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cursed….please help:'(

by JaneDoe822 4/21/2013

written by JaneDoe822

I’m afraid to recall that how this idea ever ran through my mind but If I EVER end up being a transsexual….my mother and her ultra conservative outlook would be responsible for it….the truth is that I’m tired of the mundane gender issues to which I was exposed to at such a young age or to be more specific its one of my earliest memory to be super reserved with people of the opposite gender….because its a “taboo” to be frank or formally intimate with them……I sometimes feel like I’ll never forgive the brutal society laws which made me “regret” for being a female….I often […]

4/21/2013 1 comment

My drug story.

by Esila 4/21/2013

written by Esila

Drugs. That’s what caused all this. There is lump in my throat telling me i dont think anyone will truly understand theÂ absolute s**t it does to you, but who knows. So here is my story..

*Note* I am deeply ashamed of this, and i try to forget about it as much as i can. (i have not re-read this because it was hard enough writing it, im sorry about any spellingÂ mistakes)

Grade nine was my first year of school ever (i was home schooled) so walking in the doors of that high schoolÂ healed a lot more then desks and teachers, it healed experiences. I didnt know where […]

4/21/2013 4 comments

My Past

by ashamedgirl 4/21/2013

written by ashamedgirl

I made some mistakes, no not some i made a lot of mistakes. And i think i deserved everything that i’ve been trough and i’m going through. I wasn’t a good person, i used to do bad things, things that areÂ irreversible. 2 years ago i finally noticed that i changed my name, who i am, went a new place, place that nobody knew nothing about me. i made some mistakes there too. i always make mistakes. and i am so ashamed like i can’t even explain it. if i could go back, to anytime i would go that time fix my mistakes. my past will […]

4/21/2013 2 comments

by not_sylv 4/21/2013

written by not_sylv

Last night I went to a folk-punk show and the last person I made friends with (mentioned in the earlier post I made… not someone who will ever speak to me again. He was nice to me and I was a pretty shitty friend cuz my personality got all fucked up for two years) was there, along with two of his friends. I felt really really shitty and guilty

4/21/2013 5 comments

i’m done trying

by dyingisagift 4/21/2013

written by dyingisagift

I’m tired of lying. I hate pretending everything is okay. Because pretending everything is okay means lying…

all the time..

I don’t think i can do this anymore.

4/21/2013 2 comments

Vanish

by af7erlife 4/21/2013

written by af7erlife

i wish i could drink to the last drop..just get drunk everynight..to forget everything, to get some sleep..

the hangover..i dont mind, it’s easier to deal than this life.

music and pills are my Â best friends.

No one knows, Â i’ve been pretendingt that i’m happy, Â masking things with smiles.

i wish i could vanish, dissapear …even better if i could die in no time.

death somehow is so peaceful, no yesterday, no tomorrow, just a silent stage and place …with no more pain and tears.

4/21/2013 1 comment

Good Way to Go

by efsohurt 4/21/2013

written by efsohurt

So I’m know I’m not the only one who is actively wishing and hoping that my life turns around soon and I magically become happy, or simply find a few real world (offline) friends to ease the feelings of loneliness….and yet while waiting for this to happen, wouldn’t mind if my life would just end.

I do not want to “commit suicide” though, because I know the pain this causes from family experience and I don’t want my family to know I was selfish enough to do that to them. Â But drugs – well an accidental overdose isn’t QUITE the same. If I overdose on pills, […]

4/21/2013 23 comments

Kill me

by Sam 4/21/2013

written by Sam

This song is my 8th grade year. The year when I made a life time of mistakes. I guess there not mistakes if you keep repeating them.Â http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j6t-AgLT-LM

“I dont usually likes saying this to you over facebook mostly how lame it is, however if left unsaid i feel that the truth would just be gone sooner than can pass but im proud of you. im proud of how much youve taken advantage of tops. im proud of how much you bullshit you pushed through in the last while and most of all im proud of the fact that you havent givin up yet” 🙂

my old […]

4/21/2013 1 comment

so yer

by why i dont no 4/21/2013

written by why i dont no

well iv lost my friends to them calling me a atanchion seeker i was just lookinf for help thats allÂ and james jump off the tamar brigÂ copul weeks agoÂ seems the ones who understand me kill them selfs iv spent mosr of my life all 16 years helping people and noe im looking for help ther trowing me away now that im spent of all my love and careing

its got to get beter right it cant get wors.. thats what i say to my self evrey day the lsd hs stopt working so has the weed and people say to me your still young you dont know […]

4/21/2013 5 comments

Trying

by thetwilightzone33 4/21/2013

written by thetwilightzone33

I have dealt with chronic depression and severe anxiety for years.Â I also have two neurological conditions, fibromyalgia and narcolepsy which give me horrible pain when I’m awake and horrible nightmares when I’m asleep.Â I feel very alone and there’s a voice in my head who says that it’s not worth it.Â I have pain pills in my bathroom and I know a handful of them would make all the problems go away, but I don’t take them.Â My mom lost two out of seven kids plus her husband and I don’t think she would take me dying well.Â I am not living for me […]

4/21/2013 2 comments

It’s Just Me

by Rain 4/21/2013

written by Rain

Lonely.

