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Please tell me my friend won’t hate me forever

by neverenough26
written by neverenough26

Yesterday in a particularly bad time I decided I was finally going to end it. At that time (when I was clearly not thinking rationally), I was determined and committed. I have been depressed for a while but when this all happened something really horrible happened and I had no way to work through it on my own. I know everyone says that and I don’t want to say the entire story, but basically a person who had sexually, physically, and emotionally abused me for several years somehow got my contact information and called me just to fuck with my mind, and it set off […]

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Change

by Sam
written by Sam

How do I start to be someone else and just leave everything behind. I can’t forget memory’s and all the regret I have. It’s to much to just let go. I can’t even if I tried I have nightmares about a lot of my past. I feel like I can’t even be okay just for a second. I wish someone could take the pain away. People seem to think life is just that easy I can just wake up and choose to feel better and forget everything and just change the type of person I am. I don’t get high anymore when I smoke weed. I […]

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Leaving Sooner Rather Than Later

by Katherine
written by Katherine

I stayed away from Collin for a day. He told me to call and sure enough I did. What happened? He let it go to voicemail, he was testing me to see if I was still there. Possibly sitting around for him when I was not.

 

I am slowly slipping away from the real world and wanting this all to be a fantasy. I want to be loved but you can never force someone to love you or that will push them farther away. Men like Collin just want to know that no matter what, someone will always be there to catch them when they fall, but when it is your […]

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Fuuuck my life

by Only-Here-For-My-Family
written by Only-Here-For-My-Family

I don’t know if I should be here (This site) Only because I haven’t hurt myself in around 5 years, but lately I’ve been feeling exactly how I did when I was 13-16 (20 now), I just don’t really want to live anymore, (Already crying) I just can’t help it, whenever I’m alone I have to fight to keep myself from either bursting into tears or picking up the knife for the first time in years, I feel so helpless and I don’t know what to do, I want to see a counselor but I don’t really like telling my life story to new people every week […]

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Liar

by bakridge
written by bakridge

Your is a FUCKING liar!!!! Please, don’t tell me you love me and kiss her behind my back!!! Fuck it all!! Im done with you her everyone!! Liars, liars, liars, all around us. WHY was i born in to a lie!!!! Im a lie, your a lie, she a lie, were all damn lies!!!!!

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My story..

by Lullaby
written by Lullaby

I’ve struggled for a very very long time, and since i were young i’ve been depressed..

-Always bullied, abused and threatened..

When i were young up till today I’ve been going trough mental and psychical abuse., At my elementary schools i oftenly got threatened with knives and to be beaten up. A few times they even beat me up, hit me in places people couldn’t see the bruises on, and said If I’d tell anyone they’d cut my throat..

I tried to talk to people about it but always got laughed at and they said I’m just making things up, no one is doing such a thing to […]

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Sometimes I pretend I’m gone already

by MeLost4Ever
written by MeLost4Ever

The prayers I used to say like now I lay me down to sleep if I should die before I wake..  Take on new meaning though I am not religious. And all the pain still there and the advice that you’ll just run in circles for years in therapy.

That feeling when you’re a little kid and you get lost in the grocery store, it’s scary.. but now I want it for good.

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Not long

by SoSoTired
written by SoSoTired

It’s now only a matter of time, I’ve been contemplating the end for many years and at my 27th will be the time to go, it’s never been clearer. Working out sufficient ways is a daily schedule, every bridge I cross is considered, every pill I swallow is worked out to which quantity will be lethal, what side effects may be incurred along the way. I am at least content in the knowledge that I want to sleep my way out.

I don’t need to write the way I feel, thousands of times makes no difference, and I don’t need to go over them any longer. I simply […]

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Too Much

by Mangrove
written by Mangrove

I want to die soon. I was born with Cerebral Palsy and suffered all the usual torment from other kids when I was growing up. I struggled to get a job but never gave up. I managed to live a fairly “normal” life. Girls were happy to ride in my boat or on my bike or get a lift in my car – but date? Never! I finally found a desperate woman and married, had two kids who she abused (along with abusing me) and eventually I left her. I had a good job, had respect, self-esteem and was happy to start again. Now at […]

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We all got problems.

by Erisa
written by Erisa

I’m tired. My body detests me. I’ve put it through hell. The scars can attest to that. I can’t fall asleep without a drink in me. I close my eyes at two in the morning and wake up to non existing screaming a couple hours later. The men in my life have all disappointed me. I’ve been bought off with money and sex. And yet, whose to say that it’s not my fault as well? I can’t find worth in myself. I don’t know if I’m pretty or pretty stupid. I don’t know. At the time I sure as hell didn’t care. I just want to have that […]

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If I wrote A Suicide Note Today It Would Say

by Rain
written by Rain

Family..”friends”…”lovers” (yes with an S)

If youre reading this, youre probably surprised.
You failed to pay attention to the hurt behind my eyes
To the lies. It mustve been a million times ive said that i was fine.
Dont cry, you wont miss me.
Thoughts with my face will fade like the mist as you live blissfully.
You’ll cry in their faces but rejoice behind backs
You’ll make jokes like “too bad, she hada nice rack”
You’ll pretend with your friends you remebered my figure before i disfigured it. Maybe get hit by a car..if it’s bigger it’s better then. Or find my corpse in the […]

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why?

by ravens609
written by ravens609

I can’t provide for my family. no matter what job I have I seem to lose it. my wife is falling out of love with me and I don’t know how to repair my marriage. It’d be my second divorce. I have no friends really, possibly because I’m an asshole/unlikeable. i don’t know how to keep going anymore.

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maybe no one will notice now…

by fakingit
written by fakingit

so much stress and so alone. all i want to do is just never talk and never sleep and never eat and never drink i never want to do anything i never want to do what i need to i do what i want to and what i want to is what im bout to do. i dont know how to handle all this..so il let death take care of this. </3 my relationship with the world has expired…

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Gore websites

by tupacorbiggie
written by tupacorbiggie

I recently have been looking at gore just to see what my corpse will look like if I decide to blow my brains out.  It’s not exactly pretty and it makes it that much more real.  The reality of suicide is pretty intense and final.  What are your thoughts about gore and the finality of death?

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Killing myself.

by Darc_Flame
written by Darc_Flame

Every night the thoughts grow louder. Die, kill yourself, you shouldnt be alive. I know I won’t kill myself, I can’t kill myself. But now I don’t know how much longer I can hold out. All I want is to die. How much longer I can hold on for.

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never ever

by perspectivexx
written by perspectivexx

early in the morning

as the sun rises

you’re wide awake

 

no surprises

 

honestly, she never sleeps

she’s up til dawn

fussing about her weight

 

she’s pinching her tummy

she’s making herself sick

 

it’s honestly cruel

what children permit

-e.m.

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