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Has anyone ever died of lonliness

by whyme13
written by whyme13

This is my first post on this site. I just happened to google the title of my post and SP came up. Here I go, I am so sick of not having someone in my life to do anything with. I know it sounds pathetic but its getting harder and harder not to wish for some quick death. All my life I have went out of the way to help people and be a good friend. I tried to be a good brother, a good son. I was always told “Don’t worry, you meet someone”. That gets old after hearing it a few years. I’m not […]

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Why does life have to be so hard?

by cJay4
written by cJay4

I wish I could get this feeling away from me but suicide pops into my head all day. I’m 21 years old and feel like I have already lived enough. I’m drained. I sit here now typing this in my bed n don’t even have the energy to pick my head up off the pillow. And I did nothing today. Like I do everyday. But suicide seems so nice right now. Like all this stress and sadness gone in a minute.  But what’s so hard about it is I don’t want to die. When I think about it I just think of my mom n […]

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my addiction.. cutting

by twinklestar23
written by twinklestar23

Everytime i try to stop i fail…. i keep cutting. i’ll be clean for two weeks and then i do it again.. i have anxiety.. and depression. I like to cut sometimes… and bleed. sometimes i wonder if i just cut deep enough. and overdose on pills i’d have WHAT i WANT. … WHAT i neeed….. Maybe one day/… but up to now.. im at 4 pillss… strong pills.. all i need is to go far away…. isolate myself… and KILL MYSELF. . i truley love him as well….. but he doesnt know.

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i jst dont kno anymore…

by Cocobitzy1996
written by Cocobitzy1996

This is the kinda crap tht get me…fck man ! i have no true friends, ill never have tht one special person who tells me they love me again .. ive lost it all …ill always be alone with no one to care…its jst me in my own little dark place..the only place ill ever feel safe. idk wht to do anymore..life suck right now theres only one way out i can think of..n ive been holding on so hard for it not to happen ik i have a long ‘happy’ life ahead for me bt we will tht being ?! ugh im jst tired..tired […]

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Insane pain

by Listen
written by Listen

I feel as if I’m going insane.. Losing my mind. Losing it.. Like I’ve lost everything else. Everything is cold.. dark.. and unforgiving. Everything sets me back.. So far back. I thought I could have just something that could be mine but I was only mistaken because here it goes. Growing wings.. and slowly setting off. I should whisper goodbye but the words won’t go.. won’t slide off my lips into the cold air.. They’re ready but won’t go. I need help but don’t really know where to look.. I’m alone.. So alone.. I have been alone and finding help is hard so do I […]

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Practice I guess

by forsaken1
written by forsaken1

I have spent countless hours staring at this gun, familiarizing myself with it. I dare say I know it intimately, how much it weighs empty vs with a full cylinder how much force it takes to for the hammer to start to draw back and everything.
I often hold it to my temple, and in my mouth dry firing it. Practicing for the real thing, I have removed the front sight on it making it more comfortable in my mouth.
When I first started doing this I would jump everytime I heard the empty click, I don’t anymore. I can now pick up the gun […]

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Fatal Melancholy

by whyohwhysky
written by whyohwhysky

Someone saved me last week from hanging myself. The loneliness was driving me mad. Yet, here I am again contemplating death. It is my refuge from the emptiness of life.

Now, I want to die because I simply don’t enjoy it. The one person who brought me joy and color to my world is now dead. I’ve been trying to move on and find happiness in the connections of those still alive, but I don’t enjoy spending time with people. Nor do I have the energy to try and find a new close companion.

So, I just sit in my room, waiting. Waiting for something to happen. […]

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by Blom_Me
written by Blom_Me

Today,  just for today i want to see myself as another persone, not just not me, just another, and then still decide if i like me.

I am here, all of me, but nothing anyone seems to see.

Tell me how can one persone seem to think that they have a world of love to give, and hate the persone they are.

Beautifull mind, beautifull me, just a lonely little thing i would intriduse as ME

Nothing missed, nothing known, just another day for others to say: I knew her, oh,…

Maybe?

dont really know what the reason is for certain me’s to be here?

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This world is full of shit

by Painman
written by Painman

What does it take to find somebody in this world who actually cares about your situation and who actually works for your benefit? All I keep meeting is people who turn towards their darkside for any little petty stupid thing and people who have nothing but LIES. Here I am, Amphetimine addict who has just had a dealer I’ve known for over a decade stop serving me and blanking me completely just because HIS stuff  made me paranoid and I guess it tripped him out a bit, after all we havent all got brain conditions due to drugs.

