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i felt it, it was obvious..maybe im just naive..
i honestly thought i was ganna die last night…
how did it not work:/
FUUUUUUCK.
I have been on medication (viibryd) for 6 weeks. doc says it will help. He also gave me clonopin for anxiety at work. I am 42 divorced, no kids, just a great dog who was thrown from a car window and i rescued him. I will not committ suicide and leave my dog. no one would care if i die, i come from a “traditional italian family” your not supposed to have depression, you are supposed to “snap out of it and smile” well i cant. and lord knows i’ve tried and tried and tried. I feel now that since i’ve been with this job […]
She fell apart over a small error
She lives her life, filled with terror.
She cuts her skin, like it’s paper.
People try, but no one can save her.
She can tie a noose.
She can get a gun.
She can find a knife.
And she’d be gone.
She could drown in a tub.
She could OD on drugs.
She could defy gravity.
But she’s no coward.
So she sits in her head.
Dreaming of dead.
wishing to go.
wanting it to be so.
And so she will wait.
And she will take the pain.
She will stay sane.
As the world goes insane.
Ever […]
I’m fourteen years old and currently in middle school. I’m being bullied by a boy in my Spanish class. I barely know this kid but he’s always bothering me. He says the meanest things to me and I just want him to leave me alone. I just mind my own business and talk to my friend, and he just makes rude comments or makes fun of things I say to my her and I wasn’t even talking to him. I haven’t done anything against him or given him any reason to hate me, yet he still does. He’s done this the whole year. He’s even […]
I’m a fourteen year old girl and I’m just not happy with my life right now. I have been selfharming for little over a year now on and off and some days I just want to commit suicide. My parents are going through a rough patch and I doubt they’ll make it through. I feel like I fail at everything I do. I have amazing friends who try to help but they don’t really understand. They tell me how much they’d miss me but I know that in a few years no one will know who I am. That doesn’t really bother me but I […]
I am 19 and I’ve been cutting myself since I was 15. I cut on my legs so that no one will see them. I do it to distract myself from the sadness and emptiness and the constant thought of suicide. I feel like I’m not going to amount to anything, not going to do anything great with my life and be a complete failure. I’ve kept it a secret all this time. This is my first year in college and one of my new friends found out what I’ve been doing. She’s been tring to get me to stop but she doesn’t know what see’s doing. She […]
Hi everyone.
My name is Teresa, and I am a Depressed teen….
Oh GAWD.. did i really just say that. . . . ok let me start over… let me be real with you guys… and girls.
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Hi, I’m Teresa. I am 17 years old. My birthday is April 4th. And I can promise you i won’t live past the age of 18.
I bet you all are curious why. I bet you all already know the reason. so does it really have to be said out loud? I think not.
lets continue.
My life sucks. I hate starting out so cliche. but this is one way to start that you […]
I’m doing a project about suicide awareness in school and it bothers me how many people really don’t understand suicide and think that you must be stupid and a horrible person to attempt/commit.
My greatest fear when thinking about taking my own life is the family I have with me and that care for me. I’m so lucky to have both my parents together still, and that would do anything for me. I also have a sister, brother in law, and two nieces whom all of I adore. I’m 24 years old and I feel like I’ve never experienced a normal life. I’m gay,and I also have other problems that make me self conscious of my appearance so I hate being in public or any places with many people, so I cant go to gay bars or any […]
and heres my reson to day at school the last lesion was dramer after the school day had finisht me and my g.c.s.e. grop stade behind to perfet are pees but on the fienel seen i frees in the midel of a line its like iv lost the power of spech for 10 mind numing secionds i stand ther trying to speek then i start agen like iv held my breth and im exhaeling rely fast then all the guys who are wondring wtf is going on start having a go at me i try to defend my self but im speeking jibrish that made them […]
I spend a lot of time wishing I was someone else and I’ve wasted a lot of my life doing so. Sometimes I think of myself but a better version of myself, better looking, more talented, an ideal social and home life. Other times I daydream of myself as a completely different person; wether it’s a sociable gay male living in California or pretty blonde city girl living in London, UK. I constantly see people and think ‘I’d give anything to be you’.