Is there anybody out there?

Anywhere.

4/21/2013 5 comments

First time.

by fallenangel33 4/21/2013

written by fallenangel33

I went to my friends house last night. He told me to try a shot. I have nothing to lose so I did. The night ended with me taking 7 shots of vodka with some fruity stuff and some captain morgan. I have never felt so out of control. I can’t really remember anything that happened. But now I see why people drink. I never thought a fifteen year old girl like myself, would stoop to such a low level to escape the empty feeling even if it was only temporarily. I didn’t feel empty at the time, I felt warm and fuzzy and happy.

4/21/2013 2 comments

Almost there…

by aeneegma 4/21/2013

written by aeneegma

Huh? Funny. Not.

As of today I had a taste of that one step of ‘that-edge-of-the-cliff-stairwell’.

Just a taste, I’m still not sure if I’m ready to accept the To be/feel Disregarded step.

I’m not making sense. Because my mind is quite jumble as to what’s happening. I can feel the despair eating my insecurities.

My fingers are part of my emotion not my mind. I keep on typing, typing.

My God, I think I’m getting mad. As in the ‘nutcase’ kind.

This is to fast. Everything’s happening too fast. I’m not ready. I’ll never be ready.

That bottle is just there, a few steps away. 14 paces to be exact.
It […]

4/21/2013 1 comment

i dont want to be here anymore

by iwanttobefree 4/21/2013

written by iwanttobefree

i’ve been sitting on the floor of my room for over an hour sobbing with my razors in front of me. i can’t take the pain anymore. i can’t take knowing how disappointing and how much of a failure i am. everything hurts and i just want it to end. i don’t want to have to stay here for anyone else but me. im so trapped and i can’t get rid of this feeling. i’m sick of pretending that i want to be alive

4/21/2013 2 comments

Deep Hatred

by EndlessWhispers 4/21/2013

written by EndlessWhispers

I dont understand, but recently, I hate everyone an everythhing bar a few very personal items. I have facebook and everything on it. I hate all my friends, and I hate my family. I am not sure what started it, but this hatred/disgust, annoyance/pity just fills me when I get around them. Its not one of those hatred that makes me want them to die, but that one where if i had the option to leave I would and never look back. Im just done. Eerything seems like crap nowadays, and I cant bring myself to care about anything bar my parents, my dog and […]

4/21/2013 2 comments

Looking for someone to talk to who shares my views

by earbuds 4/21/2013

written by earbuds

I’ve been trying to discover some meaning in life but keep coming to the conclusion that there isn’t one, because there isn’t. I wish I had a delusion like most people in order to get some fulfillment out of this, but I don’t, I never have, and I can’t lie to myself to create one. I’m too much of a realist, and I see how shitty this world is, and how pointless it all is and I just don’t want to be a part of it. I really hate life. Not mine in particular, although mine does indeed suck in many ways,Â but life in general.Â I […]

4/21/2013 10 comments

don’t read if you don’t want to…ya’ probably won’t.

by I.cant.breathe! 4/21/2013

written by I.cant.breathe!

I’m bad at being a person, I’m bad at being alive. I’m bad at being worth it, heck, I can’t even survive.

I’m good at being a fuck up, i’m good at being sad, i’m good at having no luck, i’m good at being bad.

there are voices, and they yell, all the choices, and stroies they tell. there are demons, In my soul, and they eat me, they eat me whole. there are tears, streaming down, filling an ocean, i hope I drown. There is blood, spilling out, I really pray that, I’m not found.

I’m bad at giving love, I’m bad at giving hope, i’m bad […]

4/21/2013 3 comments

religion messed up my family even more

by fakingit 4/21/2013

written by fakingit

my dad caught on that im bi-sexual…he now hates me. he wants nothing to do with me cuz i defied his religion. and im now a gross psychopath with aids and shit haha ive never had sex but with a guy. and sure i make out with girls and ive had 2 gfs..but really who gives a fuck? thanks to religion my family has more problems.

4/21/2013 2 comments

If you choose one night to watch the stars this year, make it April 21st

by anonalabama 4/21/2013

written by anonalabama

Don’t take it from me, take it from NASA!

4/21/2013 0 comment

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