I cant find anybody else who sells it and EVERYBODY I know […]

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the thoughts consume my every move

by tlbh
written by tlbh

It’s dark in here,

I can’t always find the switch or the air to breathe.

My days turn into the hell,

My nights are the blissful peace,

Because it’s the only place where I may really do it this time.

I put those awful pills in my mouth again, the taste was sweet serenity,

I lay back with a razor close to my hand,

I look at those cuts, I hear my heart beat ….

Slowly and surely I hope it’ll work this time.

My note is left on the back of my door,

Please don’t suffer over my longing to be gone,

Be gone from this world, cause it’s no longer a world at all.

The […]

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Whats the point?

by abrokensoul
written by abrokensoul

I dont even know why Im writing this. Im pretty sure it wont help but I have to try something… I am suicidal but you know the worst part.. I dont even have the balls to commit suicide.. I guess I should explain myself but i really dont know how to structure this.. So im just going to ramble.

I’m 23 years old and I’m from India. Right from my childhood I’ve had a sense of fear in me that never leaves me. Guess its all cause of my father. He used to beat my mother and sister and I used to cower in fear, just […]

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Why go on?

by markymark
written by markymark

I’m not lost, I’m not in pain, I’m not under that much stress (22/m/In college), I don’t have too bad a life actually. My dad is unemployed so with my part time job I’m helping him stay afloat back home but I don’t mind. He wiped my ass when I shat my diapers as a baby and now I’m repaying him by helping him when he needs it. I’m not religious. I never understood the whole God thing. Not that I didn’t go to church. I really tried to believe, I wanted to believe, I just couldn’t buy into the invisible dude in the sky […]

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why?

by smusmu
written by smusmu

Maby its time to tell why I am here. My brother killed himself a week ago. He didnt leave a note he didnt tell me, that anything is so very wrong. I knew that he is depressed, because he was in his room all day doing nothing. Hes moode changed super fast … But last couple of months he seemed much better, like he finnaly made peace with the world. I get it now… I read a few pages he wrote. He thought nobody loved him – I LOVED HIM!!! I still do… He decided to kill himself till july and didnt want anyone to […]

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Counterweights to drown.

by Lena
written by Lena

I plan on drowning myself. Everything is planned except one of the most essential things: counterweights. I’m 103lbs and weak in strength. And there are no rocks near where I want to go.

I was so excited and anxious, now I’m just disappointed and irritated. I have to do this. I have to. As soon as possible. But the most essential thing…the thing that would guarantee my demise… I can’t think of anything. F***.

Until there’s a solution… I don’t even think I can hide. It hurts and there’s no where safe. But I have to think. Think. Think. This needs to happen fast and soon.

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the beauty and the beast

by Chriss
written by Chriss

There’s a boy.I know you will probably skip this post because you don’t want to read the story of a broken hearted girl,but I will write it anyway because this is the book of my life and no one wants to read it.So I will write this story of love and blood here because this a story of a rock/goth/emo/satanic girl (or anyother names people use to call me) which secretly like a normal bo,you know,one of those cool guys that goes to parties and drink and probably think that my kind of girls must be burned alive or killed because they are freaks.What can […]

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I don’t know what to do anymore..

by Dreamfall
written by Dreamfall

Today,31 May 2013,I just came back from school feeling absolutely sleep deprived and unmotivated. I had it tough these few weeks. School,projects,assignments and continuous disgust i get from the people who resents me,has made life pretty much unbearable these few days. I have been crying these few days and just trying to hold on to what I know best.

I notice that no matter how much effort i put into school,things never go the way i want it to be. It makes me breakdown inside. I feel so hopeless and I feel so useless. I feel that I was never meant for college life. Honestly,right now […]

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exit bag ideas

by unlovable_me
written by unlovable_me

I was just reading through an online addition of the peaceful pill handbook (probably an outdated version, but oh well). If anyone has read some of my other posts, I have talked about how much I would like to use an exit bag. I don’t have any supplies gathered yet, but that’s because I’m trying to learn as much as I can about this method before I go out and do it. From what I can understand, gas is the most common “knocker outer” that is used with exit bags. I have considered buying a tank of helium or ********, maybe even both for good […]

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