I can’t stop and it scares me because it’s not healthy and I’m afraid that I’m always going to hate who I am.
I […]
These days I am increasingly struggling to find a reason to keep going. Everytime I go outside I feel that everyone is looking and judging me, analysing my every awkward move. Walking on the pavement/sidewalk towards oncoming traffic is the worst as It just feels like a barrage of people staring at you, judging you. I hate thinking this way and I know its not rational, but I cant shake it, its like I am defined by my anxiety. Even when I succeed at something, theres always a voice saying I should have done better- endless quest for perfection? then what?  I think what is making […]
I could fight, but then I might
All too knowingly invite
Useless hope into this life
A life that isn’t right
Made of dark, afraid of light
Called to empty, endless night
A life that isn’t even life
I could plead, get on my knees
And beg my God to fill my need
But where is He now when I bleed?
And then I sit alone and read
Of those who in their pain secede
To death’s thirsty, luring greed
Let me follow where they lead
I could fake and lie and break
In secret, cuts and bruises make
To cope with a life I long to take
Hating every day I wake
Living only for your sake
Drowning in this burning lake
Sinking down […]
i feel like im fading away. like i just wanna give up.. take the easy way out BUT im scered to hurt everyone eles. i know iv got people who care about me but it dosent really feel like it i feel like im alone im all by my self left wiht blades it just feels so good i cant stop. maybe one day itll be deep.
My story isn’t much,its not as deep as people who have been abused or raped once or many more times though I have experienced some things very similar,I know its tough and scary.
Unlike many I still have my family. They don’t hurt me physically but sometimes mentally/emotionally. Always being angry at the small things I do. Complaining at everything I do and also costantly repeating what one says is too overwhelming when I’m stuck with it for all of my life so far. Not for too long but 4 more years or even longer seems way too much.
I’ve wanted to die since I was […]
im alive, im breathing,yeah. but i feel dead inside. there’s this empty place where my heart should be. i try to hold on so so hard for those who’d care. i know that some care,even if its just a few. some really try to help me, in every way possible,but obviously noone can tell my brain to stop talking. my mind continuously haunts me,my thoughts are impossible to escape. and i dont like the demons in my head. i don’t know how much longer i can handle being in my own skin,i’ll never be able to explain why i feel this way but i do. […]
I have so many cracks.. So many.. Cracks.., someone could poke me and I’d collapse.. Shatter me.. Collect me and let me go.., watch as my face begins to lose small pieces.. As bigger ones start to follow.. Bursting into the like kind of it’s siblings.. Just like tears falling to the floor.. But tears are shiny and whole.. Where as I’m broken and torn.. Ready to fall with tears.. Ready to splash and become something else.. Something free.. Something whole..
I know I haven’t posted in a while… But it’s because I’ve been doing better. The reason I’m back is because I can’t just leave. I was put through this site for a reason, and I believe that as much as it was to help me, I have to try to help the others on here.
So. Suicide tape.
I have been taping my wrists, ankles, and waist for the past few weeks. Like actually taping off the areas I like to cut. I use hockey stick tape, or sports tape because its more comfortable and I can write on it like paper. It also doesn’t attract […]
Lonliness….It’s what I feel everday of my life….It’s what I’ve felt for so long….too long….I’ve gotten used to being alone….but just because I’ve gotten used to this, it does not mean that I like to be alone…
My Names Jade And This is My Story ……..Well , it all started when I was in 1st grade……yeah , early right? I was being bullied everyday , not like calling me names when they walk by , 12 boys everyday at recess , pushed me on the ground and kicked me and hit me and threw things at me ……i tried telling teachers , and they thought I was faking , my own cousin tried stopping it ….she would grab a teacher , and they didn’t care either , I brought my mom and my mom even saw the boys kick me and beat […]