will take the path of so many others in the world and end my miserable life. To the girls that i care about out there (you know who u are) im sorry i had to end it this way. i couldnt deal with the hate. i couldnt deal […]

Has anyone heard of using a metal ring when attemping a suspension hanging? I read that you can pad the rope at the front but I don’t quite get using the ring verses a knot. Anyone?

i feel like shit. headache, nausea, hot and cold, shaking, abdominal pain, diarrhea. thinking lithium is not for me. had blood test done on tuesday. but my primary hasn’t seen fit to call me with results. don’t see the shrink until next wednesday. so do i keep taking it or just quit ? because my shrink moonlights elsewhere there is no one easily accessible to ask. guess i will have to wing it. so if not lithium what’s next? i have done all the ssri’s and the snri’s. he says he isn’t giving up. implying i shouldn’t either. well about that. i am thinking that […]

I want to post a song to the site.
Is it possible to do that?

Anyone knew a girl named Catrina?

She was from Anchorage Alaska and went to my high school.

I knew her not, and I doubt people will on here, but yeah. Just thought I would ask.

Does anybody know of any other  suicide forums online beside suicide project – confidential, trustworthy with a slightly more pro suicide view?  Not A.S.H., that’s turned into nothing but trolls.  Can anyone suggest something trustworthy and confidential they’ve seen?

I thought I had found my place. Between the nearly death, on the darkest, deepest corner of the web… But I was wrong. I don’t belong here. I don’t think I belong anywhere at all, for that matter.

I don’t think I can die so easily. Not yet. I don’t deserve it. I will walk some more, live some more. Look for my graveyard, somewhere to die, someone to die with, perhaps.

Good luck.

Hi, I see a lot of posts about people cutting.  I am not judging- we all deal with our pain in our own ways.  Mine is to mope and cry and isolate from the world.  I’m just curious- why do you guys cut?  Does it actually make you feel better, or does pain actually feel good in a strange sort of way?

People think im selfish for wanting to commit suicide, its actually quite the opposite, im an enigma, a parasite, the world is better off without me in it!  I am ending all today.  Goodbye evil world!!!

I don’t know

why I started doing it.

I truly don’t have a good reason

and I don’t understand what happened in my head at that time

because I didn’t know it had a name.

I was in 5th grade

and all I wanted was to feel pain.

The dumbest is that I was in class

I took my ruler and started scratching my skin

inside the elbow

bellow the table.

Scars of cutting or any self-harming

were for me

like a trophy

that I liked to contemplate.

Or maybe

an indelible memory.