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The last couple of days have sucked. I don’t know why. I just feel like crap and everything I try and do takes such effort. I have to force myself to do anything. I have meetings all week and a therapy appointment that I feel like blowing off. I doubt it would matter – but the other meetings, well, I would feel awful if I didn’t go. I am just so tired of sucking it up and smiling that fake bullshit smirk.

I wonder if anyone else gets scared by their thoughts. Like, when they start thinking they might actually do it – kill themself? […]

Honestly there is no point in living anymore.I had and done what any person would wish in life.Now i have been depressed almost 5 months and no one even tries to help out , everyone is just selfish. All what people care is that u do this for them and you do thatfor them.My brother passed away and my dad past away to . ALL I HAVE LEFT IS MY FUTURE WIFE AND MY MOM. Its been almost a month im not very happy with my mom , she been lieing to me and causing major problems to me with my fiancee. She doing it […]

Everyone reading this, I want you to know that life sucks. I would know, I have been dragged along, trying to fit in only to have someone spit in my face and tell me I’m not good enough, that I am a complete failure at every. single. thing. I. do. I even failed at trying to kill myself. Everything about me is wrong. I used to have friends I could trust, but they turned out to be absolute fakes and turned their backs on me. You know why? All because of one single mistake I made. ONE MISTAKE. All I did was say my friends […]

so thats it the end of the line a mentel hospitel were i whont be abel to talk to aney one on here im going to miss you all i love you so my plan if! something gos worng and i get down to that sorter level that i dont whant to live im going to take the wier razore or something and end it i love you good bye it panes me to go but i haft to and im crying my eyes out cos i dont what to do it but i haft to

ples if you have time coment on this i whant this to be the […]

Yeah.  That’s the wonderful advice I was given a few moments ago.  A “friend” sent me a message indicating he saw I hadn’t been on the “book of faces” for a couple weeks and had not seen me out an about.  “Well at least I know you’re not one of those f*cked up crazy people about to off himself LOL”.  I responded with … “well I could really use a real friend right now.  Not feeling so great about life”.  I receive back “oh f*cking get over it lol  I know you’re not insane so you’ll not be off’ing yourself or some stupid sh*t like […]

When life gives you lemons, you make lemonade. Unless you don’t have any water or sugar. And then you just eat the lemons, and the rind will give you diarrhea. … Vincent Van Gogh. Everyone said to him, “You can’t be a great painter, you only have one ear.” And you know what he said? “I can’t hear you.” … So dare to dream. Dream your wildest dreams. You can climb the highest mountain. You can drown in a teacup, if you find a big enough teacup. And if somebody tells you that you can’t do something, you say, ‘Yes, I can. ‘Cause I’m doing […]

So I’m nearly 18 and I can’t really remember the last time that I was actually happy. I have a few friends but they don’t understand why I feel the way that I do. I want to give up but I everytime I’m about to I remember what my mum said when I was little; that people who give up are pathetic. I don’t want to leave knowing that that’s what my mum would think of me. I don’t know why I care what she would think anyway she wants me gone, they all do. My mum has told me before that she regrets having […]

Sry for my english. I am no native speaker.

I can really understand everybody here! Is it worth to be a live, is a question i ask myself almost every day.

I am not a religous person, but i really like the idea that the hindus got …………….. Life is kind of circle  of suffering.

Most people who are kind of “happy” are just “happy” because they don’t think. They just live their life. They don’t reflect. They just continous tell them self how beautifull life is. They are kind of cheating to them self. Because everbody on this plant has problems. There is no body, who is […]

I’m hoping for an answer to a question that I’ve been asking myself for years… Why is it that some people suffer so much pain in life (I’m not just talking about poor people or anything but people who question life and are depressed and suicidal) while others seem to coast through it? I know a few of you will say that everyone suffers but I dont agree at all… There are people who might not be rich or good looking but are blessed with a happy family, a cheerful and optimistic attitude who just find positives in everything… Are we sufferers supposed to balance […]

Well: I’m alone and just wanna make friends and talk about pain .I wanna help others because I can’t help myself.

I used to get really depressed because I used to compare myself with everyone else who was taller, richer, more muscular, better looking, more athletic, etc.

When I stopped doing that, my depression got a lot better!

You know,sometimes I feel like I shouldn’t be here.You see I am afraid…of people.Walking streets everyday wishing to be invisible and every person that I see when I’m walking …It’s like they are going to kill me.I’m afraid of living because I know that I won’t be accepted and I’m one of those left behind.I’m scared.I’m alone.I cry everyday and I feel like I’m here to be tortured.Someone told me that “suicide is for weak people” But I don’t wanna die because I’m weak, but because I was strong for so long and I feel like I’m living with no direction,just living to be punish […]

The worst part of this feeling is feeling so alone and like you have no one, when truthfully you have so many people but it’s just so oblivious to you! When me boyfriend first hit me I didn’t know what to do with myself, it was my first proper relationship and I didn’t think any different. I thought I had nobody, nobody to talk to or to listen and help me, after this I was diagnosed with depression and dysthymia, and would cut 24/7. But guys this isn’t the answer, since then I’ve gotten out of the relationship, got off the medication and stopped cutting. […]

i really have no hope… i think ill be dead soon. i can’t talk to my friends, they really aren’t there for me. i wanna tell my mom but she never really listens. im sick of of living with myself , i believe the things that people tell me about myself. i feel so worthless right now. and i know im worthless … i met this girl and she made me feel special but my insecurities made me think i was never good enough for her, i ended up pushing her away… i attempted suicide a couple times already , and this […]

If anyone is online right now please email me, I am having a huge panic attack and I am trying my best not to cut myself. If  I am left alone for too long I will..

Please help.

do that for me will you just love your selfs

ta ra my beatefull broheres and sisters

love you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx