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I want to kill all my emotions, i can’t deal with it anymore. They are hurting me to much, the pain in my heart is to much. Nobody cares anymore, they are all leaving me. I’m trying to hold on but it hurts to much. I want all my emotions to go away, pain, anger, sadness, happyness, everything…
I have been on this site for about a month now. Â I have read a lot of posts and commented on some. Â Meanwhile I struggle more and more everyday. Â I feel like I am screaming please help me but all I hear is things like “you’ll feel better when the spring comes”, or “you’ll feel better when you get back to work”. Â A little background, I have been off work for 3 years because I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. Â I have told my psychiatrist that I am feeling depressed, eating and sleeping too much but even he doesn’t understand how much I am struggling […]
All of us here has a different religion ……so could all of you please drop the religion problem ……its so depressing now
Happy Easter my friends. I pray and hope that you all and myself may find peace and some serenity to our anxious minds. I love you all!
JerzyBoy
The thought of suicide is constantly on my mind, you could probably say i am obsessed with suicide (maybe thats why i’m on a suicide website). Well i guess i should explain myself first, as long as I can remember I have been depressed, initially mildly but for the past 5 years or so it has been intense. My life is just one big circle and i end up back at the start, im depressed as hell for months at a time i plan the date that i am going to end it all and then when the date comes i chicken out. The reason […]
Goodbye, I wish I could have left you with more. But, this pretty much sums up why I have decided to move on. Don’t worry, if there is such a thing as ghosts I will stay and watch over you all until the end.
I have always felt that suicide was connected to communication. Not due to a lack of opportunity, but to an impossibility to communicate and be understood. It can be frustrating to try to share something with somebody, something important and real to you, and see in the face of another person that he doesn’t care or, worse still, simply doesn’t understand you. […]
This is my second post now that I’ve started talking about suicide, I know its only been like a day since I started posting but I wish that I could feel like this was helping me, the urge to cut is so overwhelming but I’m trying to be strong. The reason I’m posting now is cause I’m trying to find a way to tell my off and on boyfriend that I’ve been trying to kill myself. I’m scarred that either he will freak and tell my parents or leave me permanently without even trying to understand, and maybe I want that, to have something physical […]
i THINK i AM INTELLIGENT AND FUNNY AND THAT IF PEOPLE REALLY LISTENED TO ME THEN MAYBE IT WOULD BE WORTHWHILE Â STAYING IN THIS WORLD. BUT NO ONE HEARS ME. NO ONE REALLY SEES WHAT IS INSIDE. I CANT KEEP FIGHTING IT ANYMORE. I DIED A LONG TIME AGO. I CAN NO LONGER TRUST OR LOVE. I AM GOING TO KILL MYSELF.. I JUST HOPE I CAN DO IT SOON SO I WONT HAVE TO THINK ANYMORE.I FEEL SO ALONE. I AM SO ALONE. Â ONCE I AM DEAD I WILL BE ABSOLUTELY ALONE BUT FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER….I WONT FEEL IT.
My life has fallen apart, i lost guy i wanted to spend my life with. I told my parents i need help they just said you’ll be fine here is a news flash i’m not fine…oh and hey i don’t even own a fucking cat think it through..I mean i want people to help me but i shut myself off and say i’m fine but how do i tell someone i’m not fine..And if they ask whats wrong oh hey i just want to kill myself they wouldn’t understand…Also i was thinking when is it a good time in a relationship to tell the person […]
I have been thinking about cutting my arm all day now. Thinking about how to bandage it, what angle to cut it, when and what to use. I miss these thoughts, but I feel like I am letting so many people down by considering them. My mind is in two as I think about cutting my flesh, I think about the look I would get from my mum, the look of inconvenience.
It’s winter, and wearing long sleeves isn’t a weird thing to do now. So hiding my wounds wouldn’t be as hard.
And to be honest, they don’t care. Even if they did notice my scars, […]
I have come to realise that I actually do not want to get better, ever since I could remember, I have been depressed. And walking away from all that you know to become something else, something allegedly better is way too confronting for me.
Just thinking about this, scares me. And I feel like I am a stupid coward for not wanting to change, I could be normal. I could be happy if I tried. But I don’t think I ever will…
I’m relatively new to this site, but thought I’d take my turn to publish a post. The reason I’m on here tonight is because I am really struggling at the moment. I am really having strong urges to end my life. I don’t want to kill myself, yet I don’t want to continue living this life that I have created for myself. Very contradicting sentence, isn’t it? I just feel so alone. And I know isolation plays a big part in it, but even with people I still feel incredibly alone. I hate myself so much. I hate my body and my mind. I wish […]
I feel like maybe I can actually do something for the good. I try to make everyone happy but at the end of the day I’m not. I feel bad for getting angry with myself for stuff I can’t control. Maybe I will wake up tomorrow with a smile on my face and feel better. I can only hope. I hope everyone is doing good tonight.
I know I want to end my life. If it’s not today it will be some day soon. I’ve given up im crying right now in my dark room. I hate living.
Today me and my boyfriend got in an argument. When mean things come out of his mouth it hurts me the most. Like I’m getting stabbed in the heart, and my throat starts to get a knot. He basically sad our relationship is shit, that he’s not happy and I’ve left him traumatized.
I know I’m not the best girlfriend but I don’t deserve to be told those things. I’m so upset he makes me feel so low, my life is already fucked up with other problems that I have. But I just want to leave this world. I hate myself. I hate everything I’m a horrible […]
I’m sorry… How royally fucked up is this country, that the same people who allowed me to be raped repeatedly for seven years, to the point I had a child, could have the audacity to look me in the eyes and say they can’t help me? Really?! Do you have any idea how many times I tried to tell people what was happening, only to be called a liar? And now, the bastard draws a disability check for being bipolar (no shit). That’s not a lot of money, but it’s $700 a month while my son and I have NOTHING. His class Easter party […]
There is nothing good about me at all. If people got points for the things that are good about them, I have zero points. I have no talent for anything. I thought I was creative, but no. All my ideas suck. Everything about my appearance is bad. I am annoying and have the worst social skills in the universe. No one even likes me or has ever liked me. Life is too boring because nothing ever happens to me. I can’t do anything right. I;ve spent over a year doing nothing because whenever I try to do something I fail. Why did I have to […]
breathing heavy, worried sick its feels like the end …. no note no explaination i feel sorry for who find me and i feel sorry for who has to tell my fiancee im sorry to waste you guys time with this post too just goodbye
I’m bulimic and anorexic. Most of my friends don’t know so I wanted to gt it out somehow. All of the times I had been called fat by my mom, so called friends, random people too has led to this. Everything is just so messed up and I no longer know what to do. I haven’t even mentioned all the suicide attempts and cutting. I cant handle myself and everything is going downhill.
Hey. Makenna here. Yes my real name. I have no shame being on here. I have had this for awhile. Some may know me as demissio. But I forgot the stuff on here. So I made a new one. If you don’t know me or don’t remember me Im here to help. 🙂 <3
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